mrpinker Posted February 11, 2018 Share Posted February 11, 2018 This year will be 10 years of marriage to my wife. I fear it's over. I had an emotional affair that is continuing, and I just can't stop. I never intended to leave my wife, just was having fun. My wife is the greatest person on earth, I don't know why I can't stop lying to her about the other woman! It has broke her down repeatedly, because I've told her I've stopped, so we have time to heal. But in the healing process, I'm in a separate bedroom and still can't cut off communication with the other woman, because of loneliness. She keeps seeing my texts. What is wrong with me? How could I do this to my wife? Maybe I don't love her? We have the most amazing young boys, but I feel like I have destructed this family and destroyed her. I already went through a month long healing process with her, because I told her I choose her and my kids, but I STILL lied to her that I was communicating with the other woman! I can't help myself and it's broken my wife's heart beyond repair, caused her to fall out of love with me. So now I'm almost forced to picture my future with the other woman, who quite frankly...I don't think is wife material. Uggg, what I have done. I'm not emotionally prepared to go through a divorce, and not see my kids everyday...but all my wife sees in me now is pain and there is no way we can continue. Did this happen for a reason? Maybe I was subconsciously unhappy in the marriage? I don't see a reason for me to have been unhappy, I had everything, my wife is loyal, treated me very well, wonderful sex life, wonderful house and kids. I think I just got bored...so sad. Link to comment
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