MissMazzi

I feel so happy at the moment. I promise you everyone, you will feel better soon.... It's so funny because I thought I would never make any progress with my life; he told me that I would never change and that I would get nowhere. And I believed him... But these past two months, I have been meeting more people than in the past two years and that's all thanks to my positive mindset. Positivity can change your f**king life. DO IT PEOPLE. No excuses My self-esteem and confidence has improved tremendously. Socialising and talking to new people comes so EASILY to me now. Before I was crippled with shyness and unsureness of myself. Wow this is so very liberating, to face your fears and everything that has dragged you down for so long. Face your fears and do not resist any present situation. Just face it. That's the best piece of advice I've ever come accross.

I feel like such a fool for loving you still, when you feel absoloutely nothing for me. How can that just happen? I'm kidding myself. It's obvious you were never really in love with me. Your actions were an indicator of that but I just ignored it. You tried to break up with me so many times, and I was the one who wanted to fix everything whereas you were happy to leave everything in shambles. I keep telling myself "Oh he must miss me just a little bit." but that can't be true...I haven't heard a word in weeks... I invested so much into us..I tried to do everything to my best ability. It just wasn't enough =/ I guess you just don't like me as a person. I have to accept this.

First saturday alone in two years... What am I supposed to do?

Please please learn something from this relationship. I know that you've been blind to your ways for a very long time, and so have I. I seriously hope you work on yourself and become a better person. I don't think it's fair to shift all the blame on me and hold me responsible for the downfall of this relationship...Obviously I've harboured alot of negative feelings towards you. If only you weren't so manipulative, I would have been able to come out and confront you about them more...Please don't carry on like this. If only I had time to think to myself about this before. It's irritating how it took the breakup to actually reflect on your toxic ways. If only I could see earlier and be less in denial about it. Either way, you were opposed to any kind of disagreement I had with you.. I feel as though you live for conflict. If only I could just bring this all to your attention...but there will be no doing that.

I have a nagging feeling that you already have another girl lined up... It's only been three days...Can't you atleast wait? You clearly have issues to sort out and instead of facing the pain, you jump into another relationship? Well I have to say, you downgraded. Not to mention you say that she is apparently asexual. UHH, how the hell will she be able to satisfy your needs? Lol. Oh god. I have a feeling she is a pushover and will succumb to all of your demands. No one else needs to brush that ego of yours...You already convinced her to start putting on make-up and she ACCEPTED...Wow okay. I suppose you pick on the girls who have very little spine.