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Correction: Dostoevsky (Pretty close You're talking about a chance that I have; what kind of chance ? what is it ? Urmh you are missing a good point of the diagnostic. I never entered in a conversation with her.

One thing I might let you reflect on because I have nothing else to add in addition to your previous advises which by the way I agree with is: Wherever you would feel confortable receiving that kind of invitation, go for it. I'm not sure if I'm clear so I'll give you an example. You have been suggested to ask her to take a walk with you. Well ask yourself: If you would be to receive that kind of proposition, would you accept ? Think that way with anybody. Yet it's only an advise. Think wisely if you should apply it or not ( and why, why not) I'm pretty sure you'll get the best out of my words.

I have read your tread from a to z (It was easy and fun to follow and what I want to add is: We are 6 billion people in this world. Wait... 6bil-1, 6bil-2 oh no 6bil-4 and pop ! Average of 3 birth a second What I mean is that you can meet plenty of people yet I don't have to repeat body-duddy that answered you previously but I support his point.

Take the more and more time with her. Especially when you are alone with her. For this, invite her to do activities. Yet what brings you to act like I advises you ? Is it that you don't know at all ? Just try something out. You have plenty of time to get better at it.

My brain don't follow my emotions. Or I should say: my emotions don't listen to my brain. I've studied her more than anywhat; for every second I had a chance to lead my sight on her. Every particularities I found of her re-enforced my feelings and made me glance at her more often which came to become a vicious cercle yet it was against my will, at the point where I told myself: "Wait, you're putting too much energy in it !". Well, if it was possible to become true without faillure, I would put my life on it. A reason I try to avoid this illness is because I feel I have not much to inspire in her. I don't have self-confidence as high as she does, I presume. I should work on this before anything else but I do not, drifted by uncontrolled emotions. One day, I overheard that she had a boyfriend. I'm not sure at all since I didn't hear something as clear as "I got a boyfriend". However, it is as clear as the first time I saw her that I still am under this crush even after thinking she probably got another guy in her life. It sounds like it doesn't matter at all for me to keep being interested in her. Lastly, I've heard that woman had a "6th sense" for that kind of attraction. Noticing her activity, it's like if she would have known and she doens't seem to appreciate. Now if she freaked out there's nothing I can do more. In other words, I feel harassed... by her. I think it won't be better at going toward her since I would then get mad at myself for playing this game like a fool kid (and failling like a kid !) so instead I try to repulse my thoughts. And repulsing is a huge word in this case. It doesn't happen that way: the obsession just doesn't increase. She's leaving the school right after graduation. I feel like "YES!" at the same time as "SHOOT!". Of course I go like "shoot" before the "yes" since emotions are quicker than good reflections but... it's weird anyway.

Can you talk a bit more about that assignement with more details; the "ask for a date" ? There must be something I am missing because I don't quite get the idea. You know, I have never got sociology class

Well a lot of people appreciate chocolate and a few don't. Is it "bad" to not like chocolate ? I think your approach is more of: "Is it normal being part of the unusual category ?" Well everybody is different and to have 6 billion people different its just like if god will run out of new ideas. "Ah, that one will...get three legs !" Now if you differ from everybody for one thing but don't in the fact that everyone has his particularity, are you normal ? Personally, I think it's normal. Some don't because they see it another way. Now you're not sure if you're homosexual. Probably the best way to know if you are is: Would you see yourself live and share all your possessions (physical and psyhcological; everything) with a man ?

What kind of... "...does she likes me ?" kind of treads. Duh ! What a question ! I see too many here. I'm living something terrible, similar though nothing that obvious and I am looking for clues, tricks and hopes, a way to get out of my troubles in reading these posts yet its just like if everytime I would see those, the answer would be too clear to me compared to my problem. Bit sorry this tread is leading nowhere hehe but it made me reflect a lot on my case and I leave the possibility to add any comment on my critic (and for those who are curious, the chance to ask me to know my story).

Eat a blend up of food, you'll know what it tastes. People will get to know anyhow that you've tasted it one day but anyway, everybody has the right to eat its own way. What is the risk though is: you never know if it's gonna taste good or not ! That's just the spirit. Now taste anything new, you'll know what it's like. Yet your first right is to choose to act or not.

I...would not have tought that some people are so similar to one another. Anybody knows what...the guy in Africa is doing right now ? Now you may have seen thousands of people altogether but never did you see 6 billion. Yes, there are so many questions that we don't know the answer...SO many... Contact me, Nwadour. I...admit that I feel somehow the same as you...in the rational point of view. I really feel interested by your concerns as well as anything you posted. Yes, feel free to send me a private message. I do not know if it is this interest to communicate together is reciprocate, that's why I offer it to you. Otherwise, well, never let your acts come before you think yet don't think while before are your emotions fulfilled of filth. Whoah...nobody take this too serious, okay ? Just made this up