bdwiii Posted October 13, 2019 Share Posted October 13, 2019 Some of you will know who I’m talking about from my past posts. There’s a girl I’ve known now for 14 years and we’ve dated off and on throughout that time, but this was the longest time (6 months) we were ever together. She had called me back in the beginning of May and we got together and before long she was living with me. Let’s just say it was tumultuous during those six months to say the least. There was a lot of arguments which I know see where her being manipulative constantly. Everything she did to cause strife was projected onto me, and I was made out to be the bad guy despite I practically worshiped the ground she walked on. I truly did love this girl. Well, later I find out that a problem she had said she was over she was in fact not over at all, this being heroin addiction. During the time she was with me I had her in the hospital several times for overdose and in rehab twice. All to no avail, so she was going to go to another place I had arranged for her, and we did all the preparation for her to leave this past Thursday, but Wednesday afternoon she said she wanted to say goodbye to a female friend so I was fine with that and she told me she loved me and kissed me as she left the house. The hours rolled by and she didn’t return until Friday morning at 1:00 am. She finally shows up saying she relapsed and she had to get some things from her girlfriends and then she’d be home. That never happened either. I dug through my phone which she was using and saw some of the last numbers she had called and I reached some guy, and she was there and she talked to me and said she was coming home, but never did so I kept calling back and finally this guy agreed to meet me somewhere so when I see him he tells me look, I’m really sorry to have to tell you this but she’s been ing my roommate there at the house for about two weeks now. Well, it felt like the wind got knocked out of me and I felt sick to my stomach. As it turns out he deals drugs so that explains that. But to have been lied to and deceived like that after a half year together just is a crushing blow to me. Despite how wrong I know it was to try and save her from herself and inevitable death, I still loved her dearly and this hurts like hell. I can’t eat, sleep, or even think straight anymore. The court had stipulated that she stay with me and go into a drug rehabilitation program and they were going to do spot urine tests for use. Well, on Monday morning I’m calling the judge and her probation officer and having her bail revoked so they’ll reissue a bench warrant and put her back in jail. I’m doing it for two reasons. One for what she’s done to me, and to hopefully keep her from dying soon because I was told it’s that bad. What I need to know is how do I get over this? It’s got me all messed up and I just the pain to stop. I’ve been told twice now that believe it or not, she’ll be back trying to get back together with me but I just can’t do that anymore. Not after this. Any words of advice and wisdom would be greatly appreciated. Link to comment
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