quirky Posted April 15, 2010 Share Posted April 15, 2010 Yes..I do. I don't know why I'm disheartened today. I don't meet anyone I reaaally like. I have only had foreign boyfriends (mostly British) and now I'm in my home country I don't fancy anyone. One is interesting but takes drugs, one is too sociable, one is too passive..I truly wonder..I feel a lot of pressure because of my age. I have a second date with someone tonight and I'm not as excited as I'd like. I keep thinking of my ex. I'm giving this guy a chance because he is very different to what I usually go for. I am trying to break old patterns. I don't know if it's him, the heartrending breakup I've recently gone through, my belief in love but I feel afraid to talk about deeper parts of me. I still think deep down I'm a mistake and anyone who gives me attention I should take it because I shouldn't be picky..what goes through my mind is "well you are a bit strange and you are 31 so better settle because most guys like more ordinary and young" I don't show all that, I'm only telling eNA about it. All my life people told me I was unique and genuine but I find it really hard to meet anyone here. I usully like shy guys. I'm bubbly and I'm scared of intimidating them so I hope they make a move on their own. Maybe I should move back to the UK. Ugh..I hate losing my faith. Anyone feel the same? Tips, ideas? Link to comment
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