Shelby...as we know it.

[dangletsbang]

Ugh, i'm so lame..

 

I guess i'll just get him a Visa giftcard in a box with some candy..

 

oh well, better than nothing! I wish I was creative..or rich..

[Jd1983]

It doesn't matter. It's the thoughts that counts!

[dangletsbang]

Yeah, I know..I just wish I could think of something more thoughtful than a gift card! It's for a chinese-ish christmas type thing..we had to draw names and I got my boyfriend's sister's boyfriend! I also have to be careful on spending money since i'm buying my boyfriend an Xbox 360 while i'm trying to save money.

 

I'll look around at Target and see if I find something better..

 

I need cheap Christmas gift ideas.

[Jd1983]

Why not ask your bf's sister if they have a photo that she likes with the two of them?

 

You can get personalized cheap gifts -

 

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It's cute and thoughtful.

[renaissancewoman101]

make some baked goods.

 

I always loved baked goods as gifts

[dangletsbang]

renn, I'm actually gonna do some cookies for the doctors I work for! I'm buying cheap christmassy themed boxes/platters to serve them on..it's cheap and they'll be appreciated.

 

alrighty, i'm out..have a great weekend you guys!

[vertigoxo]

I just realized that your baby's zodiac sign will be a Cancer. Generally very sweet, sensitive people... How nice.

[dangletsbang]

To be honest, I don't even know why I still continue to work here..well, I know..but I just wish I could leave. Good pay..and good benefits so I can deliver my baby and not have to be put on medicaid..that's why I stay here.

 

I hate the hours..I hate the fact that my sister is my boss..I hate these arrogant money hungry doctors..I hate the fact that they're always late..I hate 75% of my patients..if they're not horribly rude..they're horribly idiotic and show up 1 hour early for an appointment which crowds our waiting room even more..and if they're not idiots or rude..they're straight up county trash that don't know how to take showers and live off the government..

 

I'm in the wrong environment and it's rubbing a raw nerve.

[dangletsbang]

and when she died, I should've cried..and spared myself some pain.

 

It's heroin really that awesome..? Awesome enough to overdose on..even? Apparently. You had your whole life ahead of you..and now it's all beneath you..19 years old is so young..and your mother found you face down on your bed. God have mercy on your soul..your poor tortured soul.

[Scorpion Fury]

and when she died, I should've cried..and spared myself some pain.

 

It's heroin really that awesome..? Awesome enough to overdose on..even? Apparently. You had your whole life ahead of you..and now it's all beneath you..19 years old is so young..and your mother found you face down on your bed. God have mercy on your soul..your poor tortured soul.

 

Sorry hun. Was this your friend?

[dangletsbang]

Yeah..but for some reason I just don't feel that sad..it's sad because she was so young..but she brought it on herself.

 

Her best friend told her he wanted to quit doing heroin..and she didn't..so while she was upset she went on this binge and her mom found her face down in her bed with blood coming out of every orfice on her head..it's really sad..really.

[Scorpion Fury]

Yeah..but for some reason I just don't feel that sad..it's sad because she was so young..but she brought it on herself.

 

Her best friend told her he wanted to quit doing heroin..and she didn't..so while she was upset she went on this binge and her mom found her face down in her bed with blood coming out of every orfice on her head..it's really sad..really.

 

I feel really bad for her mother. No mom wants to find their child like that. I can't even imagine how her mom feels right now.

[dangletsbang]

I feel really bad for her mother. No mom wants to find their child like that. I can't even imagine how her mom feels right now.

 

I know..and I feel bad but I can't help but sort of resent her..almost..it was so selfish. I guess addiction does that to you.

[dangletsbang]

Quit showing up an hour early for your appointment..even 30 minutes early pisses me off..you're just going to sit that much longer, you're not getting back here any sooner..idiots.

[dangletsbang]

I think some people are so ridiculously dramatic it's hilarious.

 

Please..you can only wallow in your self pity for so long, soon enough you'll drown in it.

 

I just don't understand how some people can be so unhappy. I used to be depressed, suicidal and frantic at the thought of being alone..I was so..dreary and looking back..there was no point in it. I don't know how I healed myself..I just snapped out of it. I wasted 3 years of my life that I could've been living..insteading of taking daily baths in self pity..really, it's pathetic.

 

anyway;;

 

I'm 9 weeks today..morning sickness is still at it but i'm pretty much used to it now, so it doesn't bother me like it did when it first started. Trey's sister is 14 weeks, 5 weeks ahead of me..she hasn't had a touch of nausea at all, which is so frustrating! They say it's so common but out of all the people i've talked to..only 3 or 4 people have had it. I miss tanning, I wish I could tan..it makes me happy and confident..I just can't stand being so pale, I feel like a vampire.

 

p.s. have I mentioned that I love the ignore feature?

[dangletsbang]

If you're threatening to jump..

 

why don't you just jump? I'm sick of people saying what they're going to do and not following through.

 

cowards.

[dangletsbang]

I've worked so much overtime this week..and while I don't really like doing it..i'm going to be so thankful when my check comes in.

 

Tomorrow is pay day and I have to finish up my Christmas shopping..

 

Shopping List;;

 

Trey - Xbox 360, one more game and maybe a few accesories for it and Texas hat..

 

Tyler - giftcard to Lids @ the mall.

 

Ashley - straightener @ Target.

 

Nanny - pajamas from Kohls.

 

Mom - ..? Uhh. I'm still at a loss..hmm..

 

Trey's parents - something for their house, Idk for sure yet.

[dangletsbang]

_!_* you, you passive aggressive twit.

 

One day I will tell my sister how I really feel..and it won't be pretty.

[dangletsbang]

I'm so ready for my appointment next Monday..

 

and Christmas..

 

and the weekend.

 

I had strange dreams last night..really strange. *shudder*

 

and I soooo don't wanna do clinic today with Dr. K...blahh.

[dangletsbang]

i'm starvin' like marvin' girllllllllll..

 

i got sixteen balls of fireeeeeeee..

 

cuz my rats come in packs like sammy and dean martin and i got so many keys it's like i'm valet parkinnnnn'.

 

okay, i'm done.

[metrogirl]

i'm starvin' like marvin' girllllllllll..

 

i got sixteen balls of fireeeeeeee..

 

cuz my rats come in packs like sammy and dean martin and i got so many keys it's like i'm valet parkinnnnn'.

 

okay, i'm done.

 

 

 

haha Okay Busta Rhymes. I know he doesn't sing that, I just call everyone that when they start rappin and rhymin'

 

Oh nevermind

[dangletsbang]

lmfao, met..it's cool..i'm completely understand.

 

I swear that song came out years ago and every once in a while it just gets stuck in my head..

[dangletsbang]

refreshing conversation with the ex, it's just a shame that he's getting involved with that nasty skank.

[Scorpion Fury]

lmfao, met..it's cool..i'm completely understand.

 

I swear that song came out years ago and every once in a while it just gets stuck in my head..

 

are you serious? that song gets stuck in my head every time i am hungry. then i want to dance. i am starting to associate hunger with dancing.

[dangletsbang]

is it illegal for me to beat someone with their own walker?