babygurl

Great poem, heartfelt, how long have you been writing? Keep it up

Hey ELEONORA!! Well, I'm just going to give you my opinion on what I'd do; and I wouldn't call. I would feel it would be bringing the past up, u said u broke up on bad terms, so I would leave it. I'd be to cautious of bringing up memories, or relighting old flames, or even just stirring emotions. You said you didn't call on his Birthday, he obviously thought it wasn't a good thing to do. So I wouldn't. I wish you good luck in what you decide to do. Good luck

I was completely depressed and I came on here. Just seeing that I wasn't alone, and hearing people's kind words made me feel better. I got sent a poem by Pimpcess and she really made me feel better, it was a lovely poem that I now have on my wall, it inspires me when I'm low. But thankyou all, this is a lovely site, you all helped me. Thankyou. Laura

Okay... im gonna put on my glad rags and knock him dead... metaphorically. Aahh scary. Thanx guys.

Thanx 4 the reply, But yeah I would never go there if he has another girl, which is a possibility, but even after 4 years I still think a lot about him, which is strange, but nice, it brings a smile 2 my face. The worst that could happen... hmmm... I dont know... so u think I should just go back 2 the pub we met, if he's not there I know someone who knows him will be.... and just go say hi... u dont think Im stupid 4 clinging onto this?

Hey all!! I met a guy about 4 years ago. Wow he blew me away, I was 13, he was 17, and I know that was a problem 4 him, which was fair enough. But I know he liked me, he told my friends and family, but never me, he wasn't shy, he was loud and popular with the ladies, he used to always say, 'I wish she were older'. I met him at the pub my mum cooked at, he used 2 drink there, and I'd just sit around, and he used to watch me, he would just stare and stare, even when his friends were there, he used to give me looks, I could tell so much from his eyes. But I could never hold his gaze. He hugged me a couple of times... and I turned to jelly. But sadly we moved away, we had to, so I didn't see him anymore. It broke my heart, I cried and cried. Well recently due to my step dads work, we've moved back there, and I cant stop thinking about him, I have over the past 4 years, he hasnt took over my life or anything, I've had relationships, but he was just sooo kind and caring, I went through a lot then and he used to try and help me. Well anyway, I found my diary from back then, wow my feelings were intense, for a 13 year old extremely. So next week I plan to go back to that pub on a friday, and see if he's there, I know he still lives there, I saw him a couple of times, but just couldn't say hi. So my question is... Do u believe in Fate?? The feelings I still feel astound me, I know he's special, Im 17 now, should I let go, or carry on... I know that people change, but still, theres 'this' feeling. Even my mum wants me to get with him and she hates all my men! This is something strange Im feeling, I could let go, but somethings making me not. Do u think Im clinging onto something that will never happen? Im confused. Thanx 4 listening.

Thankyou everyone for your replies, and I'll try, but I've talked calmly, screamed, shouted at the top of my voice with tears down my face, and she's still told me not to be silly. Its the same with my bro and sis, we all moved out before we were 15, just because when Im with her I feel so horribly uncomfortable, I do blame her 4 this, she's my mum, our bond is never meant to be broken. My friends complain how there mums nag, and intrude in there lives. I would do anything for that, but she has a new family. It was my birthday 2 weeks ago and she came 2 see me 4 30 minutes, at christmas I spent the night alone, I just cannot see how a mother can do this. But yeah, I will get myself to the doctors just to see what he says. Thanx again everyone ('',)

Thankyou 4 you're reply it bought a tear to my eye to think some1 understands. Yes thats why I thought she's doing it, I think she thinks Im grown but Im just 17 and right now need her more than ever, and she thinks she had such a bad life so now she's gonna make up for it. But I cant have a part time mum I need her but she doesn't understand. Theres a big history of mental health in my family, my dad still has it now, and I though about going 2 the doctors, or councelling, but the way I see it is there are people soo much worse, I dont want to look stupid, and I do not wanna be diagnosed with depression at my age. Well thankyou 4 your comforting words it made me feel better 2 spill it out, thankyou very much. Baby

Hey, I feel a bit silly coz Im not entirely sure what to say, But my head feels so messed up. I was wondering if any1 has any suggestions as to how u get over the past? My childhood was unhappy, sure people have had worse, but my 1st memory, was being 4 years old and my mum asking me on my bed if I'd mind my dad going in jail. All I seem to remember is violence between my parents in my early years, no love whatsoever, my mum tried her best 4 me til I was 13, me and my brother and sister, she worked 2 jobs so we had everything we needed, she was my idol, I loved her soooo much. She had to deal with 3 kids, while my father lived with us and bought nothing but alcoholism, gambling addictions, mind games, OCD, Violence. Everytime my mum got paid he would take her money and go spend it. But she was my role model, eventually they split, I told her to, I detested my own father, he used to call me fat, ugly. One day he bought me some Chocolate and I was suspicious but so happy, that was the 1st thing he had EVER bought me. Well to cut this shorter, now they've split, and she's been remarried 4 3 years, and she acts like Im not her daughter, when she 1st met this new man she'd stay at his and I'd have a weekend mum, I just get tears in my eyes even typing this. I live with my sister now and me and dad are building bridges, but everytime I think of this, it tears me up, I trust no1, no1 gets in. I cry at the drop of the hat, and sometimes I just feel so worthless. If any1 has anything to say it'd be so appreciated. I just want to be happy Im only 17, why do I have to deal with this.

Thanx every1 for you're brilliant advice. I t helped me and has made me see this in a different light. Thanx again! ('',)

Hi everyone, im new 2 this site and need opinions. Im an outgoing girl, I like 2 go out and have fun. I know Im not bad looking, but I attract the wrong attention. But I've assessed my life lately and Im not happy. I think Im a bit of a slut really, I dont hate myself, but every man I go 4 has just wanted 1 thing, I've only ever slept with 1 person, and he meant a lot, it happened 3 times but after each time he pretended like it never did. Im 17 and my longest 'relationship' is 3 weeks, I dont ask a lot, just 4 some1 that'll be there 4 me but'll also allow me to have my own space. Just a healthy companion, Ive got a lot of mates but I need some1 closer. I dont want u 2 think Im a tart but In the past year I've kissed about 60 men, and fooled around with about 5, I just want a nice relationship, I dont look 4 it, but every1 I get just wants 1 thing and my trust is shattered, I just want some1 to love and respect me, Im happy and confident but these men that just want my body and not my personality are shattering me slowly... I hope some1 can understand...