rchubn Posted August 24, 2019 Share Posted August 24, 2019 As a kid I always thought I'd get married and have kids, I literally looked forward to it but then reality hit and I realized it's not everyone's destiny. After dating around and having abusive relationships I kind of let that dream die and I grieved it. It's not in the cards for me and I've accepted that. Thing is, every once in a while I'll tune into a family vlog channel on YouTube or I'll see a cute family out and about and it makes me EXTREMELY sad and jealous. It makes me extremely jealous and resentful. Whenever friends complain about their marriage or kids, I feel this bitter energy inside me and I feel the green monster taking over. I just want to be a good friend and I don't want to be a jealous person. I'm in my mid twenties and as time goes on I will most likely run into more friends getting married and having children. I don't want to put that bad energy out in the universe because they're not to blame about my situation. They're all good people and I shouldn't have these jealous feelings about them. Sometimes I'll even cancel hang outs whenever a friend is trying to bring their kids along, I just dont want to put out that energy. My friends joke that I don't like kids or couples dates (even though I'm single. Basically 2 couples and me) when in reality, I love kids and I love hanging out with friends and their partners it's just that I struggle with the reminders. How can I fix this? Everytime I get single friends they end up finding someone, getting married and having kids. Link to comment
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