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[Sparkly Eyes]

I don't understand how you could drop me like a hot potato and be over me in a week. I guess I should have seen that coming, you never really cared about me or loved me anyway.

[dandan78]

* * * * you. I'm outta here. Your Mum knows where I am but I don't expect to be hearing from you. Why would I when you've got your * * * * from one place and your emotional support from somewhere else.

I hope everyone gets to see you for who you really are before you * * * * up anyone else's life or even marriage!

[chinup]

I heard you've been trying to justify what you did by trying to say that it was for the best that we broke up anyway,

 

I don;t think you understand. It is hard when relationships end but the way you did it has made it 1000 times harder. I am such a good person, and don't deserve what you did. I am angry that I am the better person in all this but that I am the one feeling really depressed and betrayed and awful whilst you are sleeping with someone else and having a fun time. I really don't want you to justify what you did by saying that at least you didn't cheat - it is merely a technicality and plus the way you ended it was cold and heartless and damaging. It is really hard for me that you and all my good friends are out but that I can't go because of NC.

 

I must maintain NC. What you think shouldn't matter. I am worth more than you. I can't wait for you to be no more than a distant memory.

[gtr]

It's the small things that tear me up. The biggest things are not having you in my life, not being able to walk into our first place together where I get to sleep next to and wake up next to your beautiful face every morning and night, not being able to look forward to the day where I get on my knee and propose my love to you forever, to the day where I meet you at the altar, to the day where I would drive the quickest route to the hospital so that you could unleash us; our beautiful baby.

 

The small things: pushing you aside from traffic, worrying about you all the time...24 hours a day, 375 days a week, knowing that the day will come when you are pregnant and you want your favorite craving...i'd rush to the nearest store with a smile on my face, being able to enjoy time with each other's families...how I miss them, envisioning the day where I'd buy a ring for you, I wanted to go to the same sales lady and buy the ring with my gut instinct; one that I loved and you'd love just the same.

 

See a trend here? I do. It's the future. We made the best time we could have for our 2 day a week relationship. I couldn't wait for the day I saw you more; experienced more with you; lived life with you. I never got a chance after 3 years of waiting for it. Your mom controlled both of us for 3 years and now you and you're friend are controlling your present and future. How stupid do I feel for waiting three years for you to finally have some independence from your mom? Once it finally happened, you wanted nothing to do with me. I remember telling you I felt like you that I was "losing you." But, you comforted me and knocked me out of that thought quickly. And for what? To make me feel good in the short term and shatter my heart one day through a phone call? Is love blind?

 

How could I blame you? We never communicated. I was scared you'd take my problems the wrong way, and I don't know what you were scared of; could these be the problems you had in highschool? I confide in the fact that I made you happy. I succeeded. All I wanted to do was make you happy, not contribute to your sadness. I just wish I could spend the rest of my life with you; an individual whom I loved for everything that you were and weren't.

 

Maybe you've met someone new. Spend time with him, love him. Soon you'll find that no one could offer you what I offered you; the whole world. You could confide in me, trust in me, have faith in me, talk to me about whatever, I'd be here for you. I wouldn't judge you, I'd be there to listen, and if you wanted, help.

 

Abandonment? What does this mean? You know this first hand. I've been abandonded by friends, family, and you. When will it end? When will I start getting what I deserve? I want someone who's there with me through good and bad, a friend and a lover until the end. I often ask myself if I am asking too much. Sometimes I tell myself that no one is like me. The other part of me tells me how wrong I am; there is someone out there for me that believes in the same things I do. For 3 years, I thought this person was you.

 

Have I hurt you so much that I will never hear from you again? What have I done to deserve this? I felt that we were growing together and even though it wasn't in ideal circumstances, soon we'd fall into those ideal circumstances and share a wonderful future together.

 

My love for you will never fade. I'll never forget you. I'd hurt someone for you, die for you, always be there for you. If you are on this earth after I pass; fear not. God and I will talk right when I get there and we'll be looking over you forever. We'll always be here for you; listening, helping, and loving.

 

I hope that you are happy.

[jojo23]

Pathetic coward man! yes i was unwell but you didn't try you didn't give me the chance!

after the countless times you told me you loved me the closeness i had with your family and you ripped it all away over night!

I would've got better we we're engaged and booked to get married! i'm glad you didn't say in sickness and in health because you proved you can't take that.

The reality hit and you sold me out to move on to your next emotional high! i used to be your drug you were addicted and then nothing.

Your a shell of a man and i hope one day you realise exactly what you have done.

You've destroyed a good person.

[leda]

Listen. You betrayed me. You hurt me profoundly. You jilted me. You ignored me. You acted like a coward.

 

And I hate you.

 

You should burn every love letter I've ever given you. Delete all the pathetic emails I sent you. In fact, delete my email address and all my phone numbers.

 

I don't ever want to hear from you again.

[dandan78]

I really wish you would get in touch x

[peanutbutterandjelly]

i miss you

[Nappyloxs]

I blame a lot of the problems in our relationship on me. At first I blamed you, but after a while I looked at myself.

 

But even though, I know I could have loved you better. I did many things for you that you never appreciated either. Picking you up from your girls night out, so you did not have to drink and drive. Let you go on girls night outs without ever complaining. Taking mean comments from you constantly. Fixing your car when I knew how. Just doing many little things for you that were not insignificant, but I did them because I always thought of you. So funny how quickly you forget and can be mad at me.

[Budgie]

I know its been a year since you broke up with me, but damnit, you can still hurt me. Know its not your fault. But I know you know your words hurt...

[Jason1080]

I miss you, hope you are doing well

[dandan78]

You really do know how to get to me!!!!

 

What's the matter, your first two choices not around? And I was doing so well. Well, you'll just have to get used to me not being around for emotional support!!!!!

[rapunzel]

I still blame myself for what happened although I am well aware it takes two to tango. It was terrible timing and I know things went too fast and I, being the female who has to control the pace of the relationship and put the breaks on, failed at slowing things down. You even warned me and I did not heed your warning. I regret this very much. I was coming out of an LTR where sex was a chore and not joyful. I was not in love and I wanted out. When I met you I felt alive, excited and I thought you were "the one". I know that things got intense too quickly and you could not deal with it. It makes me very sad as I thought it was wonderful, rare and precious but you wanted to get away from it. I still wonder what you think of me but I'm trying to let those thoughts go, they serve no purpose and are futile.

 

I know you have problems in your relationships (who doesn't), you have admitted them to me. I know you feel guilty for what happened, and perhaps you should. You were not over your ex and you should not have gotten involved with me. But we are human, and as they say "to err is human, to forgive, divine." I have forgiven you but I have not forgiven me.

 

You came to me, I think, seeking forgiveness this past July....and I was not prepared. I misinterpreted the reason why you wanted to talk to me. You were looking for me to help you alleviate your guilt for what happened. I had no warning that you were going to ask me to go for a walk with you that night, and it was a beautiful moonlit summer night and I had had a couple of drinks. When you asked me how you could make amends to me, I could not think of anything. I mean, what could I say? "Come back to me? Wipe away the past so it didn't happen at all? Don't date anyone or bring women to our gigs? Tell me the real reason why you don't want to be with me?"

 

What I said was I could not think of anything. I also told you that I did not think you needed to feel guilty, I was an adult and you did not hold a gun to my head (I regret using those words, but hindsight...) I confessed to you that it was a difficult situation since we've never had enough time away from each other. I said to you "I don't know what you want me to say to you". I told you that these things take time and you said "yeah, and we'll be dead before too long" or "before that happens" or something like that.

 

That was hurtful. I am not on your time frame. I know you moved on long ago, in fact, you never had to "move on" as you never loved me to begin with. I was a distraction for your broken heart. You knew you were in no place to get involved with me, you know you led me on, you know you flirted with me and winked at me and kept me stringing along after the first time you broke up with me. You know that the second time around was a huge mistake and that is why you feel guilty.

 

I think I have done amazingly well in this situation. I remained in the group and we have had a lot of great performances in the last two years. You and I had a great gig with one of the biggest rock icons of all time. I was able to keep it together through all of this. I never pursued you, asked you why you left, begged you to come back. You never saw me cry. You saw me living my life, staying in a group that I loved, being professional and cordial throughout. Ok, the second time around I did respond to your advances but you were just trying to be friends and I misinterpreted it. It was 9 months after our first break up and I never chased you. You contacted me, you asked me to spend time with you, you escorted me to our shows, you asked me to dinner, you asked me where my meditation class was and if you could come to it. I did not initiate any of this stuff. You allowed what happened the second time to happen. I kept you at bay for a few months. NINE months total before anything happened. And of course, I am just as responsible for my actions as you are. I take 100% responsibility for my actions.

 

It's OK. I do forgive you. happens. Life is messy and chaotic. Maybe you will find true happiness with this new woman. If so, I will really try to be happy for you. I'm not sure what the future holds, if I can stay in the group or not. For now, I'm staying through the end of the year. I still maintain that you are a beautiful man, foibles and all, and I forgive you. You deserve happiness and I hope you find your way. Now I will continue to work on forgiving ME.

[Nappyloxs]

Boo-boo

 

I am sorry for the way I treated you for past year. You are a terrific and amazing woman. You were my perfect woman; the woman of my dreams. I just was not your perfect man or the man of your dreams. I know that I can be pain and difficult. Its just who I am. I know you would have stood by me through thick and thin IF I had just shown you how much I truly do love you. I am sorry that I realized this too late. You are gone now and just will be a sweet memory. If I could rewind time, I would do so many things differently or if I was given another chance, I would show you are truly special you are to me. I understand why you left, and I really don't blame you. I am not perfect and have said and done many things in my life that I have regretted. This will just be another one.

 

Love always.

[LazyDaisy]

Why couldn't you just treat me right. We could have had an amazing relationship. We could have been a great team, but you were just holding back. So now we are both miserable.

[doyathink]

I'm tired of thinking about you

[twomonks]

i am curious about what you are doing these days...

 

but i am starting to let you go, a few months back i wouldn't have thought that this was possible.

[jojo23]

Another man kissed me tonight and you'll be pleased to know i hated it because it just wasn't you!

I half expected you to be there but that is now more proof to me that you have moved on, your having a fab time with friends or even with another girl (this thought kills me).

I've been nervous for weeks and you weren't there.

I looked all night for you, where are you? what have you been doing.

All questions i so desperately want an answer to and don't want to know because i know my heart will break even more!

[dandan78]

I've had enough of this, I really have. I want to be strong but again today I can't get past wanting you back. I want to be him.

I know what I am supposed to do but just can't bring myself to do it. Not yet.

[Nappyloxs]

luv you and miss you. y cant you just comeback by now?

[dandan78]

I hate knowing your routine. You always were a creature of habit. Maybe you could change it so I have no idea where you are gonna be?

Being 6 hours away doesn't stop me thinking about you but if this continues in the same vein then I am hopeful for MY future.

[JustOneSecond]

It's nice to see how desperate you've become. You've really lowered your standards. You may be moving on and want someone new, and that hurts me a lot, but you're not gona find someone that shares everything we did. And especially not someone that looks like me! You were right all along, I am a lot more attractive than you. HA. If you weren't lying when you said all those amazing things about how much you like everything about me, how I've got everything you could want, this really is your loss. If you were, you're an insincere p***k, good luck to the next sucker that comes your way.

[dandan78]

I told my niece we are longer boyfriend/girlfriend cos she wont stop going on about your daughter and how much she loves her and misses her. It really tugs on my heart when I hear her talk of you both so fondly.

She asked me why you had a new boyfriend? How do you tell a 4 year old what happened? How do you explain to a 4 year old that you didn't love me any more?

I now know the meaning of unconditional love and I see it every time I look in her eyes.

I still think of you, but I wonder how much of that is out of habit? I still think about us getting back together, but now wonder how much of that is pride and ego?

I do love you, regardless of your faults, because that's what love is. I do forgive you for your actions, but more importantly, I am forgiving myself for allowing it.

You know where I am

[leq]

Hey

 

Thinking of you, you gorgeous girl.

 

Your's always.

[Texasgirl87]

Its been one year since we broke up , its been 3 days since you left town i dont know where you move , i dont know if you are ok , i dont know if you ever think about me or if you even regret leaving my life the way you did.

 

What i do know is that its been a year and i havent stop loving you at all and in the last 3 days ive felt so lost and with the biggest urge to call you but i cant you wanted this you wanted to get out of my life .

 

I hope you are ok and i hope the day that you do think about me you find a way to contact me because most likely i will be thinking about you .

 

I love you and i am so so sorry for everything i did and everything i didnt do.

 

love always,

 

Me