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to stratguy620 You probably missed it but we are married. Yes he would consider me cheating on him if i didn't tell him about my male friends. Yes he knew everything before this incident transpired. I don't share as much info as I did.

Hope 75 is absolutly correct. Your just 20 years old. You have you whole life in front of you. Your going to college and you say your a loser. I don't think so. A loser is someone who really doesn't want to do nothing with their life. Don't worry about guys looking at you. That one guy will come be patient. You concentrate on college and go to counseling to talk over your problems. Also, I don't know how you look. i bet your not as ugly as you say you are. I used to feel the same way you were. I thought i was so ugly. But girl I know I'm fine now. It's all about confidence and I know you have that. It's in there somewhere it's up to you to pull it out. Don't worry about what everyone else thinks. Don't commit suicide. That's a major sin. You won't go to heaven. You have a life you have to live here! So what that you don't have a major. Get you general edu. classes out the way. There's alot of people who don't even have careers in the majors they had in college. So don't feel bad about that at all. I hope you feel better. Please Please Don't end your life.

To Shadowslight Your absolutely right. That's fine for him to have platonic friends. But just as I gave him the same respect to tell him about the few male friends I had he could have done the same. No I'm not a jeolous person. I just feel if your hiding it behind my back then your hiding something. I already know what he thought 'if I tell her about finding a friend then she'll do the same' he didn't want that to happen. To stratguy620 He cheated on me emotionally. If I did the same thing to him he would not have liked it!

Hope 75 I married him because he was good to me. He treated me right. I want a life with him. I want to achieve goals with him. We really do need counseling. We've talked about it. Our financial situation just can't afford that right now. I was thinking about going to a pastor to get counseling for us. I just have to do some researching over the internet for marriage counselors. Thank you for your response.

Oh my gosh what did you go and do that for? I'm pretty sure your ex knows you called and talked to Jean. Jean more than likely told him everything you said. I think you shouldn't have done that. Your ex might stay your ex. What you need to do is just TELL HIM how you feel and stop going through everyone else. He'll respect you more if you were more open. i hope everything works out for you

I got married last year with my live-in fiance of 2 years. First of all we had gone to watch Passions in March 2004. I felt so bad afterword that I told him we could not have sex until we got married. We were going to get married the following year anyway. He suggested that we do it soon. Okay fine. We get married on his birthday (April 2004). But on the way to Vegas I just was not sure if I should go ahead and do it. Even when I said I do I was thinking I don't. I was hoping every thing would be fine. I would fall in love with him even more. I did. We moved from California to Georgia in August 2004. We both have cell phones on my moms account. I kept on asking my mom why is the bill was so much higher than what we had anticipated. She said she'll bring the bill out to Georgia when she comes and visits so that I can look at it. I looked at all the bills (My moms, mine and my husband). I came accross two numbers. Come to find out he (truck driver) met some girl at a truck stop 3 months prior to me finding the bill. The girl told me they were just friends he told me that also. But what I keep on wondering if you were friends then why didn't you tell me. He wanted to have his cake and eat it to. I told him when we met and throughout our relationship that honesty and respect are the best qualities. He betrayed me and I told him it's going to take a while for me to trust him. We were going to get a divorce. Trust is a powerful word to me and if you don't have that you don't have nothing. That's exactly what I feel that I don't have nothing in my marriage. We are always arguing. I'm always bringing up that situation. I lost respect for him. I also contiplated cheating on him. But noooooooo I'm married. This is very confusing to me. I don't want to get a divorce. But I'm falling out of love with him. I don't trust him. CAN I HAVE SOME ADVICE PLEASE

Leave him alone for a while . If he's not happy with himself he won't be happy with you. It's nothing wrong to call and see how he is. You know he still cares about you if he called in the morning. Tell him to post on this website or go to a therapist. He's depressed and he needs some type of help. I've been depressed before and it's not pretty. I know it's going to be difficult because he's not there but who said life was fair. Your going to have to be strong. You be ok. You all have that connection anyway. You've known each other for over 10 years. Wow. You really don't want to ruin that bond you all have. Just be friends for the time being. I hope everything works out for you as well as him. Take care.

Girl you are to crazy. He doesn't trust you. Why would he want to marry someone that's cheated on him numerous of times. I sure wouldn't. He loves your last dirty draws that's why he's coming back to you. You need to leave him alone so you can do your own thing. Your not ready for a committed relationship. That's sad because you wasted not only your time but his also. He could have had a woman by now. Not saying your not a woman but he could have a person that respects and love him.

Please leave him alone. You can find a meaningful relationship where your at. You will continue to think about him but it will gradually subside. Trust me I've been there and done that. All your doing is making yourself stressed out over this guy and I'm pretty sure he's not stressed. He was that good in bed for you to be head over heels like that. Your still young GET OUT OF THIS ALL YOUR DOIN IS HURTING YOURSELF.