FitChik123 Posted December 20, 2015 Share Posted December 20, 2015 I hate you. I miss you with every passing second. I don't understand how you could be in my bed on Saturday, and moved in with her on Sunday. And now the two of you are a full fledged couple, planning a future. Who are you? Where did you go? Its easier for me to convince myself you died. I'm sorry I'm so crazy. I know my words mean nothing to you anymore. I'm spiraling out of control and I looking for something to grab hold of. You are gone. Not just physically anymore...but you are gone. I love you. Link to comment
alc16 Posted December 20, 2015 Share Posted December 20, 2015 I feel so teamed up on in my own home... Your out of the blue text today about how I hurt your feelings assuming you were with a woman last night, and how much you cared about me effected me more then previously "I love you" comments. You have said more nice things to me since I broke up with you then you said in 3 years.. I feel like a complete for saying it but it feels great to have you hurting. You played my feelings for so long, made me question my self worth.. I am truly going to miss you, but this is the best thing for both of us. Link to comment
jaded123 Posted December 20, 2015 Share Posted December 20, 2015 A: It has been a while but a couple of things on my mind today: - I miss you very much and will always love you. I never left you. - There is nothing to forgive, you did nothing wrong, you followed your path to happiness. - But, having done that, it is far far too late for us to ever be together again. That will never happen even if we were the last two humans alive in the universe. Not that you would want to either, but am just coming at it from my perspective. - You should stop sending me your once-a-year happy birthday texts. I do like (and even expect) to get those wishes; however it keeps a faint connection alive and that is not fair to me anymore. You should delete my number, photos, any connection at your end, since it was you who moved on. - I remember all our moments. I could have been a better person for you. I wish I had been. -H Link to comment
ForgetYourEvil Posted December 20, 2015 Share Posted December 20, 2015 A: It has been a while but a couple of things on my mind today: - I miss you very much and will always love you. I never left you. - There is nothing to forgive, you did nothing wrong, you followed your path to happiness. - But, having done that, it is far far too late for us to ever be together again. That will never happen even if we were the last two humans alive in the universe. Not that you would want to either, but am just coming at it from my perspective. - You should stop sending me your once-a-year happy birthday texts. I do like (and even expect) to get those wishes; however it keeps a faint connection alive and that is not fair to me anymore. You should delete my number, photos, any connection at your end, since it was you who moved on. - I remember all our moments. I could have been a better person for you. I wish I had been. -H This is an awesome perspective. Is it your birthday today? Link to comment
Joanne1985 Posted December 20, 2015 Share Posted December 20, 2015 I'm sorry. I never meant for this. But know one thing it will always hurt me more. I wish you'd loved me more. Link to comment
Joanne1985 Posted December 20, 2015 Share Posted December 20, 2015 You'll be happier without me Link to comment
Joanne1985 Posted December 20, 2015 Share Posted December 20, 2015 You just text me and I ended the conversation I felt like I didn't want to talk to you. You've done that not me Link to comment
Joanne1985 Posted December 21, 2015 Share Posted December 21, 2015 Your probably talking to someone else anyway Link to comment
DeadInSid3 Posted December 21, 2015 Share Posted December 21, 2015 Hi my angel You know what, I have been thinking of you today, i have been thinking of us today. You know what i have been thinking? I was thinking that this is not where i belong. I belong there in our house next to you. You do not belong in that house alone. You are not supposed to be there alone. I belong there next to you, keeping you company, keeping you safe. I want to come home again to my loving fiance waiting for me. I want to come home again just so that i can kiss and hug you like i always did after a long day at work. I want to make you smile that smile that you only showed to me. I want to hold you again as you slowly fell asleep. I want to wake up next to you again and the first thing i do is kiss you good morning. I want to get up on a Sunday and make you bacon and eggs like i always did. But most of all I really, really want to hear your kind soft voice again saying you love me, saying that i am still your bear. I miss you and with tears in my eyes i am writing this so that strangers can read it, so that i can get it off my chest. Hoping that one day i might be able to experience this once again. Link to comment
Joanne1985 Posted December 21, 2015 Share Posted December 21, 2015 I can't change it and you was meant to fight. In the end I guess I did love you more I feel so upset and your fine. Why? It's too late now why didn't you fight Link to comment
ForgetYourEvil Posted December 21, 2015 Share Posted December 21, 2015 Day 24. Second round of NC. Killing me. Hope you're enjoying this Christmas week. Despite the hurt, I will always love you. Link to comment
Annia Posted December 21, 2015 Share Posted December 21, 2015 I miss you... or is it just the idea I created of you? Link to comment
Joanne1985 Posted December 21, 2015 Share Posted December 21, 2015 If you wanted to be with me you would be and by keep texting your making it harder for me to move on like you have. Don't text anymore and you don't need to reply Link to comment
ForgetYourEvil Posted December 21, 2015 Share Posted December 21, 2015 I miss you... or is it just the idea I created of you? "I just made you up.. to hurt.. myself..... and it worked.. YES IT DID! THERE IS NO YOU, THERE IS ONLY ME. THERE IS NO YOU, THERE IS ONLY ME. THERE IS NO FU-KING YOU! THERE IS ONLY ME. THERE IS NO FU-KING YOU! THERE IS ONLY ME. ONLY... Only.... only... only...." - Trent Reznor (NIN), Only Link to comment
Joanne1985 Posted December 21, 2015 Share Posted December 21, 2015 I hope it hurts you one day Link to comment
stalumfi Posted December 22, 2015 Share Posted December 22, 2015 I'm realising what this is about now - there is an issue involving a man and I switch into irrational anxiety and feeling that I need to placate and to fix. In fact, I just need to take a step back. He was interested, but I wasn't comfortable until I knew more about what kind of person he was. That's allowed. I didn't have to rush into anything just because time was short and others expected it. I will take this as it comes and as I am comfortable in doing. This is like when I first came to this site, and yet not like it, because I'm a small bit wiser now, and I know it's going to be fine. Link to comment
ForgetYourEvil Posted December 22, 2015 Share Posted December 22, 2015 Boom. Got my down payment all set. Buying a house in the next few months. You're missing out on an awesome life with me. I will keep moving forward, baby! Link to comment
sunshine34 Posted December 23, 2015 Share Posted December 23, 2015 you've left m where. here in this land of broken promises and mistakes. to pick up my mess and forget you. to forget the promises of forever and "love". maybe you never loved me the same and I am disposable, i just wish you would remember, remember me for th egood instead of harboring abate and resentment, YOu showed me so many things i had not felt and lifted my heart now you are a memory because you chose hate. Link to comment
Joanne1985 Posted December 23, 2015 Share Posted December 23, 2015 Woke up feeling a little sick. I miss having you to talk to. I took it for granted. I really did love you, I wish I could go back Link to comment
ForgetYourEvil Posted December 23, 2015 Share Posted December 23, 2015 Look at me, working late. On my laptop at home. Kicking a-- at my job. Loving my life. Crushed it at the gym. I'm looking the best I ever have. You're missing out on all of this.. but that's okay. Because life keeps on going on for me. Link to comment
DeadInSid3 Posted December 23, 2015 Share Posted December 23, 2015 Well back to day 1 of nc, I was weak, you were quick to respond. Funny though I did not see any bread crumbs at all, I noticed the negative aspects of our conversation. Its funny how I could see only negative aspects when actually there wasn't any to begin with. But that's just it, I have conditioned myself to see no bread crumbs. I really do want you back in my life, some days I want to fight for it, other days i just want to disappear, but one thing remains constant, my love I still have for you. My angel, I still miss you, I am still longing for you. I know there are some feelings left for me, But not enough for you to want to come back to me. But i have learned a lot this past few months, I have learned how to be a better man, I just wish I got the chance to show you. Like you said within the first week, I started to show you the perfect man inside. Well I continued working on him, unfortunately I destroyed that image you had with me breaking down for the first couple of months. But he is still here, waiting for a chance to one day show you. I hope one day i can be with you again rather than replace you, but time will tell. I am sorry for my mistakes, I should have known better, and got help earlier, I should have got out of the toxic place i was in much sooner. Link to comment
alc16 Posted December 23, 2015 Share Posted December 23, 2015 Got to work this morning and realized we haven't spoken in over 24 hours.. It feels good. I used to miss you when we hadn't talked throughout the workday, now I'm not really effected. Link to comment
Joanne1985 Posted December 23, 2015 Share Posted December 23, 2015 I miss you and wish you felt the same. I also know we will never be the same now Link to comment
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