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I'm stuck in the worst cicumstranses that could ever happen to me(though it could be worse,who knows).Damn,I'm living in a lie.Lying to myself and my family.I have feelings for my ex,who doesn't want anything more than just dating me(not sex,just hanging out),and is currently looking for a serious girlfriend.I got addicted to skipping school.I tell myself every single day "this is the last day I'm not going to school".What frightens me is my low marks at school.I have trouble with maths,I know I can't "escape" my problems,but when I just think about it,or look at my school books I get this sick feeling,I get so full of fear that I literally stop breathing.My mother doesn't know about that,she also thinks that I don't care about my ex and that's why we're just friends-who-are-kissing.I can't believe I got myself into this.Even at my birthday party I got drunk and started crying because my best friend told me that "you have no idea how pathetic you look,dancing with your ex,when he doesn't give a * * * * about you.deal with it,he's just paying attention to you because of your birthday".I feel terrible,I have to work my way out of this,I know it.Please tell me how to deal with my fear.he's the only guy I've had feelings for,we really connect,but..I know I have to let him go.I'm searching for a new boyfriend at the moment,but I think my life's too messy for that.I have to fix my marks.I'm going nowhere.Is there a chance to recover? Is it possible to just bring back the normal life I had before?

I know this is not as serious as ex-relationship,liking someone,marriage conflicts,suicide thoughts,but I need some help here.Lately,for about a week I guess,no matter what time I go to sleep I can't fall asleep 'till 4am.Problem is I have to wake up at 6am for school so I don't get enough sleep at all.Then after a couple of days I get so tired I just go to sleep after school at about 13 and can sleep for hours.But at night I just can't seem to manage.I have no idea why.Weird,what could be the reasons for this?

How do I keep NC if we're in the same group of friends who hang out every weekend? What is the chance of getting him back? Could I be missing him only because I know it's hard to have him back?

Thanks to everyone.That boosted my self confidence a little.I'm actually a confident person,though after my first break-up deep inside of me I get scared that the guy will dump me.Can't there be a person who would guarantee that he really cares about you that much that he wouldn't leave you for something so meaningless..? I don't know,maybe I'm getting into this too serious.All I ever wanted was a stable,harmonic,caring relationship.And all I got was a guy who told me I'm the perfect girl for him,then after I dumped him,got back together and out of nowhere he decided that we weren't compatible,following by a nerve-breaking,criticising,blaming-me-for-everything,selfish guy,whose negatives I accepted,but he chose the easy way out.This is confusing,at least to me.

How about changing their place? You can try: -the waist -shoulders -hair -holding and stroking gently her head(I love this) -holding her hands -gently all over the body

Well...I really hope you're right.Anyway,what are the most important things in a relationship? I think I know them,but just to be sure I'm not missing anything,I'll need your help here.My mind still can't understand all of this.Maybe I should become an emotional wreck.

That's what they said,which confused me I always thought the less are the fights,the better and harmonic it would be.It seemed they were both used to the type of girls who are hysteric,too open(always talking) and kinda clingy.I like having my personal space and think it's reasonable to give my bf some too.But the second ex accused me of "not showing enough that I care" because I didn't invite him for a walk every night.I did call him every day like twice,supported him as much as I could..I don't know what's wrong with me ](*,)

So..that's not fatal? I just don't think I could change my whole personality just to be in a normal relationship And the reason we didn't have fights is because I really tried not to make arguments from stupid small things which I consider meaningless.I prefer the normal adult talk.I don't consider the fact him hanging out with friends one night instead with me a reason to yell at him.But my second boyfriend told me that's what I should have done.Am I missing something?

Problem is I still have feelings for my ex-boyfriend(the one who's interested if I got back together with ex2).So by telling him that I've got back together with ex2,I'd hope that he gets angry and shows that he still cares.I'm not with ex2 at the moment though,we're just friends with benefits(just kissing and hanging out).I think I want my ex back but I know I that after all we've been through maybe it's not a good idea.I'm confused.What will you do if your ex gets back together with her ex?

I just realized it.Two guys have broken up with me,the first one I had a 4month relationship and with the other 2 months.In the first one I was really myself,I could open up and feel free to share everything with him..he told me recently that the reason he broke up with me was that he was annoyed that I had potential but didn't use it-that I never acted serious,always just joked and had fun.I was just so f***ing happy,I couldn't hold my joy and be serious..I don't know..I broke up with him in the first place after 3 months,then we got back together and after a month he broke things off.Both of my ex-es said that one of the problems was that we never had fights.After my first break up I was devasted,because the only person I could be myself with just threw me out of his life...imagine how I felt.So in the 2months relationship I was afraid to be myself,I was so afraid to make a mistake or anything that I just didn't work in the relationship properly..plus I got always criticised by him..that I don't share,that I lie,don't trust him...he didn't even like the way I looked at him Maybe I just have a terrible personality and that's why they broke up with me It seems I attract men only because of my looks and sense of humor,which in time starts annoying them I guess...I've had other relationships but they weren't serious and I was the one who broke things off.I'll probably just give up this crap.I feel like I can't do anything right

The strange thing is that my ex boyfriend is interested if I'm back with my other ex,so your situation reminds me of mine,though I don't know how he would react if I told him yes.

It seems you're still not over her completely,how about complete No Contact? "What you do not know,cannot hurt you."

I decided out of the sudden not to go to school for a week,to take a rest for link removed mother doesn't know so I feel like a liar. Recently we broke up with my ex-boyfriend and I feel lonely.I feel so unwanted lately and the only person who cheers me up is my other ex-boyfriend,who is now my lover,we see each other once in a week,and we both have just broken up with our ex-es. I feel depressed and this makes me forget about my friends. come on,I can't take care of myself,how can I take care of someone else? I do care about my friends but I feel so lost I don't know what to do. My marks are getting lower and I feel like my dream to study psychology in USA,where the rest of my family lives and become a writer would be impossible.I know what I want-career,good marks,a caring boyfriend,caring friends. What is wrong with me? I don't smoke or drink like most of the teenagers of my age(17) so why is my life falling apart? I hope I don't get caught by my mom that I'm missed school when I go to my doctor to take a medicine note for the week. I feel down,depressed,useless,unwanted,lost... I feel ugly..here's a photo of myself link removed

I want him back,but I don't want to be the active part because he broke things off in the first place.

My ex-bf was at my place and left a book open so I could see it exactly on a page where it says "be hasty and let the person know you want him back" and then we had an argument about why I'm actting distant and that he wants us to be friends.He mentioned that he wants me to be "the active side sometimes" and asked me "if I wanted to tell him something".Of course,as usual,he blamed me for ruining our relationship,but then we made up.We made sex,which I consider as a mistake and after it,he asked me if we'd stay friends,I said okay.What exactly does he want?