BronzedSkin123 Posted July 26, 2008 Share Posted July 26, 2008 I am darkskin black woman with a father who seems to find lightskin women attractive. I've always noticed this as a kid. Everytime a light woman with long hair passes by he would spark up a conversation about her and say "I wonder if she is mixed". And he never found the few darkskin women on television attractive, he'd always refer to them as being "not that pretty". He even thought my darkskin friends were ugly, and would seem to have nicer things to say about my lightskin friends. Once he told me that he "settled" for my mother even tho she was dark, he said that she cared about him while all the lightskin women were harder to get. (My dad's last two wives were lightskin) Recently, while my dad was taking me to work he saw a car full of young lightskin girls that weren't even all that pretty and remarked that my brothers like girls like that. It really just ruins my self esteem and makes me feel bad about my darkskin. Not only my dad despises darkskin but so do my brothers who I don't even talk to or respect anymore. When I got to work I started crying. I always tried to have good self esteem despte being dark but right now I have none. With all the images of lightskin women on television being toted as the most beautiful and hearing recent disparging remarks about darkskin women by famous rappers I have no self confidence. Sometimes when a man is attracted to me I wonder why. Sometimes I want to ask him why does he even want to talk to me, I am not lightskin. And I want to ask him if he is just approaching me because lighter women rejected him. I don't like how people are always asking me if I am from Africa because of my darkskin and features...the first time someone asked me that in high school I was offended. And it annoys me even more when other black people ask me that, it's as if they aren't used to seeing darkskin people with unmixed features or something. Like if you don't have any visible admixtures then you must be different from black americans and from africa.I just resent how I look so much right now. Link to comment
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