Well, now at this point my life is pretty black. My girlfriend dumped me, i am neclegting my friends and i am just pretty depressed. I am thinking about killing myself but then i think of my parents and i know that they could never handle it. If it wasnt for them i would probaly not be writing this. I have started drinking and even now i have a beer beside me while i read this and i fear that one day i will go to far... Maybe this ends tomorrow, maybe in a month or perhaps i will get over this all and rise triumply. Just wanted to spill my heart. Live long.