beeter64 Posted September 5, 2008 Share Posted September 5, 2008 I read this forum more than I write on it. It's a confort to know I'm not the only one that has gone through relationship hell. Of course, there are some days when it depresses me knowing how many of us continue to suffer at the hands of selfish, narcissistic people. Anyway, I've written my story many times in the past. I met my ex-fiance 10 years ago and dated him for five years. Finally, we were engaged. That lasted 8 months until he told me he had feelings for a married co-worker who kissed him at an event and said she also had feelings for him. Lookng back,they were probably having sex at the time. I was so naive! I told him, although I was crushed, he was free to go. Lucky me, he wanted to go to counseling and work it out. We did the counseling( individual and couples) for 6 months (couldn't afford to go further). Four years later, I ended the relationship because of his distance and inability to ever move the relationship forward. I gave him the ring when I broke off the engagement and in four years there was never any mention of it or marriage again. Ironic, since he proposed to me and was very excited about our plans at the time. Fast forward, a year after the breakup, I see a picture of him on the internet at a Fundraiser with the married co-worker. Turns out, she is now divorced and they live about 15 mintes from me. All of this has occurred over an 8 year period. I've been away from him for two years and he's still causing me pain. I'm so angry that I gave him another chance to break my heart. I'm left thinking now that the affair never ended. He just strung me along as a safety net until her marriage (which was clearly in trouble) finally ended. Why would someone do that? Furthermore, how do you ever get rid of the hatred you feel for this person who you once loved so dearly? Will I ever stop hurting? Anyway, for those of you who are thinking of taking back a cheater...really think hard. I wish I would have gave it more thought. If I had, I wouldn't feel like a fool who is now all alone while those two are living in bliss. So much for bad karma! It seems all the bad karma from their actions came to me. It's hard to believe after all the time that has passed, I could still feel so much pain. It's not constant but every once in a while when my mind wonders, it feels like yesterday. I just had to vent since I'm really feeling low today. Thanks for listening. Link to comment
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