Seraphim Posted January 25, 2014 Author Share Posted January 25, 2014 The weather is really bad here so I'm not going to the event that I was supposed to go to this morning. It is pretty much white out conditions. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted January 25, 2014 Author Share Posted January 25, 2014 I woke up this morning and my fish is doing great again!!! Link to comment
Seraphim Posted January 25, 2014 Author Share Posted January 25, 2014 The snowdrifts are so high in my yard the neighbour's kids were able to walk over the fence. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted January 25, 2014 Author Share Posted January 25, 2014 As it stands I won't be able to get to see my brother by ourselves. He is bringing a friend with him. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted January 25, 2014 Author Share Posted January 25, 2014 link removed My husband digging a path from the front door. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted January 26, 2014 Author Share Posted January 26, 2014 The other day my son and I went out for lunch. I told him all the wonderful things there are about him. He is innately humble. He is totally lacking jealousy in any form. He is not greedy. And really in a lot of ways he is a parent's dream. He rarely talks back. He is respectful. He almost never gets into trouble. He does not believe in smoking ,drinking ,drugs and having sex. He does his schoolwork. Really he is an awesome kid. Link to comment
luminousone Posted January 26, 2014 Share Posted January 26, 2014 Wow- that's some crazy snow there!!! Link to comment
Seraphim Posted January 26, 2014 Author Share Posted January 26, 2014 Wow- that's some crazy snow there!!! Yeah it was crazy! The drifts are so high in my backyard that the neighbours' kids could walk over the fence into my yard. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted January 26, 2014 Author Share Posted January 26, 2014 It will be nice to see my brother I haven't seen him since Christmas. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted January 26, 2014 Author Share Posted January 26, 2014 I think it is the EDMR as to why I no longer have an emotional connection to any of that trauma. What EDMR does, is it allows the brain to sort memories into areas of the brain where they belong. It allows the brain to effectively put them in the past. What happens in PTSD is the brain is damaged in such a way that it cannot sort memories properly. And they get stored all over in different parts of the brain where they don't belong. And it keeps the memories and the emotions that those memories create in the present. EDMR will not take away the memories but it puts them in the brain in places where it has little to no effect on the present. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted January 26, 2014 Author Share Posted January 26, 2014 And now I have to actively think about trauma to think about it if that makes any sense to you. Before it just used to flood my mind all the time. And then the emotions would start. I think I have probably cried enough tears in my life to fill a small ocean. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted January 26, 2014 Author Share Posted January 26, 2014 My mom for the most part I would say 97% of the time is no longer defensive about the past. She has finally taken ownership of her mistakes. I saw her defensiveness about the past as trying to shift blame for my hurt and agony onto me. I don't know is that really a fair way to take her defensiveness? I think so. Defensiveness is blame shifting. So her taking ownership of her mistakes and me no longer being angry allows us to discuss the past without any resentment for each other. What a massive difference therapy has made to our relationship! Well ,my therapy and her being willing to look at things differently. The BOTH of us being willing to look at things differently. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted January 26, 2014 Author Share Posted January 26, 2014 Hmmmm neutrinos that make up dark matter. They are looking for them almost 2 KM under the surface of the earth in an underground lab. They are trying to prove the theory of dark matter. The Holy Grail of physics. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted January 26, 2014 Author Share Posted January 26, 2014 Teach and educate people to believe they have options, and that they are not hapless victims . Thank you mom for teaching me that. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted January 26, 2014 Author Share Posted January 26, 2014 [video=youtube_share;sBDEE3_Z-cw] ] Haha like me when I was younger. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted January 26, 2014 Author Share Posted January 26, 2014 I met up with my brother and his work friend. His friend was really nice. My brother was telling me he REALLY believes that his soon to be ex wife wants to kill him. He seriously believes it. She has now admitted to taking "medication" but won't tell him which one. I call BULL SHYTE on that and told him he has been taking drugs and I told him that from the beginning. I told him to get a retraining order and to DOCUMENT EVERYTHING and send it to a lawyer. DO EVERYTHING by text or email. And NEVER go back to his house if he fears for his life and tell the lawyer that. He also think she got fired already. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted January 26, 2014 Author Share Posted January 26, 2014 I have had a migraine every single day for weeks. It is seriously annoying the CRAP out of me. Link to comment
itsallgrand Posted January 26, 2014 Share Posted January 26, 2014 Awww I'm sorry to hear that!! Do you know what is triggering your migraines? And I hope you have found a medication that at least makes them managable. I haven't had one in years and years, but Istill remember the pain. I really hope they let up soon for you. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted January 27, 2014 Author Share Posted January 27, 2014 Awww I'm sorry to hear that!! Do you know what is triggering your migraines? And I hope you have found a medication that at least makes them managable. I haven't had one in years and years, but Istill remember the pain. I really hope they let up soon for you. I am not sure. I think it is a sinus issue, but ANYTHING really can cause me to get one. Stub my toe =migraine. Get angry=migraine. Get a cold=migraine. It is a constant for any change in my life. Ya know? And then it causes severe pain in my neck and in my shoulder blade. If I can get the knot out of my shoulder blade I can stop the migraine. No medication seems to work. Well, codeine sometimes. But that is how I became an opiate addict years ago. So I try to avoid it in most cases because it took me over 7 times to ditch opiates. I did it on my own. I think I put in my migraine thread ice cream works. There is a PLUS. Ice cream works by causing a brain freeze which interrupts the migraine cycle. After brain scans when I was young they told me they have no physical reason why they are there. So they determined it as idiopathic. But my mom and my son have migraines as well. I expect to have them for life because my mom is past menopause and she still has them. Link to comment
itsallgrand Posted January 27, 2014 Share Posted January 27, 2014 Pauvre chou. The only plus to all that is having a valid reason to eat ice cream. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted January 27, 2014 Author Share Posted January 27, 2014 Pauvre chou. The only plus to all that is having a valid reason to eat ice cream. Hahaha, yes I am a poor little cabbage. Well as literal translation. HAhaha true. They have known for a long time they are genetic. I just feel SO bad when my son gets one because I know I passed them onto him. I wish I could bare them for him. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted January 27, 2014 Author Share Posted January 27, 2014 My baby as a small boy. link removed Link to comment
itsallgrand Posted January 27, 2014 Share Posted January 27, 2014 So cute!! He must get complimented on his eyes all the time. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted January 27, 2014 Author Share Posted January 27, 2014 So cute!! He must get complimented on his eyes all the time. He does! He has mama's eyes. In fact he looks a lot like me. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted January 27, 2014 Author Share Posted January 27, 2014 What a friggin joke!!!!! The biatch has a pic on her Facebook that says Thank God it's Friday oh yeah I'm a mother. Like she even freaking knows what that means anymore. And her other post said ,"be kind." You don't even know what that means you hypocritical effin C... Link to comment
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