Oh Kerrio, I know EXACTLY what your going through. My bf of 4 years also broke up with me and I too am still going through cry spells. One thing that seems to help is, to get out. Phone some friends, I know that nothing feels the same anymore, but it's worth a try. I too keep praying that he'll return to me because 4 years is alot! So hun if you wanna talk to me pm me or whatever, maybe just talking to others who like have broken hearts can help. It's helped me a lil so far