Well back to day 1 of nc, I was weak, you were quick to respond. Funny though I did not see any bread crumbs at all, I noticed the negative aspects of our conversation. Its funny how I could see only negative aspects when actually there wasn't any to begin with. But that's just it, I have conditioned myself to see no bread crumbs. I really do want you back in my life, some days I want to fight for it, other days i just want to disappear, but one thing remains constant, my love I still have for you. My angel, I still miss you, I am still longing for you. I know there are some feelings left for me, But not enough for you to want to come back to me. But i have learned a lot this past few months, I have learned how to be a better man, I just wish I got the chance to show you. Like you said within the first week, I started to show you the perfect man inside. Well I continued working on him, unfortunately I destroyed that image you had with me breaking down for the first couple of months. But he is still here, waiting for a chance to one day show you. I hope one day i can be with you again rather than replace you, but time will tell. I am sorry for my mistakes, I should have known better, and got help earlier, I should have got out of the toxic place i was in much sooner.