Post here instead of contacting your ex!

[sunshine34]

I am so thankful for this forum. This place to send my thoughts to you to a place of inbetween, inbetween not being said and not reaching you. I know I still love you, I know pain is coming for me and you've alreXy had it. In that way I am jealous of you. Envious that you will be fine and I will hurt. I am betrayed by you. By every ounce of you and for that I do hate you. More so that you pretend to be something I loved but thT doesn't exist. You didn't plan your life for me, your heart doesn't beat for me, I'm not the only girl you're going to love. And I wonder if you have successfully lied to me, implying of course you know you Re full of ; or if you have successfully cheated yourself into thinking you're a good person and you aren't the biggest heart ache a person could know? A car wreak waiting to happen. That angers me. It's injustice. You are out meeting new girls, "training them", uploading what you think are attractive whatsapp pictures , flirting probably dating.. And yet claiming IM the only one you love and crucifying me not only for leaving , but for even attempting to move on. Then you decide to choose an office in Tampa instead of coming philadelphia and ing claim you did all of this neglectful , shameful , terrible things in your job for ME?!?!?!? If you had any ounce of love for me nearly equal to the that comes out of your mouth, you'd quit this shameful piece of job that continually preaches a bull dream to you and choose me. Choose us. Choose fixing everything you ruined. But you can't, and that action proves you didn't do it for me. So how dare you ing tell me it's for me. You tell me "I'm always there for you, I swear I'll be there next time". Do you have any idea how embarrassing it is for me to admit financial struggle ? And even more so how embarrassing it is to admit it to the one person that you think understands you most to have them not offer you ANY support and be so ignorant to what you need they think you're mad over an insignificant piece of the conversation. Not only could you not be there for me emotionally when I reached out weeks ago, now you can't offer financial support... Then I ing stupidly text you tonight that I miss you and you don't answer. the empty promises, you saying you'd always be there. You aren't. And you are a terrible boyfriend . So whatever lies you tell yourself, or worse me. They're all a bunch of just like you. You deserve to be alone in your diseased head. I'm so dumb for continuing to think about being there for you on April 6th, why should I be there when you treat me this way and can't even see it? I continually put you before myself even when you up, and you can't even be there when I have to spell out for you how to. I need to burn your name and anything you were bc all of it is ashes. You're a stupid ing piece of . I want to block you and I keep stopping myself thinking you will save me. Thinking you will figure it out. But you never will. So right now I'm taking cover , I'm gonna block you and never speak to you again. Bc u don't deserve it. You're an

[DepthOfField]

I would do absolutely anything to have you back in my life. Anything. I love you.

[sunshine34]

I emailed you today because I want my stuff back and as much as I convince myself it was truly bc I needed my stuff and it was best to do t now so I don't have another reason to contact you I don't believe myself. You were supposed to be the one who would always be there ,you were supposed to be the only one I could reach, the only one I was supposed to love and you aren't. Not anymore. A large part of me knows it's unfair of me to view you in the way that I mistakenly do, because we haven't been that emotionally close in over a year despite being together. I guess I held onto it like an eyelash , a wish I held with my hands but never blew away. You are hard now. So insensitive and disconnected to me or us. I can't tell anymore if you've always been this way or if I missed it in the beginning and it was always there . Looking back, for the past year you had issues being sensitive when I was hurt. Always wanting to blame me instead of comforting me and wishing to never hurt me again , I guess u hurt me so many times you were immune. Like an abusive person would be to his victim. Despite knowing this needs to be final and I can't ever think of you in any time period other than the past, I feel unsettled and empty about it. I miss the start, I miss college, I miss the hours of sleepless nights in your bed. I miss the way we used to connect and fight for each other not with each ofher. It doesn't help that I could really use a friend right now. I am so financially ed and I feel trapped. Trapped when I've only just begun my life. Half of me wants you there,'the other half remembers how insensitive and in compassionate you have been towards me. How you'd probably just sit there and say "that sucks" instead of really tying to understand and help. That you'd be angry and upset I was sad bc it was draining for you. The truth is I've lost the person I've missed and needed since last May when you say with me outside of your work when I found out I flunked biochem and you just held me. You told me we were a team and I'd never be alone. That it would always be you and me. I wonder had I stayed in miami and went to fiu that summer had you stayed that person. Would things be different? Or would every thing eventually unravelled just as badly as it did? Part of me believes you've always been a selfish person looking for opportunities in people, just like u did with ally and Taylor , all of your "friendships" we're really just agreements. You scratch my back and I might pet you for a second . Always taking more than you got. Always thought you'd have people around to want yu and always keeping a back burner open. Look at yu now, still having tons of back burners, that part of you stayed consistent the only thing that changes with you are the things I loved... Those seem to be fleeting and your true character seems to be the parts I hate. Check in later, gonna take a nap

[SweetOne]

I loved you and you cheated and blamed me for everything. I treated you well and can't believe that you can treat someone that just a couple months ago you loved more than anything and can't live without Like they mean nothing. Especially my son who you said you loved and would raise as your own. Now you want me to forget you ever existed and lose your number......I havet iniated ANY communicstion with you aince we split. Its always you who texts or cslls me. I'm sorry you hate me and I wish I knew why. I wish you could just get rid of the anger and tell me the truth about what happened so I could get some closure. You broke my heart and continue to do so daily.

[neverknowwhy]

Why do I miss you so much?

[Orpheus85]

Dear Soon-to-be-ex-Wife,

 

It's almost been 8 months since you left and Ohhh I regret our separation. I wish I hadn't let you go. I wish we were still together. I'm consumed by guilt, sadness, loneliness and feelings of abandonment. I wish you still loved me. I wish you thought about me and cared. I wish you would miss me. I wish you would tell me that your life sucks and you made a mistake. Sigh. That will all never happen and I've lost you forever. You hate me now and will never have anything to do with me Life is so f**king hard I wish I could turn back time.

 

Simply, I miss you terribly and I still love you and your stupid face

 

Always,

 

Me. Xx

[origami]

I had two choices with the email you sent this morning after NC for more than 15 months;

 

1. Read it today or hold it for sometime later.

2. Trash it.

 

I decided to trash your email and keep moving on. I'm sorry, I still love you now, is just that I care more about me and I'm preventing myself from feeling sad.

[bionicgt]

I'm gay, so here's my letter:

 

Samuel, I know that I was not what you wanted, and no matter how many times I showed you that despite the horrible flaws I have, I also have a beautiful side that only a few people can see... If you were sick or sad, or something horrible happened to you , I would not sleep until I was sure that you were happy and with a smile on your face. I wish you knew all this, but I know that I was so clingy during the whole relationship and needy, and I begged, and that's so horrible that I put myself on that position, cause it gave you strenght and the feeling that no matter what you did, I was always there, until you found yourself in a new condo, with the nice gorgeous furniture that we both checked upon before you bought, all the material stuff that you and I knew were for the new stage on our relationship this year... but what happened? you had all my flaws in your list, brought all this horrible side of you that I never even knew was possible and dumped me like a horrible dog out of your house, and told me to shut up and just go home, on top of that you humiliated me by telling me that other guys out there at your new job weren't as clingy, and needy as me... I know I made many mistakes and my jealousy got you tired, but I promised you I could even get into therapy to help myself and make you happy, but you took all the serious stuff I trusted on telling you , and told me I was someone horrible with low self esteem and whatever I did meant NOTHING to you.

 

thanks for making me feel like I'm a worthless pile of crap

 

sincerely, D.

[invisibleheart]

As I lay here thoughts are flowing in my head of the things I wanna say to you. And as always some tears cannot go unshed to how much we have lost. There's so many things I wanna tell you that I know will be left unsaid coz you closed the door. I still speak to you in ways as though you still love me.. As how I still love you and that is always... I silently cry to where no one can hear but my own coz no one really knows what how empty it feels like. Not even you, no never you... You don't know what it feels like.... I was so foolish and naive to have believed in you, to hang to every word, to hold to whatever hope. And you turn around like cowards do, with no respect to me or what we have, I guess you forgotten all about that.

[bionicgt]

I know I wrote yesterday, but here’s my full empty letter that I really wanted to express

Sam:

The day before yesterday i wrote a long, huge letter to you, telling you how much I suck, telling you how much I feel bad that you left me, telling you how sad and how beautiful and perfect you are, that your smile and your eyes are the reason why I wanted to wake up to every day, waking up next to you every day of my life until we were old enough and had come to breathe and go back in time and feel like we did a million things together, and even if it’s just an illusion, i still wanted a lot more time with you, to make you feel refreshed, and for you to feel like I was there like a friend, and a partner in life. But i will never send you that letter. EVER.

I know I did millions of mistakes, I was super jealous, I was controlling at some point, I digged and digged and bugged you everyday, and for that I accept that I regret it. I am the#1 person in the world who says THAT’S HORRIBLE. How could I bug you and bother you with my constant behavior? I know you would probably dump me, but it was just that. Insecurities, and they did not come just naturally. You did things behind my back for which I started having doubts, the days that you’d say you wouldn’t drink, and then you got drunk and told me I was so dramatic and stupid for not letting get drunk… it wasn’t the case, everytime that we argued I wish that you could’ve just kissed me, and hug me and tell me DIEGO, YOU ARE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, PLEASE DON’T THINK THOSE HORRIBLE THINGS ABOUT ME, HOW AM I TO LEAVE YOU? I CAN’T FIND SOMEONE LIKE YOU. And somehow you never did, you never did, you were just there silent, and I had to speak for hours and hours to see if we could finally come to a conclusion. It was just about patching up the wound in the meantime but you humiliated me.

I remember the day you had nothing but debts and pain and sadness in your life, your mom had just kicked you out of the house, she had just told you to go to hell and live your life away from them for being gay, and I was there to take you on my home. I’m not taking this out on you cause all I did was for love, and I don’t regret any piece of love I gave, at all. It’s just sad, that when you had nothing but just a bag of tears and pain, I was the nicest and most loving person you’ve met, but just around 3 weeks ago when you dumped me you had a great apartment, a roommate which I introduced to you, you had a comfy bed with all the great things that we both dreamt. Remember when you said to me you’d dream of the day when you would reach out to have your own place? That it would be for both of us? That you’d dream of a day when you could tell me to go to your place and I’d feel like home? Now what’s left of that? You just decided to part ways and tell me that you did not want to be with anyone at all, that it wasn’t just my jealousy and stupid behavior but also because you wanted to live life for a while and just party and have fun, and that deep inside of you you knew you didn’t love me, and you knew you had to “discover” new things in life, going out with other guys, meet other people, have more experiences.

You have no idea Samuel how much that made me feel, I understand you have the right to let go of us if that’s what you feel is the right thing to do, but you literally kicked me out of your house, telling me to take the sweater off me cause that’s your sweater that you bought with your own money… how could you do that? Look at the blankets and pillow, those are my thing that I gave to you when you had only an empty bed and no pillows. Material things and money never made me happy, the days when you had not even a cent and I did the super market for us, eating the most humble dinners, bread and coke, or chips and cookies while watching a tv you felt sorry for yourself for not offering me a better life, and I said to you, it doesn’t matter, this is a temporary thing. One day you’ll have your own apartment, a better and much bigger home, and then you’ll realize that I was with you thru good and bad, yet you only let me be with u thru bad, and when u got to the good, you kicked me out of your life and be rude and cruel.

I remember the day you told me you were with me just because you felt pity for me, in front of your 2 girlfriends. Yes Samuel, you were drunk and upset about an argument we had, but you don’t say that to people, you don’t treat people like that. Why did you do that Samuel? Why? I just wanna know why I come up to meet people like you. People who are mean and just plain rude. I never treated you like that, EVER. Yes I had mistakes, and yes I did things that I regret. I told you a million times the day you broke up with me, I am sorry. I’m sorry if I was too jealous, I’m sorry if I hated your friends for wanting to be with you, I know that’s a horrible thing. I mean, how would you want to have that around your life? But I told you, please just give me another chance, just once. Just give the opportunity. And you decided to see just my flaws, as if I wasn’t a human being, I never cheated, wanted to have something with someone else, it was just two of us in my mind, now I’m sure you probably are or not with another guy, having fun at that new apartment where I was supposed to fulfill my dreams.

I hope one day you realize what you lost, that I’m not acting like I’m the best you’ve ever had but clearly, the best someone has offered you so far, I offered you my world, my family, I was always myself with you, I just wanted another opportunity, but people just move on and that’s it. So sad that exactly a week after we broke up you’re screaming out loud that you’re single on facebook, posting that you are so great and feel amazing, as if I was just the poison that was intoxicating your life and I’m a piece of crap that deserves to be burnt from your mind, posting shirtless pics on Instagram to show your abs and stuff, that’s so stupid and ridiculous, but I guess I wish I was a bit more like you, more cold, more cold hearted.

You will never realize how much I love, I've been tempted to call you or tell you to get a coffee with me, so i could explain how much I loved you, that if something wrong happened to you today I would still suffer inside, with people teling me how stupid and what a bunch of crap i put myself into, I hate being who I am, I don't hate you, I just hate myself more and I know deep inside, I'm a treasure that you found and lost but I still can't believe you did and said all that to me.

 

Regards,

Diego.

[relevart]

I thought about you today. Not about you leaving and the immense pain I feel. Not about the odd and hurtful choices you are making that directly involve our kids. But I found something funny in the course of a routine day and on reflex went to my phone to call you. No, I didn't actually call you. I didn't even bring the phone out of my pocket. But in that one second between the thought to call you and the realization of what is going on, I was happier than I've been in months.

[neverknowwhy]

I'm not sure why but when I think of you I only remember the good times we shared. I don't think about what you said to me that day or how you acted the last days we spoke. Instead, I remember how amazing the first night we spoke was. I remember what we talked about in the days and weeks following that and how truly amazing it was. I hope I find that again sometime soon. Because not having that and not having you, the you I thought you were, is hard to bear.

 

It's almost been a month since either of us have said a word to each other. The longest we've ever gone with no contact. Truth be told, I am surprised you haven't reached out. But odds are you're with someone. Some new guy or that same guy you dated after you ended it with me. That still doesn't sit well with me, but we're no longer together. Nothing is stopping you from seeing other people. I just know you won't find someone like me. Or at least I hope you don't.

 

What I miss the most is talking with you. We used to talk for hours every day. You said you wanted to start talking again but going out and getting drunk was more important to you than talking with me. So we never talked and it ended again. This time I feel like it's actually over.

 

I listen to the radio often when I'm driving. That Ed Sheeran song gets played often but I always change it. Remember that video you sent me of you singing that while you were driving? How that song reminded you of me? And days later when we fought you said that song made you sad? Well it makes me sad too because it's the only way I connect to you anymore.

 

I haven't looked at your instagram since we've last spoke. The last time I looked you had pictures with that guy and another picture with another guy at a bar. Not sure what's going on there but it's none of my business. I don't look at the pictures I have of you or watch the videos you sent me. I can't do that to myself.

 

You're still the first thing I think about when I get up in the morning. And then whenever I listen to music and Taylor Swift comes on I think of you. You look like her, you know?

 

I don't think you'll ever contact me again. Not even on my birthday in a few months.

 

I hope someday soon I can get over you. I hope someday soon I find someone like you. The you I loved.

[bionicgt]

I have been telling myself, you'll find someone that you will love more than you loved Samuel, and they'll pay you back, adn I'm sorry for all the flaws I have, but I'm only human, and that's the most horrible thing I have had in my entire life, I feel trapped in this love that I feel for you and I don't know when this will stop, it's been almost 4 weeks since you dumped me and told me you needed more experiences without me being your pain the buttt... but please, when will this stop? do you miss me? do you want me back and are afraid that we won't make it work OR that you would rather try out other guys and see if you like them more than you ever liked me? Samuel, I'm dying here, I don't know how to take this off my chest, I've been crying non stop, telling myself that I'm only a human being in this huge world of 6 billion people, and all of them tell me why I'm crying over you? Because, I wanted to do my life with you Samuel. I can't resist this pain anymore, I'm really really sad and I can't handle this pain no more

[einsteins_girl]

I came accross this again today. I found it long ago. After we broke up. I still wish today, like I did then, that I could force you to read it.

 

“You are not brave because you said no, or brave because you ran away, or because you looked love in the face and said “not today.” There is nothing courageous about the way you left me, open handed, palms outwards, waiting. I was standing at your door and I was saying “I will take you as you are if you will do the same for me.” You didn’t know how to. No one had taught you that wanting someone desperately is like sliding out of your clothes and out of your skin and laying yourself at their feet. All skin and no walls. All soul and no teeth, no metal, no keys. No one had shown you how lovely vulnerability can be. How proud it is to be naked in front of someone. Fully clothed, naked. Arms full of heart. Heart full of rain. Body like an olive branch, I am telling you that I love you today. I am telling you that I am not scared to be fragile in front of you. I am telling you that I trust you to look after my gentle. Keep it safe, don’t keep it hidden. They say that giving your name to someone is giving them power over you. I wrote my name on your wrists. I wrote it in your mouth. Whispered it into your ear. I said “here, this is who I am, do what you will with it. I am not scared. I am not frightened.” Even then, even after that, in that quiet rain filled room I watched you stitch yourself back up again and turn away, I watched you do it without me. I kept my hands open anyway, just in case. Here, the mattress is asking you what you’re doing. Here, the walls have known how you sound when you murmur my name. Here, everything is wondering where your brave is. Where has your courage gone? Where is your wolf? I know that you can feel in colours that haven’t been invented yet. I know that you’re trembling beneath your soldier body. I would have loved you enough for the both of us. Until then, I will run through the streets after dark holding a sign that says ‘I SURVIVED LOVING A MAN WHO DID NOT KNOW HOW TO LOVE ME BACK AND IT WAS GLORIOUS.’”

 

— Azra.T “not leaving your heart wide open was the most cowardly thing you’ll ever do”

[Robin2904]

Gotta admit seeing your name on my list of people who recently viewed my POF page the other night was just like...what? Was a weird moment. Never thought id run into you on there of all places. It left me feeling some type of way. I'm not sure why. I guess seeing that you were looking for someone, I don't kno it was just weird. And then the 'I'm sorry' Really though? You're not sorry for any of it, I don't believe you are. You say sorry just for show, its not real. I guess just because that was what you thought you were suppose to say. I honestly should have asked you 'Why are you sorry?' just to see what you would say...i'm curious, do you even know WHY you were fake apologizing? I highly doubt it. I highly doubt you will EVER grasp the gravity of how sorry you should be, or how much of a jerk you've been to me over the years, or JUST how badly you've really truly hurt me. Took the high road though 'Its all good, no hard feelings' biggest lie ever in the history of lies. But that is the way to handle it, I wanted to make sure you never saw how bad you messed me up again and so you think I'm over it. I don't want to give you the satisfaction of thinking you have any type of hold on me anymore. And you won't...I guess it just threw me off my game for a short minutes because POF was the last place I thought I'd see you, but look like you deleted your account 2 days after that...weird. What ever bye and good riddance!

[helpplz]

i don't know what to say, i would like some closure, at least admit what is happening. I'm so broken not knowing why did i deserve all of this.

[pavlo81]

How come you never gave a ? How arw you so happu yet im so miserable. ..how do you so easily be with someone else

[helpplz]

damn.. after crying myself to sleep like a little girl, what else can i say..Feeling anger, pain and disbelief, just wish to say good luck to all of you who share the same pain like me, all of you being left of, feeling so important and loved at first and worthless in the end

[Deciduous]

Dear Roger,

 

I forgive you. I forgive you for not telling me about your addiction. I forgive you. I have held onto my anger for months and I need to let it go. I deliberately wanted you to to live in fear over your secret - but that is not right.

 

I can also see how much I hurt you and just how insensitive, inhumane and appalling I was during our relationship. I am ashamed. We weren't suited, but that is no excuse for a blatant lack of human compassion.

 

Funny enough, you're coming back for Sept-Nov, did help me recover from the pain I felt over the split in August. It really did. I was able to let the relationship go without too much pain. However I don't believe people should go around sacrificing themselves on the alter of not wanting to dump some-one, by sitting in a room with them for 8 weeks. I think that was a bit much on your part, a bit too much sacrificing coupled with a fear of being alone. Clearly you needed time and space to process your hurt over the lady from August. I don't feel it was terribly healthy for you and my reaction to your addiction my well of sent you scuttling back into the shadows of denial and repression.

 

For that, I apologise.

 

In so many cases, when I person gets off lightly with one person, they enter into a world of pain with another. And maybe that is fair. Maybe it is to teach them compassion and humility and just how fragile the human is. Or maybe I just have ty taste in Men.

 

Who knows. Maybe this is my final desperate act of bargaining with the Universe to avoid my own 'orrible heartbreak, but I hope it is more than that. Pain makes us vulnerable and more understanding of the human frailities and failures of others. Pain makes us raw and perhaps that is what is required of me now.

 

So I forgive you. Remember secrets make you sick, though. They wear you down and tear down the spirit. I can honestly say that I wish you well. I will try to remember you as that person who inexplicably came to tidy my room and calm me down when I was so low with heartbreak. That was an astonishing act of compassion. Not many blokes would have faced me and for that act alone, you deserve to be released from wrath and deserve forgiveness. I hope one day I remember to "Pay" that incredible act "Forward."

 

Deci

[miss_sunshine]

I still love you, I still miss you, I still wish I could hear your voice and feel your arms around me again. What I wouldn't give to go back in time and kiss you one last time, hold you one last time, hear you tell me you loved me. I miss what we had so much, I loved our life together, more than I even knew at the time. You are happy (I assume) with someone new, you cheated on me, left me after 11 years but my heart still longs for what we had. I know I should just get over you, see you for the lying, cold-hearted person you ended up being but for some reason I can not seem to do that. I'm scared I will always love you. I'm scared I will never meet someone who I will love as much as you. I am scared I will always feel this pain and that I will always think of you every night before I go to bed and every morning when I wake up. I'm scared that I will never get over the pain of you leaving me for someone else, seeing you treat me with such coldness after I gave you everything I had for so long.

[pavlo81]

Fark you you farking

[bionicgt]

sAMUEL, I know that you'r already moved on and a month after breaking up with me you're already "had one of the best nites ever" of your life and flirting with this new guy at your job. I just wanna say it breaks my sould, I just miss you so much Samuel. I miss you a lot, I've been tempted to call you, or message you and I'm only someone you "spent a year with".... you know how that hurts and makes me feel so miserable. I miss you so much Samuel. Regardless of how much we hurt each other, I miss you and I wanna cry now... a month, 1 month almost on Thursday, we'll be 1 month separated. Time flies... I miss you so much Samuel. I wanna cry

[neverknowwhy]

I didn't sleep last night. I laid in bed wide awake and I thought of you. How we were and how we're no more.

 

It's been 30 days now. 30 days since either of us have said anything to one another. It feels longer than that. Almost like it's been a year. I don't like it. I don't want to message you because if I did I fear you wouldn't respond and it would make me feel worse than I already do.

 

I never thought you wouldn't be a part of my life. And you thought the same. Remember when you said you didn't want me not to part of your daily life? I do. I have it saved on my phone. I have about 60 things you've said to me saved on my phone. I wanted to show you them too but I never did. I remember everything about you and everything we've ever talked about.

 

But why do I get the feeling that you're completely over me this time? You likely have some guy or multiple guys that give you the attention you so desperately need, but do they make you feel how I made you feel? I think it's unlikely. Remember that first night we talked? How unbelievably amazing it was. I think you fell in love with me that night. I fell in love with you that night. It truly was my favorite conversation I've ever had with anyone. I think of it often and wish I could spend the rest of my life in the middle of that conversation.

 

Anyway, I'm not over you. Not by a long shot. I think it's because you're the first girl I ever cared about and shared myself with. Only you truly know who I am. You know more about me than my closest friends. You said I was your best friend and the most important thing to you. Now we're nothing.

 

My friend wants to go to New York with me this summer. Maybe some time in July. You and I both have birthdays in July. I just realized yours is two weeks after mine. My friend wants to go out every night to bars and clubs. You know I don't enjoy going out but wouldn't it be something if I saw you one of those nights. You'd see what you threw away. What you gave up. What you could live without.

 

I want to reach out to you and find out how you've been but I can't bring myself to do it. I can't set myself up for more disappointment. It really is for the best that we don't talk. A lot has happened between us, more good than bad. But I don't think we're possible anymore. I need to get over you, sooner rather than later. A lot is not going well in my life and it just brings me back to you and us. There was nothing I wanted more than to be with you. Now I'm relearning how to be alone.

[neverknowwhy]

What I loved about you

 

How you made me feel

The way you looked

Your voice

Your laugh

Your talkative nature

Your desire to keep the conversation going

Your genuine interest in me

Our conversations

You

 

What bothered me about you

 

What you said to me that morning

Your lack of respect toward me

Your insatiable desire for male attention

How far away you were from me (not your fault)

Your choice to be without me

 

My faults

 

Falling for you so quickly

Being needy at times

Looking at your social media

Disrespecting myself to keep you from leaving

Not taking our relationship slower

Not letting you go when I should have

[INxJ]

I mailed you back your parking permit yesterday. I didn't want to include a message in it, as I don't know what else to say. No need to thank me for it, Casey.

 

I think about you asking to talk about getting back together and I don't know how much of a good thing that would be right now. It bothered me that you asked me if I was trying to get a rise out of you that one time, or whether I was being sarcastic in my text to you. I don't know you brought that over from a previous relationship or whether you developed that perception in ours, but I would never do that to the person I love. I'm not that manipulative...