Marionette

I dont know where it ended up, somewhere in the depths of this forums history, but a long time ago i talked about how i had been sexually abused by someone, and how i never thought i could give a guy head ever again. Well, today was the six month mark for me and my love, and i overcame that fear. I blew him away and it thrilled me. *smiles*

I didnt bleed...but, it hurt only at first. He saw the pain on my face and asked me if i wanted to stop and i said no, because after a bit the pain went away and it was all good all the info i think you really need, i could give you more, but, er, i dont think its necessary.

docs supposed to call back later today, and...so far i think the worst side effect is this anxiety sort of paranoid thing the geodon causes....thats fun...(not)

the salt and ice thing can be fun, but be careful where you do it if your going to hold it on for long periods of time...(longer story, stupid friend who got bad burns) I say, be careful with what you do, use common sense, that way you dont end up in an emergency room in a strange and embarrassing situation with a story like..."er...we were just....messing around....really...and it kinda happened..." (please use your imagination here) sorry my protective nature makes me put that previous paragraph in, you see, my boyfriends mother is a nurse...and i get to hear stories from my boyfriend... yes...thats fun...

yeah, what she said ^ i wish i knew what my boyfriend did....but i cant exactly see down there ^^" sorry...hes really good at getting me to that point where any sort of touch will make me orgasm though...thats a really weird point to be at (a good point to work towards though) oh...i do have one tip...dont be too harsh unless she wants it ~smiles~ theres my wisdom for the day, im spent

I have been put on Geodon for bi-polar, and ive been really sick lately. I take it at night, and thats a new thing. I at first took it in the morning an night, but it made me too tired. So now i take it only at night. As soon as i started doing that i started getting sick during the day, no ones been listening to me when i say that i think me taking the geodon only at night causes me to get stomach sick when it wears off in the morning. My question is, is this just that hard to believe? What can i do to get my parents to hear me, im seventeen and have a legal say in what medicines im taking, (for those of you who know about the mental health laws if your over sixteen you have a say). I dont know what to do...am i in the right or in the wrong?

donkey punch--yuck...mean...what are some GOOD favorite sex moves *curious now*

He loves it when i teas him and play with him, straddle him and whisper in his ear. Almost any guy will get off on things like "i want you inside me" and the like, just try it, it works, especially if you whisper it in their ear really closely and then run your lips lighty accross their cheek and then kiss them (hint hint) I find that it really drives him crazy if you dont let him touch you and then touch yourself where he wants to touch you...Oh, and i know that my boyfriend has really sensitive upper arms, like if you run your finger down them, but, that could be just him. those are my two cents.

*hugs the people who gave advice* thanks...I'm just really confused about this whole ordeal. About what happened to me then and whats going on with me now. Its all very confusing and im not sure what i should do.

*I am putting grades because it takes thought to put ages to them sorry* First Crush: second grade First Kiss: sixth grade First date: seventh grade Virginity: 17 (well, no grade for that one, i remember that one, it was about two weeks ago )

I have this boyfriend, and me and him are in a really great relationship, like nothing ive ever had before. I would use the word love. Well, anyway, to get on with the situation, I really truly trust him, and I want to make him happy. Hes done oral sex on me, (hes good at it) and weve had sex...weve done pretty much everything else. Hes never asked me to give him head, because he knows its a slim to none chance. Okay, wait, getting ahead of myself. Let me tell you why its a slim to none chance. About a year ago, I was sexaully assaulted. Not at random by some freaky dude, but by someone who took me out on a date, he took me to the movies and forced me to suck his you-know-what in the theater against my will he then coerced me into going out with him again a few weeks later and did the same thing again. That was coupled with mental abuse and his hands all over/in me.... shudders Thats the only time ive ever given oral sex to any one. And according to that person, I wasnt very good at it. So, my current boyfriend, the one who I want to do it for, he, at one point, even told me he wouldnt let me, just because I was hurt so badly in the past. but now I think if I wanted to he would let me, just because of a discussion I've had with him. But...I dont know. Im afraid i would be bad at it. And that im just afraid because of my past experiences. I trust my love beyond anything, but my fear, the fear I know I need to get over, still hurts me. It has even driven me to hurt myself and even try to kill myself, (two hospitalizations in one month--not a fun thing).

Im glad you worked it all out, the number one thing i can really tell you is only do something if your comfortable with it. That always makes it better... (best advice to give yourself and others) Once again, im glad things are good with you and your boyfriend, may you have a happy relationship. Oh, and about that friend that was telling you to do stuff with your guy, I wouldnt let her pressure you into doing things you arent allright with, it makes for undue stress in a relationship.

but, when you told him you "felt the same"(about loving him) did you or were you just saying that? and moving in with him together, well, youve known him for a long time...if your comfortable with that, how long have you two been dating?

I always thought that was really uncommon and that i was the only one who was like that, but, its really very common for girls (as youve noticed) to be like that. But the thing is...theres nothing to worry about ~smiles~ I know, its hard to fathom, and as you grow up, and you develop, you may stay self-consious, but it may just get easier to forget. (I know it is for me) For me, i think about my self consciousness before hand, but...it all dissapates when things start happening.

The only problem ive found with email or letters, is that it gives them time to run...and you time to hide. Whereas talking puts both you and them right there. Though, on the phone can be easier if its talking. When i did it, i did use the phone, and he had to hang up and call me back...it was hard, but he came over and saw me the next day. The written word while well planned, gives you too much time to think, and thereforeeee can give you to much time to freak out and run away from the situation. But, to each their own, sometimes, live chat, such as aim or msn or yahoo can be good...it just depends on the person i guess, as long as it gets said.