Baby_Blue_Eyes

Behind A Pretty Face By SB She was a beauty queen A three thousand dollar smile the tender age of only sixteen She made herself seem worth while She played life like it was a game She would gamble away everything she had All for the fourtune and the fame Fall in and out of the raging fad She broke hearts as her hobbie And collect them in a jar on a shelf Her favorite boys where rich,cute and snobby She never knew how it felt to play victim herself Everyone knew her name They all had things they would say But with all the lables came the fame She had an image to uphold and portray But to live this life you pay the price She lost the one thing that kept her sane With the loss of him nothing would suffice Life stated to crumble to something she couldnt contain It drove her into someone elses embrace Trying to make the memories fade But she was missing a part of life no one could replace She never got the answer to why no matter how hard she prayed She partied away the life she once knew She drank away the smile One shot after another with a following thank you Until passing out on bathroom tile She contimplated suicide without a note goodbye But soon learned of a life to live for and smiled Seeing how it all turned out she broke down to cry The life that saved her was the one of her unborn child (This one I went pretty deep with it due to the fact it holds some memory in it for me)

These are from my private journal. I just love to go back a re-read them because to me they are like healing poetry. So let me know what you think maybe you can relate to some of them. "Back to that old football feild" When summer comes it brings me back to the place where we first met in early September, The heat of that summer was still blowing in on that soon to be winter wind. It got late as you held me tight I never knew if this was wrong it felt so right, back to that place at that old football field where we packed our love with a gold seal. I looked in your eyes as the evening sun went down we were young but some how we found a love that would never end. "Only in memory" time can not heal what we feel this pain is so real we thought we knew one another but we were young and we were so wrong only to live to learn that we could love but also we could hurt you took me by the hand lead me astray from everything i believed in that night came with such grace without warning you came i remember you looked in my eyes and smiled as you laied me down your arms held me with every hope of not letting go as your hands moved over my heart you got closer to me then i thought you did we sinned but thought it was worth while only to find out that we would fall now that im here left alone you are here now only in my memory maybe im still in your heart but till then we live on only in memory " I hope you feel my finger nails running down his back" I tried to come the fact that you werent ever going to see me the same as you did before. we have grown up and so much apart That we were no longer best friends nor lovers and that most likely i was to you the worst person in the world. I cant say I blame you or myself I think i blam the both of us me more then you because I have always been that way. I will never be there to slap you when i get mad at you and you wont be there to kiss me. I wont be there to give you my heart with love and you wont ever be here to give me your twisted smiles and cold heart. I will never hear your voice on the phone and you will never hear me hang up. You are moving forward with your life and im stuck in reverse. You burn the pictures of us and I put them in a box. I will never see you so deperate to hold me..and you will never see me cry again. you will never be here to witness my stupidity and i will not be there to correct yours. we will never laugh at one another anymore. You will never lay in my bed so silent as you did before. and i will never be there to lay on your chest and hear your heart beating so fast after that. you wont be here to scream at me and i wont be there to walk all over you. You will never witness me make a scene and I wont be there to make you want to watch. you wont be here to hold my hand with pride and i wont be there to give it to you. so to make it short and sweet the past is gone and there is nothing we can do but move on. So Merry Christmas so long to 3 years Happy New Years to you starting over new. " A sad excuse for a love letter" It’s been a few months since we last actually sat down and had a real conversation it’s me. I get swept up in the cheap moments that tempt me. Instead of waiting for the ones that really mean something. I was always a sucker for a fast talker instead of a fast thinker. I am still young and I still have learned so much from past mistakes. You have always been there for me like always watching from a safe distance And I know it hurts you more to see me going down like that. I might be momentarily preoccupied with the glitz of what they have to offer "Which isn’t much at all". It seems like almost every one of them I have made into what they are now. I was the one who got them as far as they are. They are nothing but fabricated and molded into my somewhat exspectations. somewhere in the back of my mind I thought of you and all that you told me. Sad but true ever word was the truth and I just didn’t want to hear that because it hurt. But really I needed to hear it because the fact is I would much rather hear lies. I think most people are like that they want to be happy and told what they want to hear not what is the facts. You think that he is better then you. You are wrong. He may have different status but really he is self centered only on what he wants and needs which is nothing but favors. But then again I guess everyone has there flaws. Like everyone has there weakness and I am one to have a weakness it is to give in or give up too easily. I guess overall I never can make up my mind. But in some since I am doing just fine. Oh, what a ridiculous excuse for a letter. The you has changed... because I can't stand to talk about him anymore. It took me long enough to know what I want and what we are. I've made a lot of mistakes in the past, and I'd rather not make them again. Maybe it will be different this time maybe it will be the same we live and we learn. but most impotrantly we Love "Summer love never last" I loved you enough to let you go but that dosent mean that I dont think about you. But thats all in memory, I remember early summer and how you laid there in the grass I laughed and made fun of how you looked like an A&F model.. then you smiled, pulling me down and I messed up your Jcrew looking shaggy hair. you had on that sexy polo i loved. that was a summer we both had a strong friendship. I remember us playing football and acting all crazy. Those crazy night at your cousin at the bonfires.. Now we talk from time to time. you tell me how your life is going I tell you how mine went.. you say being 17 now is hard and I tell you to stick it out. I guess im just addicted to the way you say my name. you come to see me, give me a hug then strike that pose and laugh. what can i say i still wear your hoodie from time to time, and I guess you still have the pictures of us hanging on your wall x3 All Copie Writed by SB so be nice & dont steal

First time mom to be .. =) Due date April the 21st but hoping to have Him on Easter!

Six Steps In Life by SB It all started with a Friendship that turned into a smile. followed by our two hands meeting. the question was go out with me the answer to come was yes It all started with a Courtship that turned into love followed by our eyes meeting. the question was do you the answer was yes i love you It all started with a Relationship that turned into a passion followed by our lips meeting the question was are you sure the answer was its worth it It all started with a Partnership that turned into a conflict followed by pieces of us meeting the question was are you ready for this the answer was ready for the world It all started with Two Lives that turned into one followed by our hearts meeting the question was will you the answer was I do It all started with Two People that turned into one person followed by a beautiful meeting the question was what is it the answer was a boy It ended with a Family (Well what do you all think about this. I love writing but i never have posted anything for some feedback on it. Just thought I would do something to pass some time.)

Well I left my boyfriend & im now living back home. He started calling the house and we had his number blocked and his mothers number. One thing I do want to know about it Custody of my son.. Im not yet 18 im still only 17 the age on my thing is wrong. & my ex is only 17. So will i have to get full custody or where my ex is not yet 18 does it matter? I know about the child support issue already. My ex's mother will have to pay child support until he turns 18. But i just dont want him around my son or his mother because they would teach my son bad things I feel. Oh by the way I live in Virginia because i know all laws are different in different states. So could anyone help with maybe a website or something because i really havent had a chance to go talk to someone yet myself.

yes i see now. I could care less about me its about my son skylar that im trying to watch out for. He will be here soon and i want him to be in a safe environment. I have made up my mind that im going to leave my boyfriend. I can go and stay with my parents but what i dont know how to do is what do i tell my boyfriend before i leave. & i know he will be calling my parents and trying to get contact.

Well my relationship is slowly falling apart. & honestly im starting to just give up the hope of it actually making it somewhere. Im currently 7 months pregnant & my babys father (my current boyfriend) is starting to get under my skin in the worst ways. Our relationship was good and strong the first 4 months I guess you could say that was the honeymoon stage then it turned for the worst. We started fighting being real verbal with one another. The it started getting to the point where it was physical. & me being pregnant i know thats not the best combination. He is jealous, he dosent want me emailing my best guy friends, or IMing them. He gets his best friend to hack my email & he changes my IM & email passwords so i can not get on there and contact anyone. He holds a grudge on some of my family memebers because they are not what you would call the fondest of him. He says hurtful things to me & then turns around and blames the way he treats me & acts like its my fault. He smokes weed & drinks. Alchohalism runs threw his family his father has it & uncles. He also curses alot & has a real short and high temper. Im just trying to think what is going to be best for my son & me both. I do not want my son growing up hating or showing fear of his father. But for some reason i havent left him yet. I dont know why i cant maybe i think just because he is my sons father i cant bail out on him like them. & as far as me caring about him i do. But im just lost i dont know what i can say to him to make this better. I guess there really isnt anything that i can say. As far as me finding someone that cares about me and my son i know i wouldnt have any trouble doing that. To find someone that will treat me with respect. Im open to your comments. thank you.

Well im on my friends account she told me about this site & how good it is for hard problems so here I am asking for a little help. So here is my story... Im 16 and 6 months pregnant. I am living with my mom & her boyfriend. The only problem with that is that I dont like her boyfriend. My baby is due in April and me and the father ( who is 16) are still together. He goes to school half of the day and works the rest of the day till 11. He works on weekends to. That leaves little time for us to see one another but we manage. My problem is that im trying to keep my baby away from my moms boyriend because he is a real bad influence & not a very good person. The only choice I have is either to get my mom to leave him and us move into a house together so she can help me with the baby when i return to school, or my boyfriends mom and dad offered me to move in with them. they have an extra room that they are willing to turn into the nursery. But i dont know if my mom would be up for letting me live with them. She does however know that me and my boyfriend are engaged and she really likes my boyfriend because where he acts responsible. But my moms boyfriend is the problem. He trys to act like my dad. He acts like i need to get permission from him if i want to go somewhere, & that he needs to know where I am at all times. He drinks coming home late at night drunk. He is constantly fighting with my mom telling her she dosent know what she is talking about and calling her names. My mom has to do everything herself. She holds down a job takes care of the house. I try to help her as much as i can cleaning and doing the dishes and fixing dinner for her when she has to work late. He dosent even really work. My mom has such a hard time paying bills she has to pay the important ones first like the water,my doctor bills, & buy food & things we need like cleaning supplies. She cant afford a phone or cable & he wont help her because the money he dose make he supports his habbits with. I think he is uses crack and cocaine. because I have found it before while dusting in my moms room around his desk. & you think that i want my baby around someone like that. But i dont know what i can do about it, i live in virginia and im not sure what the laws are pertaining to that sort of thing. I just dont want to get my mom introuble because i love her dearly and she is trying to help me the best she can but i just want whats best for my baby & that is no environment to grow up in. so a little advise would be a real big help thank you.

Well i need some help, by the way im on my sisters account so yeah anyway.. Im 16 & pregnant living in the state of Virginia, me and my boyfriend (who is also 16) are wanting to get married soon. His mom is fine with it but idk what mine would think i dont think she would go for it. We want to get married before the baby is born & its due in april. I know you all are going to say you should wait but we have been together for 4 years and we are having a baby together. We have overcame many thing most teenage couples didnt. But I was wanting to know is there any way we can get married in Virginia without parental consent considering im pregnant. If you know about this law & know of where i can find link where it states that fact then that would be wonderful. Thank you to those who help me.

Okay as you all know im pregnant and im of the age 15 - i know it says 17 but this is My "sisters account" anyway. i have a few things i need to get straight. I live in the state of VA & i need to know. Q: Can my grandmother who has custody of me keep the father of my baby from seeing me or the baby after the baby is born? Q: Can she send me off somewhere finding out that im pregnant? I know these are really weird questions but i have just been worried about this alot thanks for your help.

Well as i told you before im pregnant 4 weeks to be exact. My boyfriend knows but my parents dont. His mom has been hinting around at it so we think she knows. I dont think i can tell my family honestly i dont. Im starting to feel scared about it because i dont know if they will be behind me 100%, they had big plans for me. Going to VT & getting a good job- now plans have changed. Im engaged as of now me and my boyfriend are getting married soon. Idk i just have been so worried about it. I want this baby im so excited that i will be able to bring a gift from god into the world- but i dont think i can handle the disappointment from my family. It will honestly kill me to think that they will fait me for this. Im just so scared im not even 16 yet i wont be until november. im just a child but that is all soon to change. If god didnt want me to have this baby he wouldnt have let it be & they say he never gives you what you cant handle. The reality of it is just now starting to sink in & im so scared. God some help advice, maybe talking to someone else that is in my position would be nice. thank you

Thank you all for such kind words. & i just thought I would answer some of your questions we will both be 16 in 3 months. we have a stogn relationship with our parents his mom has already told us she will watch the baby while we are at school. My boyfriend well soon to be husband - by the way he asked me to marry him yesterday but we are not getting married until we both turn 16/ he has already got a job and is getting his GED this year. & we are both praying its gonna be a boy because we want to name him Tristen Skyler - Last thought of the day- i just hope god can forgive me for the sin that i have done, but then again bless me with a child to call my own.

Well I just found out the 12th which was our 3 mnth anniversary. It was a hard hit to take. I cried all day & my boyfriend just was in shock. He told me he felt like crying all day too. At first I was gonna get an abortian that way no one would know about it just me him and one of our very close trusted friends. But we couldnt do it. We couldnt kill something that would mean so much to the both of us. He told me he wanted us to have it. So thats what where going to do. Its due date should be around March the 27 til April the 4rth.. Anywhere in between. We talked about it lastnight & about how it would change both mine and his life. & our relationship. He simply looked at me and said we can give it something our parents never gave us. Knowing both our dads had walked out on us. It got me to crying he just sat there holding me telling me it was gonna be okay. It would be hard but we would make it threw it together. & that if i changed my mind about it he would be right there no matter what. Honestly i cant get over how responsible he is being about all of this. He has already went out and got a job. He said he wants to get in work before we both go back to school. Idk im just so scared but so excited we have already picked out names for boy or girl we both want a boy. Well just thought I would tell the news. & wish us all the luck in the world.

Because living with my aunt is just to get threw the system i want to live on my own well with my boyfriend. But my grandmother would never have that. My aunt is blood relation.

yes she is because its only like next door.. i told her i need to move in with her just for some space but really its just to where i wont be living with her when i go file for my emancipation.

i have talked to someone about it & they said i had a 60% chance of getting it. Because of the situation. My bio-logical father left when i was born not paying child support, my mother never did get married & she left me with my grandmother when i was 10. My grandmother had no legal custody of me just guardian. & im going to be moving in with my aunt. So there i wont be living with Parent or Guardian & where i have a job an savings account & arrangments to move in with my boyfriend and his roommate where we will be splitting the cost or rent & food.

& she is not my responsibility nor am i hers.

because I act like im her care taker. & she gives me no social life i stay at home all the time All i do is go to school, work then back home taking her places. thats it my life right there.

yes i do have enough i opened my own savings account when i was a little younger and i have almost 6 thousand saved up.

Yes i have a job that i just got this summer & yes i have a place to stay my boyfriend wants me to move in with him and his roomate. the reason i want to get emancipated is because my mother left me with my grandmother when i was 10. & she has pretty much payed no attention to me at all. She acts like she dosent really want me here but wont let me leave. She is getting real old and not really able to care for a kid under 18 if you know what im sayin. its not that im looking for freedom its just i would be better off i pretty much care for myself anyway She just does not want me to leave but hates that im here.

& yes i have already read threw that link but I was looking for more of a what you need as proof you are ready to get emanciapted.

Im not really 17 im 15 & i wont be 16 til november thats when i plan on trying to get emancipated.

Okay well im here to ask about Emancipation! Yes i want to get emancipated & if you are one of those you should think about what your doing ppl then please dont reply with things like "your too young & you should wait". i mean really thats doing no good to me & waisting your time. But what i came here for is for some information. I have been looking on the net about getting emancipated but i really just find the same thing like what emancipation is. here are a few questions i have. Q: Is there anyone that has been emancipated in Virginia if so please tell me the process you went threw. Q: Does anyone know of any links that tell information like Is there any cost & about going threw the whole court hearings? Q: Any advise on how to prepair before drawing papers on wanting to be emancipated? Please Help & thanks for all those who reply.

well its not really that my grandparents really dont care much for me. Because they somewhat dissowned my mom and she ran off leaving me with them. Thats why im wanting to get out. I mean i have been treated as and adult all my life & i think im mature enough to live on my own.

Okay im thinking about trying to be Emancipated after i turn 16. Here is the situation im in. I am currently living with my grandparents with are in there 60's they dont have custody of me. my mom left me with them & i dont know who my father is. I dont like living with my grandparents because they treat me as if i am a 5 year old child. & i have basically been providing everything i buy for myself. Like my clothes and things with money that i earn with my small babysitting job. Im looking for a small job where im going to school. I also have my own savings account where i have saved almost 8 thousand dollars. Im a good student in school Im a straight A student and i have never been in trouble with the law or anything along those lines. I just think that i would be better off out of my grandparents house. And maybe Emancipation is the way i want to go. So i need some kind of over all advise on things to do. I already know the qualifications you have to have to even take it to court. But i dont know how thats all done. & what can i do to better help my chance in being Emancipated. My birthday is in october i will be 16 and i plan on doing it that november so i need to prepair myself. Please some help would be nice. & thank you.