Seraphim Posted December 5, 2021 Author Share Posted December 5, 2021 And you want to hear something…. My mom the day before his funeral got a text from his phone that said , Hi. If I hadn’t seen it myself ….. Link to comment
boltnrun Posted December 5, 2021 Share Posted December 5, 2021 1 hour ago, Seraphim said: And you want to hear something…. My mom the day before his funeral got a text from his phone that said , Hi. If I hadn’t seen it myself ….. I believe these things happen. My beloved uncle spoke to me through his son a couple of months ago. It was my cousin speaking but the voice and words were clearly my uncle's. That's how much love they have for the ones who are left behind. 1 Link to comment
Seraphim Posted December 5, 2021 Author Share Posted December 5, 2021 4 minutes ago, boltnrun said: I believe these things happen. My beloved uncle spoke to me through his son a couple of months ago. It was my cousin speaking but the voice and words were clearly my uncle's. That's how much love they have for the ones who are left behind. My mom says I don’t believe in that crap, but then how to explain it ? His phone was in a drawer in the other room. I believe in it too. I had seen and heard ghost and I have seen Angels and demons. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted December 5, 2021 Author Share Posted December 5, 2021 My son is suffering so much from the loss of his grandfather. 1 Link to comment
luminousone Posted December 6, 2021 Share Posted December 6, 2021 On 11/30/2021 at 10:36 AM, Seraphim said: I have no fathers left. My dear sweet papa died yesterday in the afternoon. 😞💔 So sorry for your loss, Sera! 1 Link to comment
Seraphim Posted December 6, 2021 Author Share Posted December 6, 2021 I am trying to struggle out from my mental health right now. I am swinging from apathy to rage and everything in the middle. I went to go Christmas shopping today and realized I had forgotten to take all of my medications. Some guy cut me off and I was running out of road. I was so angry I wanted to continually ram his pickup truck with mine and punch him in the face . Obviously, I didn’t do that but even thinking it is over the top .🥴 My mom is texting me hundreds of times a day with every little issue. Nothing I can actually do one thing about whether I was here or there. I know she is in mental and emotional free fall right now but I am barely functioning as well. Oh God 9 more days of work for the year. 1 Link to comment
maritalbliss86 Posted December 7, 2021 Share Posted December 7, 2021 16 hours ago, Seraphim said: I am trying to struggle out from my mental health right now. I am swinging from apathy to rage and everything in the middle. I went to go Christmas shopping today and realized I had forgotten to take all of my medications. Some guy cut me off and I was running out of road. I was so angry I wanted to continually ram his pickup truck with mine and punch him in the face . Obviously, I didn’t do that but even thinking it is over the top .🥴 My mom is texting me hundreds of times a day with every little issue. Nothing I can actually do one thing about whether I was here or there. I know she is in mental and emotional free fall right now but I am barely functioning as well. Oh God 9 more days of work for the year. Ohhh Seraphim 😞 it's the grief. Both your mom and you are going through it right now. I think it's OK to only check your phone 3 times a day (morning, lunch, and then evening before bed) if that would help to turn off the sound (if that's possible for you). I know she needs you, but it'd be nice if you could find a way to balance that out with your own needs, too. 2 Link to comment
Seraphim Posted December 7, 2021 Author Share Posted December 7, 2021 1 hour ago, maritalbliss86 said: Ohhh Seraphim 😞 it's the grief. Both your mom and you are going through it right now. I think it's OK to only check your phone 3 times a day (morning, lunch, and then evening before bed) if that would help to turn off the sound (if that's possible for you). I know she needs you, but it'd be nice if you could find a way to balance that out with your own needs, too. Yes , it is blow after blow after blow for a year and a half and this last one is just putting me under. I have no interest in doing anything. Not setting up for Christmas , nothing . Link to comment
Seraphim Posted December 7, 2021 Author Share Posted December 7, 2021 Just struggling . Too many people have died . 8 more work days and 3 more full days . Then I have about 2 weeks off . Link to comment
Jibralta Posted December 8, 2021 Share Posted December 8, 2021 I'm sorry. You are going through so much in such a short period of time. And at such a difficult time of the year. I know it's very tough. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted December 11, 2021 Author Share Posted December 11, 2021 For the first time ever I got a speeding ticket today and got informed by a daycare parent of a Covid exposure. Banner 🤬🤬day and the hits keep on coming . Plus we have a storm blowing literally which might knock out our power . I effen quit. 1 Link to comment
Seraphim Posted December 12, 2021 Author Share Posted December 12, 2021 The province is being blown to bits. This is a neighbour at my old base Link to comment
Seraphim Posted December 12, 2021 Author Share Posted December 12, 2021 So about 200,000 people in the province have no power with no restoration times yet but Hydro One was mobilized in advance of the event. Some people are out on base here but I am ok. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted December 13, 2021 Author Share Posted December 13, 2021 I hate when people are late 😡I made a tea date with someone for one and they are not here 30 mins later . Link to comment
Seraphim Posted December 13, 2021 Author Share Posted December 13, 2021 She forgot 🤦♀️🤦♀️. She is on her way. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted December 13, 2021 Author Share Posted December 13, 2021 I got another brief glimmer of life and hope today I want to turn the corner . 1 Link to comment
Seraphim Posted December 14, 2021 Author Share Posted December 14, 2021 Dyed my hair pink tonight . Brings out the colour of my eyes. 1 Link to comment
Seraphim Posted December 14, 2021 Author Share Posted December 14, 2021 For a short time . Please don’t quote. 1 Link to comment
boltnrun Posted December 14, 2021 Share Posted December 14, 2021 I think it looks great! 1 Link to comment
Seraphim Posted December 14, 2021 Author Share Posted December 14, 2021 One of my current daycare mom’s is an awesome tattoo artist. I finally know what I want. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted December 16, 2021 Author Share Posted December 16, 2021 Thank God for these children who gave me a spark of joy today. ❤️ Link to comment
Seraphim Posted December 16, 2021 Author Share Posted December 16, 2021 This wind storm is so bad glass sheets are blowing off the CN Tower. Power was out in the town I had ordered the kids Christmas lunch from and hubby had to go two towns over . Link to comment
Seraphim Posted December 17, 2021 Author Share Posted December 17, 2021 Once again the provincial Hydro outage map is a giant crap show Link to comment
Seraphim Posted December 17, 2021 Author Share Posted December 17, 2021 I think I have come out of my shock now. I am still very sad of course , I always will be, but I am not emotionally immobilized anymore The sparks of life are coming faster . Link to comment
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