huckleberry-jinx

Apparently my boyfriend said I was too clingy and I need to work on that or we would be 'through'. It's in my nature to want to love on people and always be with them; it's what makes me happy and enjoy life.. How can i work on not being clingy while still expressing my feelings?

My boyfriend and I got in a tiny fight yesterday, you know, those stupid ones you get over in like 10 minutes.. but.. as i was following him to his house, which is normal, he took a turn to go somewhere else... I didnt understand, so i tried to call him, and he wouldnt answer.. I went to his house and only his mom was there. I asked her where he was and he told her he was at amanda's, his best friend's girlfriends house, which i mean, they were friends before her and his best friend got together. I usually dont get mad when they hang out, but since he was mad at me and Amanda and her b/f were having problems, i didnt know what would happen. Well I went to my mom's friends house, and after a few hours, I text messaged him to call me. He texted me back asking why I was scared, because i said that, and I said I was over reacting probably. I asked why I couldnt call, and what he sent back was this: "I'm sick of fighting. We're done, I'm not happy and I dont want to do this anymore." We hardly ever fight and when we do we get over it really quickly. And the thing about him not being happy, well, he sure ACTED like it not even a day ago.. It feels like some sort of sick joke, I dont really understand why he would do this, but now his away message pretty much says just how happy he is that he's single, and how much 'women suck,' though I still have NO CLUE why he did this.. It came out of nowhere and I just feel like i've been slapped in the face... I dont understand..

thanks lusitana I think you're right. We broke up just about 2 hours ago. So... yeah. He was crying when I went to get my stuff from his house... so I dont know.

jeez why does everyone go back here? I'm not asking how to live my life and I dont act that way anymore. nor will I ever want to act that way again, i have more self respect than that now. my sister especially beat that into my head -.-. I didnt want to flash its not like MM i want to show off but my friend jennifer insisted i do this... she takes the blame for everything and i dont know why but... you know.. i dont hang out with her that much and i've never, ever had a smidgen of want to cheat again. I cant stand to even think of it - it makes me sick.

man i really love this guy though. it was questionable then but definitely not now... but if he doesnt like me i wish he would leave.

i can understand that better. if i did cheat on him again i'd definitely want him to break up with me. -.- no matter what

i did this in July and i havent done anything since... it was all at the same time. i dont see why he wont break up with me if apparently he doesnt like me anymore - but i havent been tempted any because of the fact i love him and he told me he loves me too and i've been in situations that i could have. i wont anymore.. i've made promises to myself. why doesnt anyone see this from my POV? and HE says its 5 times.. I say 2 for real. everyone else I ask says flashing isnt cheating.

...riiiiiiiighty-o.. well he'd been mean to me before that. and after that when he got back with me he wasnt mean. why now? that's the question.

Okay... here's the story. He was gone to colorado and well.. I was madly in love with him. he was gone for 3 weeks already and I was going nuts!!! he had said he'd be home soon and then he told me he wasnt going to come home for another 3 weeks. then he told his guy friend he'd be coming home in the next week. I felt like he'd lied to me on purpose but he hadnt. Also he decided not to call me because I'd lost a game of strip poker (but all i had to do was flash these guys.) he was incensed after that and refused to call me but at that time i didnt know why he wasnt calling me. I felt like he was about to break up with me and he hated me. well my new friend jennifer and i talked to this one guy on the internet we knew and he invited us over to his house.. he apparently liked me a lot and i needed some appreciation. well when we got over there we ended up making out... and he went under my shirt. Well 3 days and many crying phone conversations later, he decides to give me another chance. Jennifer again wants to hang out with guys. and... with another guy that liked me. well we ended up spending the night there... against everything i wanted to do i really didnt want to stay.. because i knew what i'd do. I ended up making out with this guy intensely and doing some other stuff.. stuff i didnt want to do so i ended up crying and trying to run away. (he actually began to have sex with me and i was caught up in the moment.) also that day i was all over my ex boyfriend and i'd playfully kissed another guy. (that made his total of me cheating to 5.) I was still ina horrid mind set. Well after all of that (it was July 4th) he is still going out with me, but lately he's been really mean and spiteful and things... saying "well you're not the person i want to marry anymore" and junk like that. Though when he tried to break up with me a month before, HE called ME back crying his eyes out. At the moment he is ignoring me and will not talk to me at all. I really do still love him and regret all i did, as when he returned everything shot me in the face. I want him and me to still be as close as we were but i'm aware i messed that up. But its October now... if he is still mad at me why is he still with me? He could get booty elsewhere... HELP!