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no i do not smoke, i drink though

my last physical was...maybe a year ago in july or something. i dont remember, because i may have and another one before tennis which would have been around a year ago in march.

well...alright, im going to tell you something i havnt discussed with anyone before. over christmas break i might say somthing to my parents and maybe get to a doctor or something. i just want to ask all of you this because this is something im really scared of. alright...the thing is, i think there is a possibility i might have heart disease or something like that. i'll tell you why i think this then you can tell me what you think. first off, let me start by teling you i used to be REAL active in all kinds of sports like football and baseball. and in those sports i ran my off and i had to do a lot of running to the point i couldnt run anymore. when i got to highschool, i picked up golf and tennis. golf required very little running, but tennis required some. well...i could do the conditioning alright, i got really out of breath really quick and i was dying most of the time. then i graduated and didnt have any sports or anything for awhile. now im in college and i just feel like there's something up with my heart or w/e. like, i walk up stairs, maybe 4-5 floors worth in my hall and im breathing REALLY hard and my heart is racing like a million miles an hour. and when i lay down at night, i sometimes feel like i have a slight shortness of breath. another thing, its like i cant eat nearly as much as i once was able to, i just feel slower and like i have less energy sometimes. i get heartburn from time to time, most times after i eat penn station or something. i dont know, there is probably more but right now i just want some feedback on what you guys think. i really want to think im just really out of shape for the first time in my life and ive never experieced what it's like to actually not be as active. but sometimes i really dont know. im so scared to talk about it to anyone. also know that to my knowledge there is no family traces of heart disease or anything. but my dad does have high blood pressure the past few months. the last time i had a physical they took my blood pressure and listened to my heart and i guess it was all ok, because they didnt write any "abnormal findings" and let me play. i mean, is heart disease something that a doctor could be tiped off about by listening to the rythum of my heart beats? just please, someone who might know something please help me out here, ive been really scared about this for a long time now. about a year or so maybe... any help is appreciated, thank you!

kind of...like, some foods i used to be able to eat, i cant eat a whole lot of now. for instance, i used to be able to eat a large penn station sub, now i can only get through about 3/4 of it if im lucky. it's like i just dont have the ability to eat as much as i could. i find myself throwing out 1/2 of a hamburger almost every day because when i get it im so hungry, but by the time i get to it and eat it...it's like there's no room left. ive REALLY picked up the habit of eating a lot of salad, with iceburg lettus. i dont know if this would have anything to do with it. but since ive been in college ive had a salad bar open to me every day....so i eat a LOT of salad. so maybe it's something with that? i really dont know

my girlfriend has had this problem for as long as ive known her of not being able to eat a whole lot at one time. she's not anorexic or have an eating disorder, but instead of eating big meals, she'd eat little bit all throughout the day, or sometimes, not eat for extended periods of time because she's "not hungry". she has the problem that when she eats a lot, her stomach gets really upset. no matter what she's just eaten. this is why she just eats little bits. i always used to be able to put down large amounts of food with no problems. but lately, ive found that if i eat even a normal meal, my stomach gets upset too. this just started maybe a month ago...it's the exact same symptoms my girlfriend has. is there anyway she maybe has something that can be transfered through saliva or anything from when we kiss or something? i dont know what it is, it's weird though

alright...thanks everyone! i guess this is what i get for waiting till the last minute to do my outline...lol

i am doing a speech for my public speaking class to persuade my peers not to let their friends drive drunk. i need 3 solid supporting reasons. i know it sounds easy but the only one i can think of is the risk of lives. i cant think of 2 more. it seems like that's really the main jist of it...can anyone help! PLEASE!?

one more thing, it's funny, when im high, i often question my existence. i was talking to a group of guys, and nobody was talking to me...so i steped back and was touching my self to make sure i was real. because i thought they couldnt see me and i didnt exsist. being drunk doesnt do this to me at all. lol

ive done both and i can assure you, there is a huge difference bewteen high and drunk... being high effects most people differently. here's how the two effect me personally. 1. being high makes me feel like im fine one minute, then the next, im in slow motion. i'll just be walking, and i'll slow down and just walk REALLY slow because i feel like im in slow motion. lol 2. being high...almost anything is the funniest thing of your life, even if nothing has happened at all. 3. being high makes me have no idea what i just did recently. i'll have these moods where i'll come-to for a little bit, and i have no idea why im doing something. ie. doing the robot by myself. (random stuff) 4. being high to me always has little 'hits' or spots where it hits me REALLY hard, then im ok for a little bit. it's like an off-on kind of thing where i feel really messed up...then ok...then messed up...then ok. 5. and being high gives you a hunder and a thirst that seemingly cannot be quinched! being drunk to me is much different. 1. when drunk, im able to think very clearly, but i cant act out what im thinking. it's like my mind and body arent working together. ie. i'll say something to someone and then be thinking "that was stupid, what did that even mean" but then i just keep on talking stupid. lol 2. being drunk makes me very outgoing from my usual shy personality. i'll talk to anyone, at anytime. when sober...not a chance. 3. i stumble a lot when drunk, i'll simple lose balance when im just standing still. and i find it difficult to talk because my words dont come out right and my sentences often come out like, "DUDE! are you fine?!" when i really meant to ask, "hey man, are you drunk?". and i find even though im trying really hard to do something, like throw a ping pong ball, i cant do it because my body has its own agenda and my mind is just along for the ride. this is the best way i can explain it. it's really weird i know and is probably of little help since a lot of it doesnt make sense, but this is the best way i can discribe it. i dont smoke and get high anymore, i just drink now, i like it better than weed because it doesnt make you stupid over time.

i lost mine march 31 of this year and im 18

but the basic act of being a porn star is to still have sex for money...just like a prostitute. im not talking about watching it

here's something ive been pondering for a little while now. i just want to see what you all think about it... where exactly is the line between prostitution and porn? BOTH get paid to have sex...what is the difference? they're the same basic principle but one is illegal and the other isnt...

ok, before you look to the left and see my age, dont ask why im in the marriage forums just yet. hear me out...ok...now that thats out of the way. i have a question. me and my girlfriend have been dating 1 year in january and we really love eachother. im not saying we're going to get married or anything, but typicaly how long does a relationship last until you're engaged? she seems to want to be married in 5 years. but that only puts her in like, her junior year of college or something. i dont know. im not going to propose or anything crazy so i dont want replies telling me how im too young and all this bla bla. but yea, about age are people engaged? or how long are they typicaly dating? and what age or dating length do people usually marry? thanks!

stinkweed, dude....me and you feel the exact same way in social situations. i have the ever burning sensation i am being judged in the most negative way possible when i talk to people. like, is my voice funny, are my ears too big, is my mouth moving oddly...all this. and when im in a crowded room, i have the feeling EVERYONE is staring at me, and judging me negativly. ive even changed the way i walk sometimes if i feel im walking weird and people are behind me making fun of me. im going to the doctor for this, im about 500% sure it's social anxiety. maybe you should read into it. because me and you are really similar man

yea, i know exactly what your talking about stinkweed. i also had a nickname that i was given my freshman year by the seniors on the golf team. the ones i considered the coolest kids in the school at the time. and to my amazement, i still get called by it to this day. even people who have no idea where it originated from or why im called it, still say it to me. and yea, the whole being funny part. i was told so many times "you're hillarious!" and "it just wouldnt be the same without you!" and all this...i can make anyone die laughing if i know them and they're my friends. im trying really hard to overcome my shyness and fit in here, but it's a very slow process. im making advancements but at a rate in which i might have 3 friends by senior year! im going to a party tonight, by myself. i dont really feel too much like a loser because when im drunk, i open up to the real me, the me that people fell in love with in highschool. but i was thinking about it ealier. i got an email from university security saying there was an armed robbery right on campus last night at 8pm. it just so happens to be EXACTLY where this party is tonight. and im going there around 11pm, and comeing back around 2-4am. i got to thinking, i have nobody to watch my back. i have no friends who i can walk with. im going to be all alone, and terrified at that. i just remembed highschool, walking places with a group of 20 people, laughing and having fun...now im all alone and nobody knows who i am

thats the thing, it not easy at all for me to make friends. i made a lot of friends since i played golf and 90% of everyone i went to school with for 12 years. i grew up with all of them...so i slowly made friends with everyone...im extemely shy. i cant talk to people. i have social anxiety disorder and it's very dificult for me to make new friends. i think that's why im so upset

i am 18 years old and back in may i graduated from highschool. i remembed back in middle school and elementry, counting the days to graduation from highschool. the days seemed to last for months and the summer vacations never ended. it was just me and all my friends hanging out and just having fun all day. then i got to highschool and things started to get a little more serious. i remembed my freshman year walking into our commons of my brand new home for the next 4 years. little did i know i was just about to start the best 4 years of my life. i had so much fun in highschool. everybody knew everybody after a while and it is in highschool, i saw my friends and classmates from kindergarden grow up into young adults. we seemed to share a certain bond, we were all close friends, everyone one of us. it was very rare to walk down the hallway and not hear my name yelled 5-6 times or to get randomly hugged by someone. every friday night our student section filled up to compacity an hour before the game. we were voted in our newspaper as the "loudest and craziest highschool basketball arena in 20 years". we were no doubt the most close knit bond of friends. i made the golf team my freshman year. i played golf all four years i was in highschool. its going to sound really cheesy and weird becasse it's only highschool, but i have never had so much school pride in my life. when i put on that letter jacket even today, im proud to be sporting my colors. we may not have been the biggest school, the best school for sports, or the most popular...but i can tell everyone, it's the best highschool in the coutry. i had so many friends, so many memories. it just seemed like it wouldnt actually come to and end ya know? but here i am, in november, sitting in my dorm room over an hour and 45 minutes away from my alma mater. i see none of my friends. sure, we talk on IM and have facebook and myspace and all that, but nothing can replace the times we shared in highschool together. we all split up and went our separate ways. my very best friend since 1st grade now lives over 3 hours away from me. people say college is the best 4 years. but there is no way. i feel no school pride at all. i go to the football games, we lose, and i dont care really. our team rushes onto the field with fireworks and the whole bit...but i cheer only at a minimal level. when my highschool team took the field, i was painted up, jumping aorund, and i cant recall a game i had any voice left by halftime. i dont really have any friends here in college, and i know the friends i make here, wont be even half the friends my highschool friends were. i used to feel important and a leader for my school, everyone and their cousin knew me....but here, im just another brick in the wall...im just like the other 20,000 students. in highschool i went to school with maybe 500 people...and i loved it. i guess im kind of happy where im at, i mean, im training to become what i'll be the rest of my life. my career. im a responsible adult now, it's a fresh start in the adult world. but i miss highschool so damn much. i would give anything for 1 more year, 1 more day, 1 more class...anything. i brought my highschool senior yearbook with me to college, and i hve looked at it one time...i cant do it. to see those pictures i almost start crying. i cant do it. always remembering what i used to have. the times i shared, the friends i bonded with. i kind of have this saying..."i may breath black and red, but i still bleed brown and gold" i really cant think of any better way to put it. when i went back for the weekends and went to the football games...when the band played the alma mater...i just got tingles and i felt so much joy and pride for being a graduate of that school and being apart of the traditions. my college alma mater, i could care less about. no matter how much i try to enjoy the traditions here. nothing can replace the memories i have of running out on the muddy football field my senior year, and hugging every one of my senior buddies who just played their final game. i was more muddy then they were. i will never forget taht moment. graduation was really hard for me...they talked about how we may never see eachother again, and it never sank in until i moved out here. im never going to get those times back. and its really a sad thought. a song that really really discribes this is that song, "Whenever you remember" by carrie underwood. if you havnt heard this song, omg, download it, it's the most amazing song to reflect back on things like highschool. my friend erin sang this song for our variety show my senior year, and had a slideshow of all of us growing up through the years...and not to make my school sound like a bunch of wussies, but i saw 6-7 guys tearing up watching it...me included. i just want everyone in highschool to realize what they have and cherish those moments and never let go. nothing can replace the friends and memories...nothing...

i really dont think im capible of drinking to the point of alcohol poisoning right now. i get drunk very easily and it doesnt take a lot to get my drunk to the point i dont want to drink anymore. i dont go all out and drink out of like, entire trashcans and chug gallons upon gallons at parties, just 5-6-7 cups and i call it a night

it only happened 1 time and that's only because i was stupid and told myslf i couldnt get THAT drunk...i was drunk after the first 5 jagerbombs, then took 4 more in under 2 minutes...it was really stupid of me and i make sure i dont do that anymore because of it. once i start getting to the point i know i cant control myself, i stop

yea, i know, im going to a doctor over thanksgiving break. but i keep my alcohol consumption under control. there has only been 1 time i actually dont know what i did. that was the night with the jager. and i dont drink religiously like i may have made it sound. i just like enjoying myself and having a good time and in college and stuff, the thing to do is drink...but i dont go over the limit

oh no, im done doing the ritalin. did it one time then havnt done it since. it's been offered plenty of other times. but i pass it up. because all i know is, anything you have to snort through ur nose, cannot be good in any way. and it made me feel like a junky doing that. so yea, i deffinatly dont do that anymore.

i drank plenty of beer in highschool. and even Nati, the grossest beer in this world. so that's not really it, ive drank just about all the normal beers (bud, busch..ect.). and i really dont know who buys it. im in college, most people here are 21 and even though people try to look the other way, in college, there is a ton of partying, and a ton of drinking. its just how it is, and it's how people my age have fun i guess. as for the whole fitting in. ok....i have social anxiety disorder which makes it damn near impossible to talk to strangers and make freiends. being wasted, erases my symptoms and i can be the real me and make friends and warm up to them while im drunk. then once im sober, ive already known them so i can easily talk to them now. but if i didnt drink and go to these parties, i wouldnt haev any friends in college yet. and that's just something i cant deal with after i had great friend success in highschool

i usually try not to eat very much at all before i drink because i want it to hit me and not get all soaked up in my food so i gotta drink 100x more. and i do drink one after another as fast as i can, but its like latly, i cant. before i say this, i want to clear my name, im not a drug addict nor and i some crazy life wasting fool. but my buddy once told me that snorting a crushed riddalin pill made you get drunk WAY quicker. i didnt believe him so i tried it one time and drank more beer in my life than i think i ever have. and for the first time, bonged one. which ive never been able to do, or been able to do again since then. so i dont know if anyone else has heard of this or what?

alright, this shouldnt take long. im in college and i went to a highschool that was known around the area for heavy drinking. so ive had my fair share of alcohol in my 18 years. but it seems like since ive been in college, i can consume as much as i could in highschool. for example. in highschool at a party right after our graduation, i had 10straight shots of vodka. after prom last year, i had 9 jagerbombs (dont remember that night, ouch!) but here's my problem. i was at a party here last week and there were 10 kegs and all this, and i had 3 beers and my stomach was killing me. at another party, i had 4 and i was dying. so i guess im just wondering if anyone has any explanation of why i cant drink as much? are there any tips for how to drink more? because there's this huge party tomorrow night and i cant be having stomach problems 4 beers into the night! thx!