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[WomanWriter]

I'm not surprised...I didn't have an expectation, so I'm not too disappointed. A little sad that I didn't get to see you, but I'm used to you not being around and am still enjoying seeing

other friends at church. You told me you would come early today to have dinner. You didn't show. Pastor said you didn't lie, just are incapable of following through. I know you probably relied on your sis for a ride and she said no at the last minute. I wish you would have found a way there and planned earlier or contacted someone to let them know. But, for all I know, you may have been with your gf or talking to her. It's sad, really sad. Pastor said to keep encouraging you and that he's sure you have feelings for me, just don't think down on you. I see that your gf relationship status is still "It's complicated" as opposed to single. I'm expecting it to turn back into "In a relationship" any day now. It doesn't hurt me so much anymore when I look because I have no expectations anymore. Since you told me you still have feelings for me and want to be with me but haven't acted on it, that has kinda helped me move on a little. It's irnonic. The closer I feel I am to getting back together with you, the less surprised and disappointed I feel when you let me down. Isn't that weird? I know how you operate and nothing you do surprises me. You say a lot and don't follow up on it. You really are messed up. I don't believe you are lying, just really unsure about what you want. You just react to everything as it comes up, don't plan ahead and think about things. I do think you probably feel bad for missing tonight and are probably afraid to face me because you remember how I got when you let me down before. But I'm not even going to mention it next time I see you. I won't be mean. I'll be friendly as I am to everyone else at church. But I'm not going to say anything more about my feelings until you bring it up. You know how I feel and the rest is up to you. I don't know what else you need spelled out. If you really care, you don't show it in actions. You really don't care if we get back together or not, I guess. I'm sure you care for me as a person, but I'm not worth the effort. No one is, after the honeymoon stage. Not even your gf.

 

So thanks for givig me the incentive to move on. I'm still here if I'm here, but I'm done making the moves. I would love for you to surrender to God, like you claimed to want to do so badly, but I'm not holding my breath. I'd love for you to sort things out together, but I'm not waiting for it either. If I meet someone else, I will go for it. But I'm not forcing myself because I honestly don't have an interest in dating anyone else. I simply have no desire to be in a relationship or get married unless it's with you. I've never felt like that before. I rather be alone.

 

So I'll see ya around, I guess.

[OneBrightStar]

Your reply to my e-mail was so condescending and not from the man I fell in love with two years ago. I realized I've been mourning the loss of that man to the thing that has taken over you the past year. That "thing"? Objectivism. I understand why you like it, but I wish you didn't let it take over like it has.

 

The man I fell in love with was amazing ... the man who ended things with me in June wasn't the same one.

 

Goodbye, C. I'm giving up on "us" and focusing more on "me". It's a longtime coming.

 

I don't wish you any ill will tonight; just wish you thought we were worth fighting for.

 

I may never stop loving you, but I need to move on. You'll always be in my heart, you'll always be a part of me. Tell that man from two years ago thank you for what he contributed to my life, and tell the man now that I hope he finds what he's looking for in life, though I know he won't find it.

 

Goodbye, Chris.

[bebs87]

I said I won't contact you.. But evening came, I turned so week again... I can sense you are starting to be colder to me now... Probably annoyed by me? Godddd.... I still hurting... I should be seeing you tomorrow, but I no longer have the position to.. I want to go to your university, just go to the place I said "yes" to you... I'm suffering from pain, i just now want more pain till illne done and no longer want it... Please remember me as the fun loving girl, not the drama queen I'm acting right now... I love you still... Good luck I hope you find what you want.

[blueeyedme]

I hate that I still think of you...

[Summer12]

I'm tired of still being hurt by you. Its been 4 months. Please just get out of my head. It's funny how you're not doing anything with yourself still. Maybe you and her are perfect for each other because she doesn't seem to be doing much with herself either. You really are stupid. Wow I can't believe I dated YOU. Pffft have I learned my lesson. I'm going to finish up my degrees, grow as a person, and eventually become the person I want to be and live the life I've always wanted.

 

God, please just lead me. I will follow.

[bebs87]

So that's it I guess... I gave my final words, but you still want me around... I hope you find what you want... Yeah yeah you said you will never forget me and I am amazing, no one out there is like me. But maybe you are just trying to make me feel good or easing out your guilt... I want to know the "real" reason, but I'll leave it like this cause I want to have a good memory of my first relationship, I'll believe that that's really the reason. I'm still hurting, you are perfect, I don't know if there are guys like you out there. You were a good catch... I hope to bump into you in the future... Maybe we could try it again.

 

I love you... With all my heart

 

I woke up at 6 am.. I've been waking up early since the break up, I don't know why, it kills me to realize it's not a dream... It's reality. What went wrong? What went wrong?

 

I guess for now, I'll focus on the only thing left to me, just too bad I don't have you to support and cheer me anymore. I'm all by myself again.

 

Thanks for the memories.

 

I miss you... So bad! Ya ochen tebya lublu!

[iBroken]

I dreamt of you last night.

 

We were catching up. You were talking about a group of 5 guys. Some names I remembered, but there were a couple who I didnt know. I asked which one of them was your B/F. You asked me if I really want to know? Should I be doing this to myself? I looked away and said No, youre right. I dont want to know.

 

Then you told me they were ALL your B/F. Skank! LOL. You all have casual sex with one another? It was some kind of "Break up" club. Clearly you are a skank in both dimensions - reality and dreamworld LOL.....

 

Anyways, then we were looking for parts to fix our toilet, and a washer so that we could put our patio umbrella up. I told you I would handle it on my own to prove to you that Im capable. And so I went to get the stuff we needed. You followed me and took over and got the things we needed.

 

You, do you see what you have done to me? I am so filled with self doubt that it is now trickling into my dreams.

 

Why did you ever come back only to hurt me time and time again.

 

I dont think im ever going to be capable of loving someone. Its easier to guard my heart and be alone then to be left behind and suffer this pain, anguish and doubt.

[SA2000]

Hey ex. I kind of wanted to call you yesterday but not really. Ill see you tomorrow per your request. If you cancel or show up all tired again I will be mighty upset. But you'll never know that. But just to let you know, the amount of time you spend dancing around in my head lessens every day.

[dreamz]

Hi ex,

 

I have been unable to sleep well. I see you in my dreams every night, I cant remember the dreams, but I remember u being there. Its been only 1 week since we broke up, which isnt much considering we were together for 2 years.

 

I feel sad for us at times, but I have no regrets about breaking up with you. No matter whether you accept this or not, this relationship wasnt gonna work. You didnt even realize that something was not right, that it was bad enough to break up.

You still blame "other things" for what happened. You deny the fact that we havnt been getting along since the past 9-10 months.

 

I want to forgive you, but I am reminded of all the times you messed up, all the times you just did what you wanted, you just acted the way you felt was right. Sure, we had good times and we helped each other through tough times. But I cant spend my life with you, scared...about the next tantrum, cold war or silent treatment.

 

I miss you...but I need to be alone.

[undertheover]

I wish I knew what you were thinking. I wish I knew if you missed me. You once told me I was the best boyfriend you'd ever had and the love of your life. I wish that would've remained true. I just want you to come back. I want to spend time with you. I want it to be like it was in the beginning. I always knew we would break up. I never thought it would be like this though. You were the only good thing I ever had. The only thing that's ever meant anything to me.

[undertheover]

Also, no one gave a * * * * about you for a year and suddenly you move back into town and start hanging out with your ex best friend and around new people, you walk right out on me like I was nothing. I was there for you when no one else was. I should have left you when you first start hitting me. You broke me down so much to the point where it was hard to even show love towards you. I regret it, but thinking back I would probably act the same now even after the break up if things were the same. Maybe we shouldn't be together. Maybe what you've done is what I should have. You were the best thing that had ever happened to me. You came into my life when I was miserable, picked me up, made me like like I meant something. Now you've brought me down even worse to where I was to begin with. I wish I would've never met you, never opened up. I don't know what to feel anymore.

[Nappyloxs]

You are right this is for the best of both of us. You were miserable in the relationship and now you are free and happy. I am actually happy for you.

 

I am actually doing very well. I realize now that we weren't meant to be for so many reasons.

 

I am not going to go through them all, but basically you never understood or appreciated how much I truly did love you. You were everything to me and I would have been happy for the rest of my life with you. But you wanted more and more and more than I could give. You didn't want to be patient. You didn't want to believe, trust, have faith, or support me in my dreams and goals. Funny thing is, I was cool with it and still would have given you all the rewards from it.

 

What has really proved to me we weren't meant for each other is how you have just cut me out of your life. No missing me. I read stories on here all the time about exes trying to initiate contact or of woman who still love their ex. Not you, just straight up cold and shut the door. I would expect (or want neither which I ask for often) a woman who truly does love me to miss me even if we broke up. I know we have broken up and made up many times, but still after the 2nd year you pulled this crap and now again this 3rd year. It is best that we don't communicate, but still it shows me how little love you had for me.

[bebs87]

Spasibo, ya ochen tebya lublu, Ilya.

 

I feel better now, I've accepted it and talked to my family... you dont need to check on me anymore cause they will take care of me now. We will both be fine and be successful in life. I know it. You may not be my boyfriend anymore, but you'll always be my bestfriend.

 

You are right, this is better for both of us right now.

 

My love for you just cannot be thrown away though, so I'll say this: Ya ochen ochen ochen tebya lublu. It might get lesser, but i will always love you as a person.

 

I'm here for you, but I'll be needing time for me self now...

 

Farewell my lover, my boyfriend, my everything...

 

Hello, my bestfriend... it has been a while.

[Yostina]

I wish I could read your mind.

 

All I hope is you missing me right now, just like I do.

 

Please, miss me. It would hurt me like hell if you forget me so easily when I even can't stop thinking about you.

 

I love you baby. Please come back to me.

[ArtistGuy70]

Hey C. Having a good day without you. Had a good night last night without you. You really lost out on a great guy. A guy that could have given you the picket fence, the family and baby you wanted. But you were scared. You refused to get therapy. You refused to get help. And now you screwed up. There is no going back. Good luck with that dream of yours. Hate to tell ya, but it ain't happening.

[Starrgrl]

Please don't forget about me. You could fake alot, but tell me that look u gave me was real .. please =(

[LizzieD]

M,

 

The good thing about Long Distance Relationship, it's not like we're going to see each other again

 

It's not like you can see me again, it's not like you can hear my laughter again and it's not like you can touch me again.

 

It's a good thing that this didn't continue for much longer. Someday, the pain will go away too.

[hidden_kitten]

I tried being friends too early. I should never have messaged you. I should never have got myself into this mess in the first place. Wish there was some mandatory course about relationships that everyone should go on so I knew how to treat you right. No wonder you'd rather be with her now. Ugh ugh ugh I hate this.

[woodc5]

Every once in a while I have these days where I feel lonelier than hell without you. I still miss you a lot.

 

"When you're dreaming with a broken heart, giving up is the hardest part"

 

ffs, its been 8 months and it still hurts..

[woodc5]

Double post. Phone troubles.

[Yostina]

I'm really tired... I need you more than ever... Can we let go of everything and pretend just for one night that everything is okay?

 

Please, I desperately want to be in your arms again...

 

Oh lord! Help me please. =(

[WomanWriter]

Your window of opportunity is closed. No more will you be able to take me for a ride while you got the rebound there as your security blanket. Not that she is secure, because you guys have been on the rocks since the beginning, but at least she doesn't demand much from you. I know why you normally date women who live hours away---so you can say you're in a relationship but don't actually have to put in the effort or develop true intimacy. You don't have a phone and apparently haven't been online, so the only time you see her is at your weekend job for a couple hours. Must be lonely the rest of the week with no one to talk to or spend time with. But I guess you have your fantasies and your porn addiction.

 

I realize now that you are terrified of me. I know the real you and that scares you! I was in your life in a major way and I think you got scared of the pressure. You said that I was the one who had one foot out the door, but I see that it was both of us. You have major, major issues with commitment--to your job, your friends, to completing anything, to keeping your word. You're a contractor because you don't like being told what to do. You are sensitive to rejection. You hate admitting you are wrong. You're just all around fearful of messing up and being evaluated. Knowing what I expect from you, you want to run for the hills. I think you do miss me and want to be with me, but know it will require effort and you fear that. You don't want to put in the effort and don't want to admit responsibility for anything.

 

That's really sad. Is it so hard to keep your word? All I wanted was honesty. If you didn't want to have dinner on Wed. night, you could have said so and I would have accepted it, but you had to bring it up. Why bother? Why intentionally lead me on and say you want to get back together and then waver? Just say yes or no. You want me but without the effort. If it's going to require giving something of yourself, you don't want it.

 

I was right not to trust you. Trust must be earned. How could you accuse me of not being there for you when you have not been there for me all along.

 

Goodbye.

[bebs87]

Hey, how are you? I hope you are ok.. I still cry like crazy but I 'm better now, I spent the whole day/night out with friends... We ate at hooters, guess what?? I didn't use fork or knife! Remember the first time we ate together? It was at hooters! Then the last time we were together before you broke up with me, it was at hooters!! you took my habit of using fork to eat chicken... Agh... Memories... Erika, our common friend who introduced us to each other, I told her today that we are not together anymore, she tried to call you but you were not picking up... You were probably in a soccer game. Today is the first day we didn't talk at all since the break up... I miss you... I hope you are doing ok.

[Yostina]

I miss you... I still want you...

 

I hope this time alone is showing you how much you love me and just want to be with me again...

 

I hope this time alone melts your heart to take me back when I come to you...

'Cause if not, my little hope will die forever this time...

 

I'll never know when will I stop bleeding your love... And when will it heal...

 

I'm hurting here without you, but I'm better now because I finally got a hold of myself and my emotions...

 

What hurts me the most is the thought of not feeling your arms around me again...

When I'm desperate to your touch...

 

Take away my pain... Never let go of me my love...

[ArtistGuy70]

I look at the last 5 years and am confused. You lied to me about your boss. Who he was. Who you were. Even if you were faithful to me during our relationship, you kept your past with him a secret. This was a man who you worked for. His assistant. He came over to your place (you actually told me) a few times to fix something at your house. I trusted you. Who knows what happened? I never will. You say he is a friend you love; someone you could always lean on and go to years before I came along. Someone who you ran to after we broke up. That rich bastard who buys you whatever you want. Takes you away to a resort. A married man. Someone you do not have to worry about investing real emotions in. Someone who can make you forget about everything. You just use. You used me for years to satisfy your needs. Now you use him for your other needs. Who knows what was the truth and what was a lie these last five years? You are not worth my time or energy anymore. Go get help and leave me alone nutjob.