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  1. crizlee
    ok heres deal, im a senior, top 5%, taking all the hard classes. Im use to making A's but this year.. is different. Economics, the teacher is makin everyone fail on purpose to show how college is like, but some are making a B in his class. im making a C in there. Physics, the most boring science ever, and Im making a C in it. PreCalculus, hard math that I cant understand with a butthole teacher on speed teaching it. Ive gone to both Physics and PreCal tutorials and still cant get it. Both these classes has turned me away from the engineering field. I want out of em but im not a quiter. On the brightside, I took art this year and I really like it, I even got moved up to the next since level I was so good. anyways, Id appreciate anything like online resources like "this subject" for dummies.
  2. crizlee
    my dad just had a talk with me, he's become very reasonable and understanding now. he tried to kick my butt earlier because i threatened i would talk to the counselor and join the air force as a last resort... i was scared, he use to be special forces. they aren't goin to force the religon on me and i can live as me now. homecoming isnt a big deal really but not bein with the friends is.
  3. crizlee
    are these good reasons for leaving? 1)brainwashing 2)certain teachings specifically not taking blood, contradictions they just call it new light from god. 3)how the system works. 4)144,000 go to heaven and they know it through dreams, but they also say god doesnt contact us by dream these days. 5)isolation from the world 6)the big one, i dont believe in god. when i told my dad i dont believe in god, he just said we'll have to do a lot more studying. also note my dad use to be army special forces so i was scared when he tried to kick my butt.
  4. crizlee
    ok things have been really stressfull for me. for one, my parents are jehovahs witnesses and i dont want to be a jehovahs witness, i told them this and they got all crazy on me. i told them this because i wanted to go to homecoming, because they told me i couldnt go because i was a JW and so i said i wasnt. and they told me i still couldnt go. they threatened to not support my education if i do not follow their beliefs. my dad threatened to take me out of public school and i told him i have rights at my age. he then tried to kick my butt in which i defended myself. i told him if he did take me out of public school, ill get out of the house once im 18 and join the air force. he said thats really stupid. i find myself hating the weekends because i have no one to hang out with anymore. and im crying right now, is it right for guys to cry.
  5. crizlee
    this poem basically summarizes this: the girl that has been flirting with me and leading me on for 2 weeks declined my invite to homecoming. my truck is wrecked and i almost died. i told my parents im not a jehovahs witness, and now they dont treat me like a son anymore. today i told my mom, "hi how was your day?" she replied, "idiot." my friend said she would pick me up and take me to homecoming along with her friends. she never called me and picked me up. i asked the other girl who lead me on if she could atleast drop me off at my homecoming, she was at her football game. my parents are threatening to not let me go to college. they are threatening to take me out of public school. they are threatening to take my truck away. i havent had any fun time for 7 weeks now. all study and work. my church friends wont talk to me because of how i believe, im "bad influence" i just got a 71 in AP economics on my report card today. ive never had a girlfriend. ive hardly any friends at school because of the isolation this religion has forced upon me.
  6. crizlee
    lol how old are you? and why did you love her? maybe lusted over her nice body yea.
  7. crizlee
    Where is the ride that will set me free Its way ahead of me living While I sit here with nothing to forsee Where are the moments I want to live Something too far for my grasp Something has got to effin give I stand outside screaming, "Why why why?!" Why does it happen to me Why does it make me want to just die I stand by myself in the darkness With no other clear path With those thoughts of times I'll miss Oh please tell me how shall i pay Show me whats there to live for Cause i want to catch that ride someday Shattered dreams Broken wings Fading beams Failure swings While i feel the karma god's wrath I swear its all my fault again I swear its my bad karma again And I'm just gonna have to live with it again
  8. crizlee
    ive no clue, ive never been. i think its a football game and a dance afterwards.
  9. crizlee
    im thinking jeans, polo from hollister, and flip flops.
  10. crizlee
    this is my first time, going to homecoming and its my senior year. my parents wont let me go because they are jehovahs witnesses, so i have to sneak out with my friends. what should i wear? anything special?
  11. crizlee
    i tried to reason with them tonight, at home, at the restaurant, coming back home. they cant be reasoned with. im talking to my counseleor tomorrow. im sneaking out tomorrow. the worst that could happen: 1) they come get me at the football game or dance. 2) they take away my truck that will be ready tuesday. 3) they wont let me attend a college. 4) they pull me out of public school.
  12. crizlee
    ok ive known this girl for 4 years. she has been a great friend. my freshman year, i think she tried to ask me to go to this gig. but i made up some lame excuse when i really didnt have the balls to sneak out. my parents are jehovahs witness, and they force their religon on me, so im not allowed to hang out with anyone thats not their religion. the years went by, she got a boyfriend. its our senior year, im trying to change, make my life what i want it to be, free of this religion, escaping from being shy, and opening up to my peers. ive been very positive the beginning of the school year because so much things have been going my way. making friends that i shouldve made long ago, and partying. ive been to a few parties with my workmate who i tried to come on to, but she didnt have any feelings for me. i even asked her out to homecoming. my trucks wrecked, and homecomings within a week. so i asked my friend and she said i can come along with her boyfriend and her friend and her boyfriend. so im like thats weird but ok cool. so today she comes up to me and tells me that im her "unoffical date" for homecoming. she and her boyfriend broke up. add to that my parents wont let me go to homecoming with my friends, so im going to be sneaking out tomorrow.
  13. crizlee
    my dad offered to take me to the football game only, i cant go to the school dance. also im still having feelings over this girl at work who lead me on for like 2 weeks. leading me on so far as asking me out, me hanging out with her, her flirting at work. she found out i developed feelings for her. she stopped. we both use xanga, its a blog, and she left a comment saying thats just her how she is outgoing and flirtatious. i read through her blog. she had feelings for another guy at work in the first place. i dont know what to do. do i just forget about her? continue being work friends with her? royally screw her over? leave a comment towards her on my journal? these times have been very stressful.
  14. crizlee
    tonight my parents picked me up from work. my parents are jehovahs witnesses, the worst religion in the world. they told me i could not go to homecoming this friday because im not going with fellow jehovahs witnesses. i had plans to go with my friends that ive known, i wanted to go to this homecoming because ive never been. my dad gave me the option that he'll take me. right then i blew it, i told my parents i dont like being a jw, my mom threatened to tell on me to get me excommunicated. my dad stepped in then. i told them lots of things out of my butt and even tested them. im angry, sad, and bummed out right now. i really wanted to go to homecoming with my friends. i hate this religion, my mom is psycho. they threatened to not let me drive anymore, not let me go to college. i told them i would get help from the government once i turn 18, i would get a student loan and that ill live in a half way house.
  15. crizlee
    um i didnt go to work yet. but should i give her a hug at the work place? i have to go to work in 30 min.
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    should i give her i hug when i come to work today?
  17. crizlee
    thats what i thought, i look at my drawing right now, and wow it is very good. thanks, ill stop now. and just wait for tomorrow, i wont comment in her blog. she sounds very heart broke i would so very much like to cheer her up. this drawing is half way finished. hmm, maybe i could still give it to her to cheer her up. what it is is: the sea turtle is in the center of some gleaming sun rays. in each ray there are either starfish or bubbles. the rays on 1 side are complete but the rays on the other is blank. there is no writing on the shell. the bubbles are very detailed though... they look like sea shells kinda. so get back to me plz whether i should give it to her like this please. i was going to give it to her at the beginning of our shift. this IS a big risk, so plz be straight i do not want to screw up. i already screwed up once, she found out how i felt about her through my journal. thats why she declined me when i asked her out.
  18. crizlee
    ok this was the same girl that i fell for but she didnt have any chemistry for me. but i still care for her. yeah weird i guess. recently she got screwed over by a guy at work because he was still with his gf, im not sure, because she hasnt told me anything. she just posted that shes still mad that this guy at work screwed her over, but he's in jail now. she still wants him more. but shes mad at him still for screwing her over. she is really hurting. it shattered her selfrespect. this seemed to have made her, a smart person, not give a damn about school anymore. and it sounds like she wants to change what she wants to do in life. she wrote all this on her online journal, blogs that we share and leave comments for each other. now i want to help because i really care for her, what should i say? should i get involved? should i leave a comment? should i just wait and see her at work tomorrow? should i bring the subject up at work with her on break or wait for her to do that? so many questions, i want to help her. hmm im thinking of drawing this abstract picture of a turtle (her fav animal) with "kara 4 evah" on the shell. should i atleast draw her the picture? i need an answer around tonight so i can get started on it so itll be ready tomorrow. abstract takes a long time.
  19. crizlee
    ok when you said you want to find love or a even gf, did you mean finding love from a dude or a even from a girl?
  20. crizlee
    she responded to my txt by leaving a comment on my journal. she wrote: "thanks for the text today, i really appreciate it. more than you know. its really hard for me to talk about."
  21. crizlee
    start over with her. and i think its worked because the comment she left just then was very positive.
  22. crizlee
    ok heres the story, this girl i liked declined to go out with me because she found out how i felt about her through the most unusual way, my online journal. you have to understand she lead me on for 2 weeks, but she didnt mean it. but she declined me because she new how i felt about her. she sent me a txt message not long ago saying she wish never had found my journal. i want to start over new and make things work so im going to delete all entries or atleast make them private so no one else can see. is this a good idea to do this?
  23. crizlee
    i sent her a txt message saying this: "hey sweety, you seem troubled. is everything ok? call me, txt me, or whatever, u can talk to me. i worry for u." is it ok that i sent her this? and if she doesnt respond to this, the next time i see her on tuesday, i wont comment on it or bring it up. and if i do go on break with her, ill just ask her how have things been going with her. maybe ill ask her if she wants to come to homecoming along with my friends. is this the right thing to do? i want to improve the friendship between us and maybe something more.
  24. crizlee
    well im going to write her this because i think i should be there for her: "look babe, atleast it didnt get any worse. you can look at it this way, this happened for a reason because you deserve someone far more better. as i always say, the past happens so it could be learned from, to make the future better. for now, just enjoy living the single life because this will only heal with time. hang with your friends and forget this, have a good time while we live young. and do not let this crap change you from the person you are. cheer up babe, there are millions of dudes out there, that are trustworthy. hope you had fun at the party last night. ttyl. -chris" tell me what you think
  25. crizlee
    if i do get involved, is it ok if i tell her this: look atleast it didnt get any worse. this happened for a reason because you deserve someone far more better. you should look for a different kind of guy who is not so bad or even just go out and enjoy the single life. cheer up babe, there are millions of dudes out there, let love find you. i still find this ironic. lol.
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