Me and my boyfriend have been going out for 8 monthes. I am 17 and he is 20. I love him very much but when we fight it can get really bad. He has just left a couple times and not said where he was going. It totally hurt me. I also have a problem with trusting him, he has never cheated on me and says he never will but I worry so much because I have been cheated on in the past. Last week we got in a stupid little argument and I got upset and told him to leave. He left and he was planning on ignoring me but I ended up seeing him the next day. So we hung out and he said he needed space or whatever. But at the time I could not go through that because I had some personal problems going on. So we kept hanging out. Then a couple days later he told me that it wasn't working and that we should break up. The problem is whenever he says we should break up he doesn't truly mean it. He says it hoping things will get better. Like if I were to agree and say lets break up, he would cry and say no. So it's been a few days since this has happened and everything has been great and better. But every morning I wake up I feel sooo depressed. All day I constantly think of him and worry that when I get home he won't call me, or won't be there. All this that has happened recently has totally destroyed me. When I am not around him I worry I won't see him again. But when I'm with him were totally happy. I am soo scared to break up with him. It's become a huge fear. If we broke up I would just die because I would feel so lost. I don't know how to get over this fear of losing him. We both want to be with each other forever, but I constantly think of the day when we will break up and its the last thing I want. What can I do? Any suggestions.