Bluesman89 Posted August 29, 2011 Share Posted August 29, 2011 I was in Spain with family for the last two and a half weeks. I was miserable, had nothing to do, and drank very frequently while there. One night I got very drunk (even though I dont recall drinking a whole lot). Well I got suicidal thoughts that night, which is not out of the norm for me. Anyway I was becoming increasingly angry and I started fantasizing about jumping off the roof of the apartment.. Eventually I left my room and headed up to the top of the building. I remember feeling very determined, but when I got to the door to the roof, it was locked.. So I basically just went down one floor and stared out a window letting my thoughts run wild for hours.. It was just relaxing.. Then eventually my father found me, and caught on quite fast what my intentions were. My parents were trying to get my to call a helpline right there or ring my therapist but I wouldn't have it.. I was pissed off and wanted to be left alone. I just wanted to vomit and sleep.. Will this happen again. Probably. It's not like anything is changing for me, or is going to. Link to comment
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