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  1. sandyv
    Melis: They act like they don't care and they are cold... bc they feel guilty, they don't know what else to do.... I also *even though I broke up with ex 4 mths ago* have kept some contact.... so I need support as well.... I still love the idiot.... my mistake.... but basically it all comes down to the same thing... we loved them a little more than they loved us maybe...
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    I'm always around, 4 mths after break up, can't even think about dating anyone.... maybe never...
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    Melis: Good for you, you are a smart chicky poo!!!
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    Mintzhg: BTW, take a look in your mirror, your very pretty, who needs that a hole anyways? Oh never mind... I know... you love him.... forget him for now... just love you ....
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    Aero: It's funny how it works, we don't get a thinner skin, but I do believe we get tougher, my dad used to say what doesn't kill ya makes you stronger, I do believe that now too.... yikes.... how true .. I think what you maybe need to do is come here, rant, get it out, and work on you.... like I've been doing, never said it would be easy, and sh*t it isn't, but its the only way to go, its gets better bit by bit..... there isn't any quick solution, you just have to take care of yourself....
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    Aerozeppelin: what you are feeling right now is quite normal, when we get hurt, it seems the world is caving in around us.... I know I feel that way... it sucks the big one.... just know you will be ok.... I've been screwing up since I got dumped 4 months ago, and still am, (Just not as much) lol just remember though, you will really be ok? Sandy
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    I find all, or most any dating sites pretty frightening, god knows what these people are really like, guess I'm just a wussie......
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    Comfyshoes: I feel your pain, my ex did the exact same as yours, its terribly unkind and hurt to the soul, and we STILL love them anyways.... it isn't fair... But I say, keep going, put one foot in front of the other one... yeah and move on.... unfair and painful for sure.... but the pain won't last forever Sandy
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    Hi Dave and Co. Nope I won't count, makes it too tough for me. I have been behaving myself, but much to my dismay, my ex has been slithering around (yep, like a snake) when I was out Friday night, he came to my place, asking my upstairs neighbour if they knew where I was, the next day received a call from him I didn't answer. I am maintaining my stance, and am occasionally feeling like breaking down, cause other problems in my life are causing me too feel badly.... but I'm feeling much stronger than I did before.....
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    Ya this song really says it all I think: "Hate Me" (If you're sleeping are you dreaming If your dreaming are you dreaming of me? I can't believe you actually picked me.) (”Hi Justin, this is your mother, and it's 2:33 on Monday afternoon. I was just calling to see how you ware doing. You sounded really uptight last night. It made me a little nervous, and a l... and... well... it made me nervous, it sounded like you were nervous, too. I just wanted to make sure you were really OK, And wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication. You know I love you, and... Take care honey I know you're under a lot of pressure. See ya. Bye bye” I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again? And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face? And will you never try to reach me? It is I that wanted space Hate me today Hate me tomorrow Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you Hate me in ways Yeah ways hard to swallow Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take So I’ll drive so * * * *ing far away that I never cross your mind And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind Hate me today Hate me tomorrow Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you Hate me in ways Yeah ways hard to swallow Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made And like a baby boy I never was a man Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!” Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?” Hate me today Hate me tomorrow Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you Hate me in ways Yeah ways hard to swallow Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you For you For you For you [Children voices If you're sleeping, are you dreaming, if you're dreaming are you dreaming of me. I can't believe you actually picked me [Girl Hey Justin! [x12] [Thanks to chris (sayanything911@link removed) for these lyrics] [Thanks to email removed, email removed, email removed, email removed for correcting these lyrics
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    Yep, rite on sunshine
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    Hey nice to meet yall, I just left a happy, happy, joy, joy bunch of people on another thread, so its nice to be here......... misery sure as hell does love company.... only kidding.... I'm really down Sandy aka Sandals
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    I hate that handle "Sandals", some irish guy at the bar started calling me that and unfortunately it stuck...... No I don't hate it, just can't shake it, I'm used to it now
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    Aww, thnx hun
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    Lady Bug: F that guy, you are so beautiful, you can have what you want.... just wanted to make your day, (and no, I'm not gay either)... Sandy aka Sandals
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    Well Dave, I've been trying to be a good girl, but failing miserably at doing so.... bc my ex lives 2 streets away its really hard to avoid him...... but I am on day 7 of being broken up for 4 months now..... so I guess better late than never right?
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    Hey Crazyaboutdogs: I've read till my eyes have bled, lol no... but seriously reading doesn't help me..... i have to live life head on I think, and thats whats basically is killing me.... no pun intended.... have had enough of fake people, but what I do know is there are alot of good people with good info here, and I appreciate you all so much....
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    Juliana: You truly are an inspiration to me, I'm so sad, and I do know I gotta get it together, but its gonna take alot of time and effort, and yes jumping in front of a subway train has occurred to me..... and I can't think properly either. Its not only those things, I have a son, who is causing me large grief, makes things even worse...... and then... I've met an online friend or two, who have turned out to be awful people to know.... they've just dragged me down (and your gonna get this in life, whether it be online or what, I know) but still.... it hurts..... Hey Juliana: That lump in the throat feels more like an apple lol
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    lol Doris: The Jack Diet means Jack was my ex (but I do love Jack Daniels as well) I really mean it about friends though, they are sick of my sad saga.....
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    Juliana: You are also so wonderful, just talking to you girls has me feel ever so much better, yes I lost 26 pounds in 4 months (The Jack Diet, hurts like hell, but man does it work) lol ps: Whats sleep, can't remember, I dream of that creep all the time.....
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    Doris: Thnx soo much, you are sooo sweet, I know you are right about the depression, I'm going to book an appointment next week probably, I'm having trouble dealing with my son, and its just made worse by the fact that I'm feeling terrible. Your story gives me inspiration, and I thank you....... I have no family, no one, just some friends, who hate to hear about my negativity.... you probably know what I mean.... they don't wanna know..... no one to talk to.... thats why I'm here I guess
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    No, Doris no medication yet (unless you call beer and THC) medication.... lol , I broke up with the BF about 4 months ago, haven't recovered, not even close..... very depressed, and I can't go on feeling this way I know....
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    Anyway, hope you are well ....I am one of those, who people know as that "happy girl" office flirt etc...(I even volunteer for the United Way thing and collect from people who contribute at work), obviously I put on a false face, but otherwise I'm a mess, no one knows about the inner turmoil that is happening inside of my head. Hoping (but not really inspired) to pull through the depression, but I have no idea at all of how to do this......
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    Juha me to sweetie, I've rejected so many guys... not fair, but when your hurtin that happens unfortunately xxx Sandy
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    Tnx DYT as usual your a sweet and understanding gal....!
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