ApC

what is it/ how much is it?

yeah tonight i bit it off again...was out for dinner with friends...the damn feeling makes you so nervous, wow. so im back to where i started. but yeah i'll start drinking more water. i know i dont drink nearly as much as i should during the day. as for the pop and whatever i dont eat/drink that crap. argghh

okay, ive had dry chapped lips for long time. and what happens is, throughout the week the skin will start to heal but then it will eventually come off again. it will keep growing but not stick to the lip then just come off. its a cycle that keeps going. it gets so uncomfortable that i'll just have to bite it off anyway. i used to lick my lips alot, like constantly, so im guessing that is what started all of this. so ive been putting an effort not to lick them anymore. and ive been putting that aloe jell stuff on throughout the day. but again today the skin is starting to break up and come off again. if i drink something the skin soaks it up and makes it worse. and when i eat same thing happens. anyone know * * * to do?

aha my router %^&%^&ed up and i had no internet for few days sorry...yeah on friday half the school wasnt even there. i just stayed to write test then went home...so i guess now i have to wait 2 weeks until break is over. its okay i have time to work on some things and get 'ready'. bah

i know nothing cept she is a dancer at my school..and really hot lol whatever tomorrow i'll be there halfday. if shes not there then i'll go to someone else. im not leaving for the break without another number or email.

man, i didnt see her today either...and im not lying aha. so basically tomorrow is last day because no one will be at school friday...its the last day before the break. bah

aha, well im actually not ready at all...but im forcing myself to do it. this week i've been practising just talking to everyone..or atleast starting conversations first. its helping.

yeah i didnt see her...she wasnt with her friends either so guessing she wasnt at school..however i did end up talking to one of her friends...got her email lol...but i'll let you know again tomorrow...its so much easier when your not interested in the person that much...like today with her friend..blah

well so much for that...i didnt get the opportunity today...saw her once but she was too far away, wasnt going to stalk her down aha...but tomorrow for sure...

police officer has been only thing on my mind for a while...somehting i'd enjoy doing i think...firefighter too.

I am still in highschool, grade 12 next year. I am so lost on what i want to do, or what courses i should take. My strengths are in english and writing but i don't enjoy alot of it really. I cant decide whether to go to college or university. Or maybe i want to get into a skilled trade, but then i start to think that if i dont go to university i'll be lost in life and have no oportunities. thats the message i've gotten over the years. i want to do something where i can help other people, where im not stuck doing one thing everyday and where i can be phsyically active. bah i need some help here

dude im in the same position as you...*** it...monday im just going to talk to her...the break is coming up soon and im not gona leave it so then i start to regret. im going to post here on monday what happened when i get back aha..hopefully then you will do somehting too. and dont start talking about how she will turn you down...if you have that attitude then it wont get you very far. just act confident, talk to her like you do your best friend. if she feels the attraction you will know right away. if she turns you down(and it happens to EVERYONE) then move on to someone else, hell you could make 10 dates in one day if you just go for it without worrying whether they turn you down or not.

i would just move on dude. by saying you go see it and tell me how it is then maybe i'll see it later...doesnt sound like she is interested. if she is, then she will bring it up with you. just dont seem desperate or clingy and move on, if she feels the attraction you will see it.

hey dude, im pretty much in the same situation as you..same age too. except what i did was not just ask out one particular girl. i just started talking to every girl i found attractive. with some of them it didnt work out, and with some i managed to get their number and emails and hung out few times on weekends ive been terribly shy over the past few years. and only last year i really started to work on it. im getting comfortable in some situations now but im not where i want to be. if you want my advice, you just have to do it. it she "rejects" you then it doesn't matter, move on to someone else. your living in your own reality, and that means you are the one who makes the decisions and makes the move. practice now, and make your mistakes now while your young. you wont overcome anything by not facing it

yeah its highschool...

there is this girl i want to meet...thing is, i only see her in the caf..and she is sitting group of her friends. i dont know how to approach her or what to say...also...im working on the whole shyness thing. ive read everything about the whole self talk and negative beliefs and just practising talking...but yeah its pretty hard still. i understand taking small steps is important, for example saying hi first, or forcing yourself to get into more detail when answering instead of just saying yes/no. but when you lack skills in the whole social area is just feels so unnatural at first. but im getting there, so much more troublesome things out there than this.

Its been years and ive been trying to get over it...i know i have made improvements..i can actually talk to people now, unlike last year where i would just look down, or not answer someone at all when they talked to me....but now its just really pissing me off. the past two weeks, because of it i missed out a chance of getting to know some girls my friends have been trying to introduce me to. like tonight for instance...we met, she came up and said hi, but all i could do was smile and nod my head...it sucks so damn much...i give out the message that im not interested or i dont want to tlak to them, when really i do but when the moment comes i feel like i dont know what to say or nothing more than a few words comes out...bah. so i didnt end up really talking to her tonight and now i really feel like crap....?????

i got my cartilage pierced two weeks ago....it got infeced a few days later so my doctor gave me antibiotics to put on it...i used that for 10 days and now its healing fine...i get the same stuff that comes out in the morning and sometimes theres dry blood around it...it may be infected if its swollen like you said...but cartilage does take a longer time to heal so just keep it clean and donnnttttt touch it

i remember my first kiss...i started laughing like crazy..i dont know why

alright, well i told my mom.....doctor next week. mhmm

It turns out shes seeing some guy that she bikes with on weekends. Interesting. I guess im out of the game now.

yea it helped..im just thinking if i should tell me parents. I know ive been suffering from depression over the past few years. its gotten a little better but i think i need to sort some problems out

where would i find counseling? would my parents know? do i have to pay?

Okay, so heres my story. My father was an alcoholic for 8 years, and i had to put up with so much garbage every day. I'd spend days just locked in this room while my parents were fighting. So basically im 16 years old now and im a really emotional person. I think all of my friends have seen me in tears at one point or another. Another thing is how shy I am...however ive gotten better over the past year but I still feel that its holding me back. Theres been times where i was really depressed and i was a cutter for a while, but i stopped that. I just feel i need to do something about my shyness or social anxiety or whatever it is. I just feel something is holding me back. Im not the same person i am around large groups of people or with close friends. In school i barely speak in the classroom. I know who i am, but i just cant be that person around others. I feel it has to do with my past and it just shaped the person i am today. I dont really know what to do. Its getting annoying now.

im the same way..theres times where i cant go upstairs by myself and i'd be running up the stairs looking behind me....ive had this fear for a few years..i dont know why...just scared of ghosts i dont know why