Avro1986 Posted February 7, 2018 Share Posted February 7, 2018 Hi everyone, I am feeling really low right now. I completed two M.Sc. (biology, biochemistry), couldn't find stable work in my field, so one year ago, I started industrial flat roofing. Now, I am completing an apprenticeship. If you read some of my past posts, I got kicked out of my PhD due to bull**** politics. Anyways, I survived my second major depression. Now, I applying to vet school and the military as an officer. I'll tell you one thing I enjoy about the skilled trades: the outdoors, earning potential, and the fact that you can't outsource trades. Right after school, I worked in a dairy farm for 1 year; I loved it but the money was not there. Still, I got to realize that I enjoy physical work (with some mental stimulus). Now, I am going through another depressive episode: all my life, I was obsessed with social status (that's another story). I enjoy roofing, but I feel like a "second-class" person for not being a top white collar person (doctor, scientist), and I feel that women look down on me, given that women tend be hypergamous. I am a tutor volunteer for children services, I do sports, and I think that I overall a good person. However, I feel that it's not enough to gain affection and status. I had a girl turned down a date once I told her I was a roofing apprentice. It's like being told: "You're not worthy of interest" For quite some time now, I have thought of suicide as an honourable way to go (better than violence towards others). As in: "if you're not good enough now for job and love, you'll never be good enough". Still, it's not logical. I know people with science PhD who can't get work in their field, but certified tradespeople can make 70k+year and more with side jobs, AND they are not stuck in an office. I know I should be ashamed to call tradespeople "second-class" because we need them to run society, but status is a reality of human society, whether we like it or not. Still, I remember my grandfather who used to tell me: "prestige doesn't pay your groceries. Be practical." My dad added: "If someone gives a crap about your status first, then you should be very careful about their intentions". Anyways, I am starting to realize that we have been told a lie: "never giver up on your passion/dream". Instead, I prefer Mike Rowe's comment (from TV show Dirty Jobs): "Follow opportunities and bring your passion with you". Indeed, I am doing REALLY good in trade school with math, building, and blueprints. Anyways, thank you for taking the time to read my post. Link to comment
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