WindingWallows Posted December 27, 2017 Share Posted December 27, 2017 I've been with my boyfriend for 6 years, We now have a 2 year old and a house. Picture perfect family, right? Not quite.. I started dating my bf because he is the sweetest, most caring person I know. A couple months in I started realising I wasn't very attracted to him sexually.. But I ignored it and kept being with him. These feelings would come and go. Two years in I cheated on him. I told him I had just made out with a guy when really I went home with him.. We worked through it and the guilt started kicking in. After our child was born we both put our relationship to the side.. I was dealing with a bit of depression and anxiety at this time and began shutting him out. There were points where we both thought we were going to break up. Recently, I began sexting other guys. I am not sexually attracted to my boyfriend. I dont want to be intimate with him. At first I thought maybe my sex drive was gone..but it isn't. Well anyways, I got caught. He wants to go to counselling..I know if we do that I will end up confessing about what happened years ago. And I know I need to, but I dont want to destroy him. Ive been hiding it so long because I know how hurt he would be.. I'm at a loss. I dont want to ruin our family but no matter what I do someone will be hurting. I want to be with him still, so we dont lose our family, but I dont want to be with him At the same time. He is my best friend, the greatest father, a kind person but I'm just not happy.. It has taken 5 years to realise this. Is it selfish to leave? Is it selfish to stay? I know what I did was wrong, theres no denying it. I just dont know where to go from here. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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