Seraphim Posted August 7, 2019 Author Share Posted August 7, 2019 Today I go and get my eyes tested and get new glasses . It has been ages probably six years since I got new glasses . Probably the same for my son too. So off we go today . Link to comment
Seraphim Posted August 7, 2019 Author Share Posted August 7, 2019 Got my new glasses today! Will take getting used to the new prescription. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted August 7, 2019 Author Share Posted August 7, 2019 It is sad how the manhunt ended. The whole situation is sad. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted August 8, 2019 Author Share Posted August 8, 2019 I finally got the balls to message my ex step brother to find out about my first step dad. Well, now wait to see if he answers me. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted August 8, 2019 Author Share Posted August 8, 2019 Here is the message I sent: I just sent this Hello (), I don’t know if you would remember me. My name is ,(). My mom, () was married to your dad in the 1970’s. We lived in () BC and (), AB when my mom was married to your dad, (). My brother () and I have often thought of your dad and wonder how he is. He did a lot to make us who we are today. It would be good to know he is ok. Sincerely, () Link to comment
Seraphim Posted August 10, 2019 Author Share Posted August 10, 2019 My uncle J my step dad’s brother died last night. My poor papa doesn’t know yet he is at work. 😓😢 Link to comment
Seraphim Posted August 10, 2019 Author Share Posted August 10, 2019 So my father-in-law is going to be going to a nursing home and my mother-in-law has decided to stay in their condo. So much for 60 years of marriage and a man who looked after you for 60 years . 🙄 Link to comment
Seraphim Posted August 12, 2019 Author Share Posted August 12, 2019 Wow, with my vision corrected properly I can see craters on the moon. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted August 12, 2019 Author Share Posted August 12, 2019 Today is the first day I haven’t had a violent headache from my new prescription. My eyes and brain are finally used to it . Link to comment
Seraphim Posted August 12, 2019 Author Share Posted August 12, 2019 It is a flair and not an ear infection. But I can’t move my mouth without pain at +5 Link to comment
Seraphim Posted August 13, 2019 Author Share Posted August 13, 2019 https://www.nationalgeographic.com/environment/2019/08/banana-fungus-latin-america-threatening-future/ Link to comment
Seraphim Posted August 13, 2019 Author Share Posted August 13, 2019 Man my community stinks. 🤦♀️ Link to comment
Seraphim Posted August 15, 2019 Author Share Posted August 15, 2019 Have you ever wanted to hide from most of your community because they disgust you. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted August 17, 2019 Author Share Posted August 17, 2019 My MIL made it through surgery fine. My FIL is going to hospice care. 😢😰 Link to comment
Seraphim Posted August 17, 2019 Author Share Posted August 17, 2019 I really have to say I’m probably becoming depressed . With all the changes and death and everything going on in the family . And then the two spouses Facebook groups I am on have predominately extremely left views . I would say I’m probably left of centre but they are extremely left . They also dog pile on any view that’s not theirs and only consider the freedom of speech when it has to do with them . So I told them I was embarrassed to be part of their community , embarrassed of the community and left the group . I also told them they should actually read the charter of rights and freedoms as they seem to have a few facts mixed up. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted August 17, 2019 Author Share Posted August 17, 2019 Aaannnnd that would be why I don’t like groups of women. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted August 17, 2019 Author Share Posted August 17, 2019 It is really sad when these women don’t even know what their partners are upholding . They’re not just upholding your right to flap your gums. And since 9/10 of them weren’t even born when the Charter of Rights and Freedoms came into effect maybe they should read it . And I feel particularly betrayed since most of these women I’ve looked after all their children to give them a break . Link to comment
Seraphim Posted August 17, 2019 Author Share Posted August 17, 2019 But as my mom says most people only have loyalty, integrity and respect as it applies to them . Link to comment
Seraphim Posted August 18, 2019 Author Share Posted August 18, 2019 So my father-in-law had to be restrained and sedated yesterday . He knew my husband for part of the visit but went to sleep for a short bit woke up didn’t know who my husband was accused him of selling his house stealing the money and told him he was going to punch him in the face . It took eight nurses including men to hold my father-in-law down . Mother-in-law is in the same hospital for her hip replacement and heard the code white called . She knew it was for her husband . Pretty soon they are getting him a place at a behavioural unit in a hospital for seniors with chronic life end issues . No one can control him anymore at home because he’s getting violent . As much as I don’t like my in-laws as people in my heart I do love them . And it made me cry my heart out to see what is become of my father-in-law . He was always a proud ,independent strong man . And even though he could be rough and rude he was always truthful and that I appreciate . To see his end like this is devastating . Cry my heart out for my husband and my son. For my husband his father was always his biggest mentor and someone he held up very high regard . I never thought I would be this devastated but they are people I have known my entire adult life . Link to comment
Seraphim Posted August 18, 2019 Author Share Posted August 18, 2019 And of course life is changing and I don’t tolerate that well . Link to comment
itsallgrand Posted August 18, 2019 Share Posted August 18, 2019 That must be so difficult. It speaks to your good heart that you have empathy for him and the situation even though it's not been an easy road for you with them. 1 Link to comment
Seraphim Posted August 18, 2019 Author Share Posted August 18, 2019 It is just so crazy to see someone once so vibrant become this . It’s devastating . They were just a little bit older than I am when I met them . And though it’s been a very hard road there is love in my heart for almost every person . Everyone has good qualities except for those who are truly evil . He was an honest and forthright man which I really appreciated . At least you knew where you stood with the man . And I know he loves his son because when my husband was going to go to Afghanistan there were tears in his father’s eyes . He was very choked up and it’s the only time I’ve ever seen the man cry and all he could mutter was , take care of yourself boy , keep your head down. “ and you could tell he was heartbroken . And you could see the way his eyes sparkled when he saw his grandson . And he would always say, how is me fine mate, hows me fine Nipper. ( in his east London accent ) Link to comment
Seraphim Posted August 18, 2019 Author Share Posted August 18, 2019 My father-in-law never much cared for my husband being in the military . My father-in-law was forced into National Service. And my father-in-law hated and still hates to be forced into anything . He’s not a very cooperative human being and never has been. So he hated being in the army hated it beyond all dimension . He ended up serving in Malta and Egypt and hated the sand all the more . So he could never understand his son’s love for the military . When my father-in-law was a child in East London during World War II there was a lot of bombing and he spent a lot of time running to bomb shelters and some of his little friends were killed . And he carries deep deep wounds from that experience . Which I’m sure affected his temperament . Although I hear from my mother-in-law that his mother was just the same . My husband‘s grandmother died the year I met him so about 30 years ago . And as she lived in the UK I never had a chance to meet her. Although she only ever saw her grandson maybe three times in her whole life . Link to comment
Seraphim Posted August 18, 2019 Author Share Posted August 18, 2019 I am so bad today I haven’t even brushed my teeth and I am sitting here drinking a beer. Rock bottom. I woke up all night with horrific panic attacks. Took four times my medication and fell into exhaustion. ( 4 times my medication is only 1 mg of clonazepam. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted August 19, 2019 Author Share Posted August 19, 2019 Ok, I think I have myself together today. Hubby is home . I can’t be a mess in front of the kids . Dementia is almost like a death because the person ceases to be who they were . The body is there but not the person not the mind not the personality . Link to comment
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