painterchic

i am SO angry. It s been 6 weeks. NC started because he did his usual thing of just disappearing, and this time i didnt bug him didnt try and find him i just left him to it. Now he called me out of the blue-why did i answer??- saying he wants to see me. i wish he would just leave me alone to get on with my life. this guy is the love of life. and he knows it. in reality im his confidence booster. he said he would leave it to me to get in touch- ive deleted his number but i know he'll try getting in touch again. i just cant take it im stressed out cos im trying to get over it. what should i do im sick of crying over him. de ja vu over and over

i was just sat thinking that this nc has been so hard, i think id be better off not getting involved again evr ever ever! cos at some point ill prob have to do it all again on a new person. ooh its so hard ive felt dead sad today. im sad he never called me and im annoyed at myself for wanting him to. im also surprised at the amount of men throwing themselves at me recently. maybe its cos im an ice maiden and im so not INTERESTED LOSERS!!! have i gone crazy on no contact? im just happy doing my own thing, drinking beer, going out with my friends, thinking i fancy pete from bb, even finding myself not at all jealous about my friends and their boyfriends relationships (my bad self). so yeah no more men probs for me. good

Thanks babes! im smiling cos that boy gone and now my head is going back to normal yipppeee

i really am. Its been 5 weeks. Thats a long time and now i finally get it and the reason, even tho people have tried to explain to me. The guy stood me up again we had a great date planned. i had a new outfit, my hair done, i had cooked. u get the picture. the is the ongoing guy who disappears and reappears in my life all the time cos i let him. this time its different. who does he think he is- really? im worth ten trillion of him. these weeks have been great i hardly think of him and even when i do now it doesnt hurt. the distance works. hoorah for no contact..and for me cos ive been good this time. and its all 4 me not cos im putting on a frosty act 4 his benefit.

teacup! have we dated all the same men? the more i read your posts i think we are living paralell lives heehe. i did know a man once who shared his feelings but i never gave him affection, anything back and he worshipped the ground i walked on. have u read the book "The Rules"? There is one rule that states you should never let a man how u feel, even when u married!! never believed it but maybe there is something to it afterall... hmmmm

myspace is just full of internet hoes. dont measure yourself by that. i got a profile on there. i look like im having loads of fun when in reality im super duper boring just take some posey pics. u know they all sat at home all night taking pics of their exciting lives hehe.

teacup its good to know its not just me. i feel like running outside and screaming i am so frustated!- not a good idea tho im on a main road. barwench maybe the grass is always greener huh. lets swop lives for the day yey! i do have a drunken fumble on a promise for next week but one night stands make me feel yukky. maybe i should just get back into it...i been there b4 he is a total hottie.

Im greatful for loads of things i have but i never thought my life would be this crap. ha. After getting in oodles of debt at uni, and not finding a job related to my degree i have took a series of pointless unfulfilling jobs, i live with my parents, i am stressing about nc, tomorrow i am signing on (yuk i am gross), all my friends are getting married, getting mortgages, having babies i have not had sex for 4 weeks and when i last did it wasnt very entertaining and to top it all off i have developed a pot belly from being on the pill, and i was only on that for the past nc boy. what i want so much is 1. A job one that i love or actually like (i got an interview for nxt week i want this 1 so much). 2. My own flat/ sex shack where i can drag willing men back to and have meaningful sex for like min 4 hours at a time. 3. Some cash i swear i not got myself anything shiny or pretty for such a long time.. so in all i want money, sex and somewhere to use it. hmmmm. interesting thanks for listening

i totally agree. its not being sexist. i used to chase the men i wanted it never worked out. thing is if u chase something its gonna run away thats 4 sure. men get out ur inner cave man grrrrrr.

6 weeks-thats great. and he keeps turning up. maybe he has started to get what he has lost. What would you do if he said he wanted to get back together. Its hard to move on when he keeps showing up. oh wow does it comes accrosss that i dont like him. maybe im just writing in an aggressive way hehe. no matter what he has said or done 2 me i imagine that the boy will always have a place in my heart. thats the problem hence the nc.its been "casual" for far 2 long if he comes back reformed that would be ideal. but who knows if and when he does i might have moved on. That makes me sad to think that. Ah well time will tell x

From my experience when someone says its casual, personally i see it as they are already getting the goodies so why step up the commitment level. Thats so rude for him to say from the start its casual. Thats for you to be deciding too not just him who does he think he is lord and master?? This is whole reason i no longer see my boy. Because he is an As$. I have been full NC for 8 days. (wow am i in aa). Bet hes missing me so much doing all the stuff i do 4 him. Absense makes the heart grow fonder. My friends say they would be ok with it and i should have just took it for what it is. But why should we? He either with it or he not. Just remember girl, you are no side dish, you're the main course and he can pay 2. ha xxx

dont call him he knows your interested. if hes into you he'll call. Ulltimately you will never know if he was truly interested and wanted to pusue you or whether it was just easy cos u were so available.

hehe show me the way to the nearest lab pleassseeeee. failing that i can mix myself up a new man while im there! xx

just read this bit and it made me laugh. im with u sister!! where are all the cool decent funny hot men?? x anyway im saving myself for sawyer from lost. yum

be careful with this lady! I did the same thing thought i would show the ex what he was missing as i thought i was well over him and i did want some revenge. unfortunately it got a bit out of hand we ended up in bed and a whole new wave of obsession came over me. stop the flirting, stop it now and run away as fast as u can!!! start over with new boy. clean slates are brilliant!!