renaissancewoman101 Posted June 20, 2014 Share Posted June 20, 2014 Glad your healing is coming along so well. You have come a long way Link to comment
Seraphim Posted June 21, 2014 Author Share Posted June 21, 2014 Glad your healing is coming along so well. You have come a long way Thanks so much Renny! I feel like I have come along way. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted June 21, 2014 Author Share Posted June 21, 2014 Oooohhhh there is a TV show on right now about a mob boss I have met personally. He was at my step grandmother's funeral. I also worked with his daughter for 3 years. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted June 21, 2014 Author Share Posted June 21, 2014 I was thinking about something really degrading that my father forced me to live through. It pops into my head now and again. And it is really kind of embarrassing. And it is something I don't really like to talk about. When I lived alone with my dad for that while after he kidnapped us he would never buy me pads when I had my period. ( I got my period at 11 and he kidnapped us when I was 13) It would be so god-awful and I would have to use toilet paper. And often times he would not buy enough toilet paper or he would wait till somebody was on the toilet before he bought toilet paper and you would have to sit there and wait for him to come back from the store. Or if it was him that got stuck running out of toilet paper we would have to walk to the store and go get it. It was always so annoying to me though that he always had money for his McDonald's lunch and his bottle of scotch every day but I couldn't get something that I needed. ( and yes my dad was always an alcoholic when he was without my mom) There were so many situations that my father put me in that were so humiliating ,disturbing and disgusting it is no wonder that I have such a rage for him. He used to make me beg the other kids or the teacher for school supplies because he would never buy any. I always felt so humiliated. The whole time he never got me a haircut or bought me a pair shoes. My shoes were 2 sizes too small and I would have to curl up my feet into them. It would be hard to walk properly. It makes me irritated and angry to even think about this crap. I'm sure this is why I get so angry when I see my neighbour's kids get neglected. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted June 21, 2014 Author Share Posted June 21, 2014 So at my ASD group there was one lady that was talking about her tax reassessment. In Canada you can get a tax deduction for being the caregiver of a disabled child. Sadly I never knew this before. So we have to have 16 years worth of taxes reassessed. Anyway this woman was saying she got $40,000 back. I almost fell out of my chair! Link to comment
Seraphim Posted June 21, 2014 Author Share Posted June 21, 2014 I have six pages both sides so far as pre-work for my son's assessment. Six pages of what I felt was not typically developing behaviors. Or what was pointed out to me by educators that was not typically developing. Link to comment
redrose85 Posted June 21, 2014 Share Posted June 21, 2014 it would sure be nice to get those back taxes. I like to think of it as good karma for all that you went through in your earlier years Link to comment
Seraphim Posted June 21, 2014 Author Share Posted June 21, 2014 it would sure be nice to get those back taxes. I like to think of it as good karma for all that you went through in your earlier years It would be awesome Sherry!! I would put that money aside for my son though. It would help him start a great retirement plan. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted June 21, 2014 Author Share Posted June 21, 2014 So my son and I went out today and who do we meet ? Ya you guessed it my neighbour! Yippee ki yay ! We were in a restaurant and there they were. * eyes rolling* In fact him and my son were in the men's room at the same time. Thankfully they left. Then my son and I continued out onto a nice drive to a provincial park. Link to comment
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Cheetarah Posted June 21, 2014 Share Posted June 21, 2014 I LOVE crochet halter/tanks. I tried to make myself one. Um...It was like a pinterest fail. I found it really tough, lol. But they're so pretty! Link to comment
Seraphim Posted June 22, 2014 Author Share Posted June 22, 2014 I LOVE crochet halter/tanks. I tried to make myself one. Um...It was like a pinterest fail. I found it really tough, lol. But they're so pretty! I might try to make that one not that it would fit me not not size anyway I have to much of a bust. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted June 22, 2014 Author Share Posted June 22, 2014 Ha ha oh my god can you believe it my neighbor called the MPs again!!! Supposedly somebody drove on his lawn last week and he thought he'd called today and say it was us. Ha ha ha oh my God. WHAT A LOSER! I told the officer who came that this is just a ploy for him to ratchet crap up again. And that if he wants to be an a jerk I have no problem being a jerk and I have no problem getting a lawyer. And that this is rapidly becoming harassment. In fact it is harassment. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted June 22, 2014 Author Share Posted June 22, 2014 Ginger Baker ~ the first great rock drummer. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted June 22, 2014 Author Share Posted June 22, 2014 Hmmmmm maybe the local paper would like a story about the BS harassment that happens here. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted June 22, 2014 Author Share Posted June 22, 2014 I think I'm going to go to the nearest RCMP detachment on Monday. It is an hour and a half away. What a pain in the butt! Link to comment
t1lersm0m1 Posted June 22, 2014 Share Posted June 22, 2014 I love Florida. I mostly go to Disney. I would love to get to some of their National Parks, as I've been on a National Park kick since 2006. How often were you going? Link to comment
Seraphim Posted June 22, 2014 Author Share Posted June 22, 2014 I love Florida. I mostly go to Disney. I would love to get to some of their National Parks, as I've been on a National Park kick since 2006. How often were you going? Yeah I've never been to Disney. And I can't stand rides I get very seasick. I have really severe motion sickness. However two years ago my son did go to Universal Studios with my husband's sister. So he actually got to go to Florida twice at summer. That was our actual first trip to Florida as a family. My husband had been to Florida a few times as a kid. But when I was a kid I was raised out west in BC and Alberta so nowhere near Florida. And my mom valued much more learning about our own country. Not that I haven't seen a lot of the US because I have. From childhood up I've been going to the States and I've seen about 30 States. And I've been to almost everywhere in my own country. But I did love the Gulf Coast very much. And I did love the people in the South they are so very polite. Therapy ,well ,when I started in September 2012 I was going every week. And then after 6 months it was every two weeks and it has been every two weeks probably for a year and a half. I did try to taper down earlier this year in December/ January but that didn't fly too well. Found I still needed the support. Now I think I'm more prepared to fly pretty much almost on my own. That might not be the end of therapy for my life of course because they say I will need ongoing throughout life but there may be periods where I don't need it. I did have therapy as a teenager which was quite intensive every day for 5 days a week for over a year. And then it went to once a week for a little while. Mind you I have no memory of that therapy whatsoever. What I know of that therapy is what my mother tells me. Because of my PTSD I have problems re-creating my childhood in sequence and somethings are just missing. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted June 23, 2014 Author Share Posted June 23, 2014 An MP knocks on the door again this evening. And he says is your husband home ? I said no ,he's on shift why? He said if you could get him to call the detachment when he gets home. If you can believe it they gave him 45 minutes notice for a mediation?!?! He said no ,I won't be attending that I just finished four days of 12 hour shifts and I haven't even had my dinner yet. So no. I still think the local paper would love this story. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted June 23, 2014 Author Share Posted June 23, 2014 I want to go home I don't want to be here anymore. Link to comment
t1lersm0m1 Posted June 23, 2014 Share Posted June 23, 2014 Are you from Cananda? I'm seeing my LCSW every other week. But I've started going to Adult Children of Alcoholics meetings and LOVE it. I feel like I've found my sanity in an insane life. Your neighbor sounds nuts. Is that why the MP knocked on the door, the neightbor is starting trouble again? I'm sorry Link to comment
Seraphim Posted June 23, 2014 Author Share Posted June 23, 2014 Are you from Cananda? I'm seeing my LCSW every other week. But I've started going to Adult Children of Alcoholics meetings and LOVE it. I feel like I've found my sanity in an insane life. Your neighbor sounds nuts. Is that why the MP knocked on the door, the neightbor is starting trouble again? I'm sorry I am Canadian, yes. I live in Canada. I'm glad your LCSW is helpful ,that's what my therapist is too! I love mine she is so very easy to talk to. She is very gentle but very probing when she needs to be. And she has a very soft quiet energy about her. See I have never thought about my dad as an alcoholic even looking back now he clearly was when he was not with my mother. Yeah, my neighbor is a crazy redneck yahoo. He is basically trying to drive me crazy and trying to report stupid crap that we have never done because I reported them for animal abuse. He even made a threat against me. Yes ,he's trying to ratchet things up again because it's been quiet for two weeks and apparently he's crazy and doesn't like that. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted June 23, 2014 Author Share Posted June 23, 2014 Being targeted and being harassed by this guy really triggers my PTSD. It really really does. It reminds me when we were targeted and harassed and stalked my uncle. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted June 23, 2014 Author Share Posted June 23, 2014 I want to go home to my mother's for a week. But I know she won't take me. * sob* I really need to go home and take my boy with me. I really can't take the stress that my neighbour is creating here. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted June 23, 2014 Author Share Posted June 23, 2014 I just NEED to get out of here. Maybe I can go stay at the hotel. Link to comment
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