jme628 Posted September 16, 2011 Share Posted September 16, 2011 I wish you weren't so stubborn. Link to comment
Le MX5 Posted September 16, 2011 Share Posted September 16, 2011 I don't miss you at all, BRO! (She hated when I called her bro.) Whenever I see you, you don't look very happy, it's quite amusing actually... Moving on to bigger and better things, leaving the irrelevant and insignificant behind. Cya, bro! Link to comment
MissMazzi Posted September 16, 2011 Share Posted September 16, 2011 I feel so happy at the moment. I promise you everyone, you will feel better soon.... It's so funny because I thought I would never make any progress with my life; he told me that I would never change and that I would get nowhere. And I believed him... But these past two months, I have been meeting more people than in the past two years and that's all thanks to my positive mindset. Positivity can change your f**king life. DO IT PEOPLE. No excuses My self-esteem and confidence has improved tremendously. Socialising and talking to new people comes so EASILY to me now. Before I was crippled with shyness and unsureness of myself. Wow this is so very liberating, to face your fears and everything that has dragged you down for so long. Face your fears and do not resist any present situation. Just face it. That's the best piece of advice I've ever come accross. Link to comment
S0L Posted September 16, 2011 Share Posted September 16, 2011 Give me a call sometime this weekend. You know you want to. Link to comment
jjbinks Posted September 16, 2011 Share Posted September 16, 2011 Come c me . Be mine. Link to comment
jjbinks Posted September 16, 2011 Share Posted September 16, 2011 I just want u to hug me and not let go. But u already did Link to comment
Melting Posted September 16, 2011 Share Posted September 16, 2011 I hate you for what you did to me, your strung me along for your own emotional needs.... it was never about me Link to comment
Airbag Posted September 16, 2011 Share Posted September 16, 2011 Everyday I'm praying for you to come back to me. You know I treated you well. Why are you seeing someone else 6 weeks after you broke up with me and telling me you don't want to be in a relationship for a while? I know this is killing you too... Link to comment
jjbinks Posted September 17, 2011 Share Posted September 17, 2011 I miss picking u up from the airport Link to comment
Sanity Posted September 17, 2011 Share Posted September 17, 2011 Get the * * * * out of my mind. Link to comment
MarnDark Posted September 17, 2011 Share Posted September 17, 2011 Goodnight. Despite everything I love you as much as the day before you broke up with me. I hope you still believe our hearts are still following the same compass. I miss you. Link to comment
RitaTrue Posted September 17, 2011 Share Posted September 17, 2011 Day 37 My old email address tempts me. Ever since my ex gave me some breadcrumbs a few days ago, I feel the need to recheck the old email address to see if he's said anything again. Even though I didnt answer him, I still want to see. Just to be sure. I almost checked my email today, to see if he said anything. But I caught myself, and clicked out. Link to comment
RitaTrue Posted September 17, 2011 Share Posted September 17, 2011 Day 37 My old email address tempts me. Ever since my ex gave me some breadcrumbs a few days ago, I feel the need to recheck the old email address to see if he's said anything again. Even though I didnt answer him, I still want to see. Just to be sure. I almost checked my email today, to see if he said anything. But I caught myself, and clicked out. Wow, I cant believe this. I finally checked my phone, after being too lazy to look at it. My ex called me! I didnt know it til now. I feel comforted and surprised a little. I also feel bad for him. But, I guess the saying is true: people want what they cant have. Link to comment
northpickle Posted September 17, 2011 Share Posted September 17, 2011 I had the most DREADFUL nightmare last night. You had hosted a party and there were all kinds of people there from our pasts, including someone who started being nasty to me. And you wouldn't defend me. You were saying "It's none of my business any more, we're not together and I can't look after you"... I've had so many similar dreams, and it's just the thoughts going through my mind during the day manifesting themselves through the night. I know this. But it's like it never stops. And the dreams are worse, because they have vivid images with them too 2 weeks and a day since we saw each other, you dropped me home in your car, you were crying. I was trying to hold it all in with the last scrap of dignity I had. I squeezed your hand and we said goodbye. I am always here if you want to talk, and I think you know that. I'm staying away to regain myself and reflect on what happened and I hope you know that too. I love you dearly Link to comment
northpickle Posted September 17, 2011 Share Posted September 17, 2011 Get the * * * * out of my mind. Couldn't agree with this more! Link to comment
Sanity Posted September 17, 2011 Share Posted September 17, 2011 Couldn't agree with this more! Haha. I don't know why. Why despite the fact that she has a new guy that I still love her so much. I don't want her back. Deep down, I just want her to be happy. I hope the happiness she feels now isn't temporary but I am 90% sure it is. They're at different points in life. To ex: He said he would save up for college because of you. Quit smoking because of you. Love you at first sight. I hope he didn't say them just to steal you away. You're so driven by emotions and I know that if I didn't hurt you so badly, you wouldn't have gone with him. His age isn't the only matter, but his immaturity that you fail to see. Poking his nose into our business when he wasn't even your boyfriend and scolding me with vulgarities. But I guess infatuation blinds us. I always knew how gullible you were, and that is why I fell for you. You would've done anything for me if I treasured you more and didn't hide my feelings. If you ever come back, I can still forgive you. Remember this time last year? I said, no matter what you do to me, how hurt you make me, I never want to see you cry again. And that holds true. You're forever so silly. Link to comment
northpickle Posted September 17, 2011 Share Posted September 17, 2011 OK, I'm going to do it, I'm going to go out today with a friend for some food and a few drinks. I hope hope HOPE I don't bump into you anywhere, because if you walk away, ignore me, or try and start small talk, whatever reaction you could possibly give me, will break my heart all over again. And I'm feeling stronger today. So please don't be anywhere I am today. Thanks Link to comment
thelastsong Posted September 17, 2011 Share Posted September 17, 2011 I hate you, and I hate that she is visiting in 16 days. I hope she burns you like she did last time. I hope she throws you away like she always does. I hope you realize what a massive mistake you've made. Link to comment
Vanilla Sky Posted September 17, 2011 Share Posted September 17, 2011 I still miss you, how are you? Do you want to come over? I got so much to say. Dont come if you cant be honest though. I cant stop thinking about you. I am so pathetic!!!!! Link to comment
beacon Posted September 17, 2011 Share Posted September 17, 2011 gtfo my heaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad!!!!!!!!!!!!! ! ! Link to comment
jjbinks Posted September 17, 2011 Share Posted September 17, 2011 i feel better. its real. I signed up for the service needed to block contact from you and it's going to be activated in about an hour. It's time to be honest with myself about some things here too. A) yes i do still have feelings for you obviously BUT B) I think this desire to 'keep you " and "get you back" is just because I COULD see that fairy tale with you ONCE. nothing to do with who you are now because I have No idea who you are. C) I wasn't all that happy when I was with you. You never delivered exactly what I wanted and big surprise you still arent. does that mean I wont miss you? No. and D) I feel like the only reason I am holding on so tight is because of the contrast of you letting go so much. It;s human nature. to hold somethign together all by myself because you arent at all. E) if you did try with me I'd probably break up with you in a matter of months because you suck as a bf. F) you take sex to be something so animalistic it makes me sick.. why would I want to put myself back in that situation?? wheere i felt so clearly objectified by the one person who is supposed to love me? G) keeping you in my thoughts, creates an illusion that you will morph into this guy i honestly never actually saw in you. well never in real life... H) This illusion keeps me from moving on and finding someone who is better than you. I) this guy who is better than you won't walk out on me, he wont fall out of love with me, and he will be just as "unrealistic" as I am about love. J) i dont need a relationship at all right now, I just need me. Letting you * * * * that up or wanting you to is just stupid. Why would I pick someone who messed up his chances with me so many times anyways?? Game over for you. Now and forever. K) I need to change my username so you no longer can see anything that I write because I don't want you to see or hear or be near my thoughts. L) I hope one day you miss me and you can't contact me and you read this and you see hwo I really feel. you see how YOU are the one that lost me. how all of this is in actuality your fault not mine for "not taking you back sooner" because the real man would've sstepped up and gotten me back the right way instead of failing and giving up epically like you did only to eventually make me come get you. M) you are a lazy lover. N) you need someone who loves less and gives less just like you. O)If i show up centerfold in playboy I hope your friends find it and tell you how much of an idiot you are while you jack off to my picture P) EFF YOU ! ITS OVER! CYA BUDDY Link to comment
1guygirl Posted September 17, 2011 Share Posted September 17, 2011 i really miss you today tim, jus really wanna drop you a line, and everything Link to comment
Julcic Posted September 17, 2011 Share Posted September 17, 2011 went out for the first time since BU tonight....friend looking after me said I should get out of bed and back out there.....i put on a brave face but honestly I was thinking about you every minute and wishing we had done more 'going out' and seeing things cos we always enjoyed stuff like that .........wonder what you are up to tonight.....weekends are always seriously tough............wish you were here x Link to comment
Melting Posted September 18, 2011 Share Posted September 18, 2011 Well I am finally somewhat at peace. Yesterday you txtd me saying that you liked me very much, but it is not our time as you are still getting over your separation and then asked if I wanted to come over and play poker with you. You broke my soul, why didnt you just say that to my face when we broke up? Instead you txt me to dump me with some lame excuse and then ignore me, after telling me you wanted to talk about it. 2wks I have been going frantic, cos you put the blame on me! I deserve alot better then you and I truly hope the day comes when you come crawling back and I have moved on! Link to comment
jme628 Posted September 18, 2011 Share Posted September 18, 2011 It's been 22 days since contact...I'm kind of proud of myself that I've made it this far. I didn't think it was possible considering how terribly hurt I am. I woke up last night and read the last email you sent me and it made me cry yet again. Everything you have done and said is a contradiction. I've been trying to keep myself busy but I have moments where I am by myself that I just can't ignore the pain I am still feeling. I just wonder how you are feeling about it and if it upsets you too. Link to comment
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