kiasuten

Well, depending on which college I choose to go to at the end of this school year... I hope to be graduating from college, or already having been graduated, and working on my master's for a year. I'll be studying Education, specifically Secondary English. I'm not good at math, I don't like Science, and History is cool, but not for me. I also want to be having my one-year anniversary of marriage to my high school sweetheart, and planning a child, as well as working on the blueprints of the reconstruction of my home. Life is so good right now. I just wish it would last.

the great bum would be my next question; thank you so much! lol Thanks, everyone, for the replies. I appreciate it greatly. Kiasuten

Well, I'm cool, because I don't like salad dressings. I usually use lemon juice, as I've said (real lemons and the only time I use vinegar/oil is when I'm at my boyfriends, and his mom makes it. Generally, it's a small amount, otherwise, I'd get sick, anyway. How do I get protein if I don't eat meat? I don't know about them magic pills they have.. and please, please don't suggest the protien "just-add-milk-or-water" powder stuff from GNC. I can't keep it down. One can only eat so much peanut butter, too... That's the only issue, I guess-- I really like French Fries (practically all I eat) and I don't get protein.

My diet isn't too reasonable (Issues that are rather unexplainable, I'd rather not get into it). I'm trying hard though, and with my diet restrictions, I'm trying to get through with salad (tomatoes, lettuce, cucmber, and usually lemon juice instead of vinegar/oil) i try to get wheat and grain at breakfast.. I don't eat any poultry or fish-- no type of meat at all. I don't have a bike.

iPod? Pssssht, I said I'm broke (lol). Seriously, I only have a CD player, and it's good for not skipping, but after a while it might start since I'm bouncing around. haha in Philly, there are alot of places to walk/run, but there aren't too many without the high percentage of getting shot (well, not in my area). Plus, most of my friends are the indoors type, and i'm not allowed to have anyone over. so, about 80 minutes on a CD, and i'm running solo. so... yeah, i've already started with the crunches (i think they're fun, actually), i'm working on push-ups to rid me of the arm flab, and i'd like to walk home from school, but as i've said.. it's not safe, especially not at night. so, i'll try the treadmill and the basic exercises for now. oh, and i meant to ask... a lot of my friends are on the wrestling team, and the coach makes them (beginning) run up and down the stairs (3 floors-- 6 flights) 5 times. now, they're doing it 30 times, and they're running. can this improve my stamina, too? thanks again

anyone know of a good workout, without any instruments? i have a treadmill, and one of those stretchy cords with the handles on it... but nothing else, and i'm broke, so i can't afford anything else (nor save for it, until after february). and also, any good workout music? generally, i like dance and techno music, and sometimes quick classical music... have any specific suggestions? i'd love some input, and something a little different. i'm just trying to fix my weight issue, as everything else in my life i have no control over... maybe this will help me gain control over the things i feel so helpless about. thanks kiasuten

Hah, we had a similar argument in my health class 2 years ago. My health teacher kept telling us that you could get pregnant, but he was a really bad liar, and everyone knew it. It's obvious that you can't get pregnant that way. I suppose he just wanted everyone to refrain from any sexual activities. There are way too many pregnant girls at my school, anyway.

That's funny because i didn't even say i was planning on anything....

I know that people cry when they end a relationship, like... if my boyfriend breaks up with me, I'll cry, but.. Have you heard of people crying when they break up with someone? Why would they cry? I know that if my b/f broke up with me, I would cry an ocean, but evertime I even think of breaking up with him, I start crying and just can't stop (as I type this, it's happening). Explain? Anyone? Kiasuten

1. List things that you are proud of and achieved in this year. a. Won the Debate Award in my summer program b. am president of my National Honor Society chapter c. am making my deadlines for college (ahem but barely...) d. slowly becoming less attached to my boyfriend... but still loving him unconditionally e. am ranked 35 of 527 of my graduating class 2. List things that you would want to achieve next year (2007) a. be accepted to a 4 year university b. make top 25 of my graduating class so i can walk the stage in white robes c. lose 55 lbs to meet the healthy weight for my body--- 165lbs!! d. actually work to fix my eating disorder there's probably more i want to do but i can't think of them good idea for an exercise. it's easier to do something when it's solidly in front of you.

I'm a senior in high school and I just met someone who I've come to care for greatly. Let's call her... Reilly. I met Reilly in October, and she seemed really cool. Only she was having woman problems (Reilly is lesbian, but that's not the issue). Reilly was going with a girl, let's call her Anne, for about a year, and they recently broke up when I met Reilly. She was very hung up on this breakup-- she was convinced that this was the girl of her dreams, and they were meant to be together forever-- but this girl broke up with her for another girl... and now Anne treats Reilly like crap, and calling her a b***h and stuff like that on the phone...hanging up on her, and Anne's new girlfriend is telling Reilly to stay away from Anne. This makes me super mad. She doesn't deserve this. Reilly is extremely happy when I see her in school, but she told me that when she goes home, she's really depressed and upset all the time. I understand that, because I get like that, too, but I know why I do. I think, and I've told her this, that she needs to try to get over this girl, because she has no feelings for her, except friendship... Last time I mentioned this was through instant messenger, and today in school it was really tense... I feel like I messed things up. I really care about her. I don't want her to get hurt. I want her to be happy like she was when I met her. I spend a lot of time with my boyfriend, so I was thinking that one day I could give up spending with him after school, and instead visit her... but I don't want her to think that I'm trying to control her, or that I'm obsessed or anything. What am I doing? Is it wrong? Do you have any suggestions? What's going on???? Thanks

How do you know when you're IN love with someone? I think that if you're truly in love with someone, you don't care what it would cost you, you would do anything for them. I am deeply in love with my boyfriend, and if making him happy meant breaking up with him, so he could be with someone else, I would do it. And he helped me realize that this is what love really is.

...I'm not the most sexually experienced person, but I suppose my input won't hurt. I've only been with one person, and that's my boyfriend of almost one year. I'd say he's... 6.2 inches (LOL that's oddly specific and average)... and although i get no real stimulation (that could cause orgasm) through vaginal intercourse, I still enjoy sex. Maybe you need to take over... like, I can't orgasm from just vaginal intercourse with my boyfriend unless I'm on top, like say... i suppose I get more stimulation the way I need it if I'm on top because movements are different... so maybe the WAY you're doing it is what's the problem, not necessarily the size. i don't think you're shallow... i just think you haven't found the right person, the right position, or the right way for you.

Wow, I feel like crying now. But it'll be a happy cry. Thanks, everyone, for your thoughtful replies. To shikashika: Thanks fo My boyfriend is pretty lovely And yeah, I can tell him what I wrote here. Thanks for the compliment. To DN: Thanks for your reply. I didn't think I'd still cry if I told myself that I don't care anymore... I honestly don't care what they do. I can't change the way they act, I can only change how I react and how I use that to be better than them... so why can't I move past it? To Juliana: Thanks for reassuring me that I won't be automatically happy for admitting that I'm being treated better now, although my dysfunctional life before was screwed up and affects me in a bad way. Thanks everyone, Kiasuten

I joined eNotAlone today because it's my birthday. I turned 17 today... and I'm having a lot of trouble with life. It's my senior year of high school. Yeah, I know it's going to be hard and stuff... and I can handle it, or so I thought. My boyfriend and I have been together for about 10 months (11 on Oct. 25!!) and he's truly my everything... my family situation sucks (my dad's been in and out of prison since forever, my mom lost custody after getting divorced from my step dad about 4 years ago and she'd been too obsessed with herself to care, my baby brother is staying with his brainwashing dad, and my other brother and i are living with my dad's parents... my grandparents were cool when we only came over one weekend, but now when we moved in, they started to show their true colors-- they didn't want us there, only took us to rub it in my mom's face, and they definitely hate me because i remind them of the woman who supposedly ruined their son's life) So yeah, there's my background. The problem I have today... My boyfriend and our best friend took me to the mall today, and they were going to buy me stuff for my birthday. I was happy, too, because even though my family didn't remember my birthday (I didn't really care), my boyfriend's family did. They got me a cake before I left, and we took pictures, they sung Happy Birthday, and they smooshed cake all over my face. It was cool. But after I got to the mall, I got all depressed and sad. It's my birthday, I shouldn't be sad. So while my boyfriend and friend went into a store that I wasn't interested in, I said I'd sit and wait. I ended up crying, and my boyfriend started feeling really bad. So from 11 am to about 6 pm I cried maybe... 4 times. And I don't know why. I really love this guy. People in school, who I knew since I moved here, told me that I looked almost suicidal in 9th and 10th grades (and I was, to be honest, but shhhhhh) but in 11th grade, when I met him, people said I changed... I got really happy and people noticed that change. Even my best friend told me that my boyfriend changed... he was so unfeeling, he looked nonchalant and just bored all the time... but now that we're together, he laughs and he looks genuinely happy. But I cry a lot, and he doesn't know what to do. He says it kills him everytime he sees me cry, and he begs me to stop, but I just can't. Today was the first time he cried because I cried... and I had it stuck in my head, and I told him, the day you cry because of me is the day we break up, because i can't bear to see you all broken up like that. We have amazing communication skills, but it's hard to communicate why I'm crying to him if I don't know why I'm crying. I know if we break up, I'll cry more than I already do, and with my past depressions I'm starting to think that I could possibly end up suicidal. I just want some opinions on what could be wrong with me. Teenage hormones? Girl hormones? HELP ME PLEASE.