Silent Man

Yes it is

rejection everyday the same everyday the pain picking away at my soul never good enough never tough enough to compete with anyone and you you dictate my life everystep of the way i cant think for myself are you proud of yourself? isolation living in a dream somewhere inbetween real life and fantasy cant tell whats real this pain that i feel emptiness inside of me and you you believed all the lies and you kept them inside and you followed the rest loss of self respect addiction take away my pain make me feel sane open my mind take a little trip it wont hurt a bit and let me take control and you with you I had finally found a way to escape from my life but i paid the price despiration tired of being alone desperate for a soul who could give me the strength i need i was down on myself and i needed some help someone who'd believe and you your tyin me down and holdin me back i succumb to your ways of life and i still dont suffice inspiration i finally let go this pain that i've known i'm ready to move on gambling on fate the feeling was great my time had finally come then you you gave me your heart and your soul and made me glad to be me i've escaped from misery

Hey amaranth_04 how are you? That's great this one doesn't fit country-pop, I was worried that I might have had to switch to country music lol.

Thanks everyone for the compliments. ang3l2004 I've seen you respond to every one of my poems and I really appreciate it, thank you.

today is the day my life will change an unknown road lay ahead will my life remain whole with you by my side ...or will i walk alone something tells me i'm on my own when will you finally realize you cannot run for the rest of your life you need my love and i'm right here so please come home love, please don't run your gettting tired hope, i can change your life but theres a catch commitment, you have to help me with you my life was whole too many years i spent alone but i cant carry us on my own so please come home you deserve the world but you will never believe it your mind is set, your familiar with the pain afraid to be reborn so run, you've made it this far deny your chance for a new life and wake up from this dream of stability

Unfortunately that would be my assumption that he didn't want you to come so he didn't invite you and he didn't want to hurt your feelings by telling you he went and didn't ask if you wanted to come. Or maybe the other people he was with had something to do with it, maybe he couldn't act the way he likes to around them with you there because you said he acts different around different people. Maybe it's time to change his status to 'Good Friend'.

Cool! I write all my stuff with music in my head...not country/pop though but if that works for you great!

leaving it all behind everything i love just the clothes on my back and a one way ticket there were times i had it all i did everything i could but others didnt help and here i am is there anyone who apprecites me? why do i give more than anyone else? it doesnt matter now cause they took it all from me theres an emptiness inside where my love and devotion once was now my soul is cold and tired and theres no one left but me a decision must be made theres no reason to stay i dont know if i could ever love again and without love i might as well be dead

Yea that's what I thought so I posted it in the 'Suicide Forum', Got deleted for double posting And thanks everyone for the comments. I have a few more I may post.

You sound exactly like me when I was your age. I didn't get over it until I was 20 or so and I'm still bad with peers, thats why school was so hard for me. I guess the only advice I have is to relax and remember it's 'no big deal'. 5-10 years from now no one is going to remember the times you said something embarrasing or did something stupid. But in 5-10 you will remember all of the missed opportunities and wonder why the hell you didn't just take a chance. Being young is just practice for life, we all make mistakes, learn from them. Sorry I couldn't help more I truly feel your pain. Silent Man

No your probably right but he won't come out and tell you unless he wants to.

I think it was great, you should definitely write some more. image removed

Great man I really like those.

Maybe a sign... only you will know what it really means though. Could mean he's lazy, not that kind of person, whatever. It's hard to say without knowing what kind of relationship you currently have.

Don't worry about how she feels about you and I DO NOT advise coming right out and asking her. Just have fun, try to get a sense of how she's feeling. Don't think of it as friends OR a date, keep a completely open mind and see what happens. As far as choosing the place just pick a place where you know she will find something to eat that she likes...simple. And nothing too expensive. My advice on paying would be to bring enough to pay for it all. If she says it's her treat then its something she wants to do...let her (maybe some playful argument of who will pay). If she doesn't and it feels right, offer to pay for the whole thing (you can say 'next one's on you'). If you can't decide then each pay for your own. Good Luck! Silent Man