Stranger

Have you guys ever felt lost, not being able to see yourself somewhere!! I am in a point in my life where I don't feel happy as I want to be!! I can't figure out what it is, even by typing this I still don't know what I should be saying. Am I the only on in this confused, frustrated, and down sort of state!!!??? I am I guess comparing myself to others to see if I am better then them, and when I see that I am not, I feel like I should do something to remedy it!! We all have a purpose on earth and I just don't know what my purpose is. Money seems to driving me to make decisions that I not happy with!! Maybe it's not money, I don't know, I just need to resort my thoughts, and get clarity...I NEED CLARITY AND FOCUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have posted my story here about my ex, but to make a long story short, it's been more then 5 months with NC!! Tomorrow is my b-day, so I was curious to know if after that much time has passed with NC should I expect some kind of greeting??? I feel pretty good, but not completely over her at this point!!! I still see small evidence here and there (both good and bad) that she wants to get my attention(maybe wishful thinking?) I don't know.....knowing how cold she could be sometimes I don't think she will!!! Question is why should I even care??? I hope it's not confusing!!!

Pride seems to be the name of the game here!!! It's been somewhere in neighborhood of 5 months or so with NC at ALL for me. I am in the same boat as all of you. I still think about her, especially this July 4 weekend, as we spent every holiday pratically together!!! I was with her for 6 years, so the lingering feelings are a little stronger on my end. I really would love some closure.....but will it happen??? My feeling on it is, if your ok and can handle what your going through, just keep moving on. I agree with virtualjedi!!!!

I must say Kuhl hit it right on the nose!!! As pretty as u say she is, you've been there done that, time for new experiences!!! I am still getting over my ex, but as time goes by, so does the pain!!! LIFE IS SHORT, people come and go, there is always someone out there for u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rant all you want we are all eyes!!!! Thank you for the kind words...sometimes we need to get things off our chest. Great suggestions which I will surely use!!! I wish all of you guys the same happiness that you all deserve...we will be there someday!!!! I just hope sooner rahter then later!!!! Stanger

Hey guys....thanks, this really helps!!! I have been doing a boat load of things, working out (Really getting in shape!), going out with friends, talking to people(Getting tired of hearing my stories), and spending time with family!!! It does help get my mind off of it, but sometimes it's too much!! Suzy, do u feel like the other person is on a life long cruise enjoying themselves while ur at home thinking about them???? When you know ur time can be better spent thinking of u!?!? Why is life so cruel, when you give so much and get nothing back. Love is something to be charished, respected, and honored, but instead you see nothing but darkness at the end???? Maybe I need this, I really hope this takes me to the next level in my life, god knows it's not easy!!!

It's been four months and I have posted something in the past but I still feel like crap. I was with her for 6 years, I need peace guys I really do. I don't know how much more stress and pain my body and mind can take. I need to let go, how???? Sometimes I feel like I am stuck in the corner with these horrible feelings!!! This is not like me, why am I feeling this way!???? I have had no contact with her for the four months we have been broken up, I don't want to contact her at all, she doesn't deserve it!!!! I need closure though, how do I achieve that?????? She is seeing someone else and I can't seem to get myself together to do the same, that I think will be my final hurdle of finally letting go????

Wouldn't life be so much easier if we could all control what we feel!!!! Reality is we can't, and I know what your going through. I broke up with my ex of 6 years and still nearly 4 months, I feel the emptiness. However, there was no cheating involved, we just broke up over our differences(I AM STILL TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT). Consider the fact that he left you for another women, if someone loved you so much then why choose another women. I could of never even thought of leaving my ex for another women, it was because my love was true to her. Understand your self worth and never and I MEAN NEVER put anyone ahead. You matter just as much as any person on this earth, so give yourself the same amount of respect you deserve. Would you like this to happen to you again...hurting is not fun and honestly to do something as bold as leaving you and being with another person, it has to end there. READ WHAT YOU WROTE AND THINK ABOUT THIS FOR A SECOND!!!! What do you think you should do????????? I think you already know!!!

I want to thank you guys for your comments, your kind words mean a lot!!! I would love to switch gyms, but it would set my ride home back at least a half hour!!! Maybe it's worth it, I just thought if she can handle it so can I. I do think it's getting better, but it's hurts which explains why I am here!! I do love her and will always love her, but Michael I can't see myself doing this all over again. I have tried over and over with her bringing myself to be the bigger person and initiating contact with all of our major arguments. I really think she thought it would not come to this point!! Everyone kept telling me how she would come running back, hasn't happened yet, and don't think it will!! Deep down inside I know it wasn't meant to be, and honestly there is some sense of relief that we didn't get married. We had our problems and at one point I considered pushing back the wedding!! I just have to find it in myself to believe it to be the right choice!!! I guess with all these situations when u don't have it u want it!!!! How can I say I don't care cause that's where I really want to be? My mind is saying forget her and my heart is saying I need her! She is not right for me, why can't I feel that???????

Hello, wow, never thought I would be doing this but here I am!! Well, I broke up with my ex approaching 4 months and I still feel detached from everyone and everything. I was engaged to this girl as we were together for close to 6 years. She was my first love and I don't know how to handle the way I am feeling. I sacrificed a lot for this girl throughout this relationship and I feel that I was never appreciated for it. I see her a lot at the gym and now she comes in with another person whom I assume she is talking to. It's eating me alive seeing her with this guy but I don't want it to!! We do not speak and have not spoken since the breakup. No one cheated on no one, we just had our differences!!! I don't know why I am posting this, maybe a miracle answer to help me through this!!!! I just hope she feels the same way as I do!!! As far as wanting her back, I don't know....I need someone to sacrifice as much as I do!!! She said it was over and I think she really didn't mean it, as she has done it in the past. I was the one in our major arguments to try to talk things out, and she did with open arms. This last time I had enough and finally let go...I honestly don't know. My family is extremely happy over this result, they were never to fond of her! I guess what everyone was saying about her being very selfish and what not I just didn't see!!! I still miss her deeply and know in reality she is not for me, but afraid to let go!!!! I have always been stronger then this, and it's really discouraging to me to feel the way I do. I feel less of a person to be so attached to someone who I now question even cared for me! If any of this sounds incoherent it's only because the thoughts in my head are the same way!!! I am in a very confused state of mind right now!!! Anything anyone has to say I would appreciate!!! thanks