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  1. Cycosis
    If they say anything that basically means "no" then you should pretty much slow it down a bit.
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    Ok.... I'm kinda hoping I can pick a womans brain on a few things. I have some questions I wanna ask someone who's been through a highly abusive relationship. Both mentally and physically. If anyone out there wants to help answer a few questions for me then just send me PM.
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    Hatred in my heart Anger barely kept in check Surrounded by lonliness Tears that bring no relief Caught with my guard down Caught unaware Trying but failing Always failing Feeling lost Hoping to be found Seeking relief Waiting for the pain to fade Knowing another will take it's place Rarely knowing happiness Knowing only pain A life full of misery A misery that doesn't love company Always dealing never succeeding Trying but failing Waiting, always waiting Waiting for you
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    Writing when you're happy has to be on of the hardest things there is. I explained to someone once that if I was at the happiest point in my life, whatever it may be, I wouldn't be able to express it in words. It's just too hard.
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    Just something I wrote. Since I'm not doing good today I figured I just post it. Lonliness abounds Loveless to the end Shattered pieces of a promising life Abysmal, neverending sorrow Confining walls of misery Taste the lips of hopelesness Feel the body of a wrongfull desire Crimson tears of pain Look into the eys of a blackened soul Downward spiral of lost hope To feel the spark of happiness lost forevermore Draped in the shroud of life Plodding through everlasting lies Always knowing what was hoped for will never be Always seeking the one Believing the lies Praying to deaf ears Unheard pleading of hope Sorry Wrongfull choices made in life Wrongfull promises Failed again and again Dreaming to be set free No longer able to bare it Descending the ladder of nothingness Praying for a change Knowing none will be The immortal ache of despair gripping like a vice Lifeless eyes of sorrow Denying what in known Cradeling the tiniest spark Crystall ball holding the future Afraid to look Knowing, knowing saddness abounds Falling into the spiked pit of life Reaching up to the hand of faith Never close enough to be the saving hand of grace Empty heart Tired of trying
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    When you date someone with a kid you are in a relationship with both. Perhaps she sees the way you are with her kid and likes it. Kinda like a father figure. She may not be totally in love with you but might be torn between doing something good for the kid. Either way she is confused about what to do. So pretty much tell her what you just wrote.
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    Try talking to her about it. My friend distanced himself from us cause we wouldn't believe what he did. And we distanced ourselves from him cause he was full of it.
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    Her butt, then they eyes. Eyes would be first but they aren't always that easy to see at first. I'm a sucker for beautiful eyes.
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    I had a friend like that once. The guy started going to this church (cult). Slowly but shurely he started changing. He became Mr. Relegion. I'm not an athiest or anything but I totally hate when people start pushing their beliefs on me. All he would talk about was God this God that. He started pulling away from us. He basically said we where no good and that we where all going to hell. Mostly cause the crap he was spewing about God and everything was BS. He showed us his bible. There was so much crap in there that was different from the Catholic bible. We would all argue with him about it. Finally just stopped talking to the guy. He got pretty much brainwashed in my oppinion. Nothing against relegion or anything but them Evangelical preacher types annoy me. You can't really do anything about it. It's the persons choice to live the way they want and to believe what they want.
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    It just hard sometimes. I know it's because it's so soon after our breakup. When I've talked to her I've said a few sarcastic things. Stuff I never would have normally said. For instance she was telling me how I gotta stop drinking and only thing I said was "Thanks Ma". She got a little ticked at me saying that. Sometimes I just gotta bite my tongue so I don't say something I'll regret. I know if I say something it'll bring about 20 seconds of enjoyment to me then after that I'll be like why the F did I say that. Especially now that I'm having problems at work. I get pissed about that and then it just makes me get pissed about everything else going on. It's just a crappy situation.
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    Do criminals ever plan on getting caught? Not usually but our jails and prisions are full of 'em.
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    If a 30 something year old teacher is gonna go after a teenager then I got one thing to say... Just taking advantage of you and trying to get a piece of ass.
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    Been there before. Back when I was in hight school I started dating this girl. We where together for five years. When she dumped me it was the end of my world at that point. I drank like a fish. One night I was so depressed and angry I trashed my whole room. Destroyed pretty much everything I owned at the time. I just wanted to Die. I sat on my bed holding a piece of glass from a broken beer bottle. I sat there just wanting to slit my wrists. I couldn't do it though. I was thinking about everyone in my family all my friends. What I'd miss out on in life. So instead of slashing my wrists I just slashed my arms numerous times. I didn't want to really die but I had to do something. I look back today and think how friggin stupid I was. Kill myself? What the hell was I thinking? I still have the piece of glass and the scars on my arms to remind me of my idiocy. I'm still alive and kicking and going through more BS cause of a girl. I've changed somewhat when it comes to wanting to hurt myself. Instead now I'll get a tattoo. It hurts and it bleeds but at least it leaves a beautiful scar.
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    I'm not usually like that. It usually takes alot to really get me pissed. It's more like I was a little pissed about not working. We've been REALLY slow the past like 2 months. The bills are just barely getting paid cause of the lack of work. While I was sitting around I guess I ended up thinking about stuff. Not always a good thing. I just got more and more pissed about the situation I'm in, being basically dumped. I feel a little better now. But when I got home from work I was just pissed. I just kept thinking about getting wasted. Not a good thing I know. It would have just made everything worse.
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    If you really want her you gotta take the chance. She may feel the same for you, who knows. But if you wait like 5 or 6 months then feelings can change. You may feel differently about her then. Or she may. Maybe she likes you now. She may get tired of waiting and find someone else. She may not like you like you do her at the present moment. 5 months from now she may. It's all basically what ifs. So all I gotta say is if ya want it do it.
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