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You may want to consider blocking his number.

I hope your life is hell and you end up all night with your head in a toilet throwing up. You deserve the best this NYE has to offer. Love ya

Long story...it was not just one thing. It was several over a long period of time between moments of bliss. This girl needs to be put in an emotional straight jacket and put in lock down so she doesn't destroy any other unsuspecting men. She is a sirene that has left a wake of victims behind her and seems unaffected and less than compassionate to the damage she has caused. I really hope she gets hers in the end....but who knows, life is not fair and she may escape unscathed.

Wise words

I am so thankful we are no longer in contact. It took me forever to finally cut you out of my life. You are a toxic mess. Though I still think of you it is not the same. I am not longing for you but have mostly thoughts of disgust at how horrible and selfish of a person you are. It's weird but day by day my hate for you is growing. I hope one day to get to the point of indifference. You hurt me deeply but most of it was my fault for not allowing myself to see you for who you really are. I promise you that you will never hear from me ever again. That is my Xmas gift to myself. To stay the hell away from you and never break NC. btw..I do not wish you a merry xmas...I hope your life is hell on earth. You deserve it

It was crayz seeing you at the club the other night. You felt like a stranger to me. I am so glad I kept my cool and did not attempt to hang out with you. I miss the person you used to be to me but that person does not exist anymore. It makes me sad but I know I must continue my NC with you and doubt I will want a friendship with you. It is sad sometimes how life is but it is my time to heal. At least you were respectful and did not push for me to hang around you at the club. I wish sometimes that things were different and we could be together like we used to. I know that will never happen so I wish you well. I need to take care of myself and stay away from you. How was it for you seeing me? I wonder what you were thinking. It is so sad we could not hang out and have fun like we used to. Take care ex...I can't believe I am missing you right now.

I was starting to go through my ex's phone one night and she went ballistic! That's cuz she was a deceiver and had plenty to hide. Anyways, some people think the phone is a big deal and others don't. I wouldn't care if my ex went through my phone but I better be able to go through hers as well.

Really happy for you Kid!!! I am rooting that everything works out.

This has been a long road...A journy I never wanted to take but her I am alone while you are with guy number what...8 or 9 since we broke up? It hurts that you are seeking so hard to find a bf but do not want to be with me again. Well you did to a certain point and wanted fwb's and we were for 11 months after the breakup and like a fool in love, I agreed. That ended in November and you still wanted me as you bff...what a joke. I have played the fool or I would already be healed. I am so glad I have finally went NC. It took way too long to let go. I don't know if I even have yet. I just think the pain it causes me of you feeling comfortable enough to tell me you are at another guys house or out with him and can not talk was it for me. So good bye, I hope to heal now and move on. I want to feel good again. This is going to be a long year of rebuilding my life. I know you will reach out again but you will not find me. You are blocked. have a nice life. I know you are toxic to me and have a lot of issues but unfortunately I still love you. God please take this cross away from me and free me from these feelings.

Well this is the getting back portion of the forum but people must know that very few get back together. I am not saying this to be a downer just stating the facts. I would hate to see people hold onto false hope and stay stuck hurting when they should be healing and moving on.

I know but trust me I did it for 11 months post breakup and it was not worth it. The cost was extremely high cuz I always wanted her back. Left me feeling used and empty. Not worth it my friend if hey don't want to be in relationship anymore. Trust me you are better off. I know you don't feel that way and I didn't either until I went through it. Still miss f-n her though even with all the pain. ugh, how pathetic lol

I hear ya bro. Once in a lifetime kinda sex. However, I really don't want her anymore only the sex!

I miss you so much...I know it is over and I am glad we had a good conversation before going NC. In some ways though I wish I hated you because it would be easier. Knowing that you love me and want me in your life as a close friend, still think about me all the time is both good and bad for me emotionally. All I can think about is that you love me but are not in love with me. I need to stop thinking about you. I am glad we are not in contact but I need to find the motivation to get my life together and start over without you. I just can not stay in this state of depression any longer. I have to force myself to go to the gym. I know this is the one thing that will help me the most. Ugh, now just to do it. I hope you are doing ok although I know you are not. Your life is a mess and I wish I was your partner and could help you with it. I want so badly to text or call you but I won't. I hope you are struggling like I am at some level. I know you are but as soon as you find your new boyfriend I am sure that will all change.

So I went on a date tonight with another girl and she thought I was awesome, handsome and a real catch. I had a hard time on the way there because I started thinking about you, but after awhile I forgot about you and was able to pay atteniton to her and not even compare her to you! That was a big step for me. It means I am healing and getting over your lame ass! We went to dinner, had a few drinks and back to her house to watch the last half of the football game. it was really nice, we layed on the couch, held hands and cuddled. I did smell her hair and it did not smell like yours. I have to admit i miss your hair alot. All in all it was a great night. I do miss the girl you were when we were a couple but that is over so I am moving on. I love and hate you at the same time.

Ex, you said that I was your best friend and you loved me and could not live without me in your life. Ha! If I meant so much to you then why were you not willing to lose two hours sleep the night my dad died to come hang out with me? You have no problem losing sleep to go party...did I mean less to you than partying? I guess so..Then you would not cancel a pof date to hang out with me the next night knowing I really wanted my "so called" best friend there. Wow, that really showed me how much I really meant to you! Then you had the nerve to call me before and after pof dates! You knew how I felt about you and that I was trying to be friends even though it was hard for me. How selfish. Then I send you a nice letter requesting some time to heal and you just delete me off fb and never respond. What a joke. Well I hope you have a great life and I feel sorry for those who you consider your "close friends" they are in for a world of pain. You are one of the most selfish people I have ever met good riddance! PS. I hope I run into you someday just so I can look into your eyes with disgust!

Where's the "like" button? lol

I did not intend to be a bummer. I really do hope you find happiness and enjoy yourself.

I agree with ToF, I have respected most of your posts and followed your story. This last one seems a little out of character for you. Be careful.

I really never want to be your friend after I take this time apart from you to heal. I know I said I would come back after I was healed but I am never coming back because I have realized you really have never been a true friend to me. We never started out as friends and never have been, so why start now. You have been so selfish..after breaking up we end up FWB's then that stops last month but you still keep calling me everyday, texting me everday and asking to hang out. You tell me you want me as your best friend. I can't do that.. I tried. Then when I tell you I want a break to heal you tell me if you go away to heal to never come back cuz it's too hard for you! What about me!? You call me on your way to dates and tell me you are going on a date and that you might want to meet up with me after the dates to have a drink! How do you think this makes me feel? My dad dies two weeks ago and you say I'm your best friend but you won't even lose two hours sleep to come hang with me the night he died! The next night I ask you to hang with me and you say you can't cancel you date cuz you feel bad! Really!? What kinda friend are you!? Your not. You are selfish and self absorbed. It's all about you and what you want. You don't want me but you can't let me go either. You want everything on your terms. Screw you...I am so glad I finally go up the nerve to cut you off 2 days ago. You will never hear from me again. I sent you a very nice email asking for space to heal and that I would be back after I was healed. What do you do...not respond and delete me from facebook and tell my friend F him I will be over him in 2 days. Any real friend would have given me the time to heal if the valued the friendship. You only care about your needs being met, you don't care what I need. You are so selfish. I understand you may be hurt that I needed time but what do you expect? I can't sit here and watch you date other guys. You expected too much from me. So goodbye for life. I don't ever want or need a friend like you. I am very hurt by the way you handled my request but whatever. It just makes it easier to move on.

Your killing me and I am allowing it to happen. I let you call me all the time and I answer, you text me everyday, I text back. Everything is on your terms. I am an idiot that just cant seem to let you go. I have swam in this muddy water for 11 months and don't see any way out unless I tell you goodbye and never look back. You date other people but tell me none of them are serious and that you love me and I am your best friend. How am I your best friend? Do you ever really consider how your are tearing me up inside? Do you not see how weak I am to your contact? I have tried it all but feel like you are having your cake and eating it to. You have me when you want me around and choose to be around when it is convenient for you ( for the most part ). If I want to heal I need to take everyones advice on this board and go NC again on you. I know you said if I do to go for good. Well maybe that is what I need to do. How can you be so selfish not to give me time to heal? Are you blind to the pain you are causing me? Somebody let me borrow your pants and take off this dress I am wearing. I don't even feel like a man anymore. I have put too much of my self worth into how you feel about me. Bad bad mistake. I lost myself in you. haha and you are the worst woman on the planet I could have chosen to do that with. Cant believe how many guys you have slept with this year. Do you not have any respect for yourself? You really don't deserve me. Why do you have to be so beautiful and so much fun. Why such charisma? I have never met anyone like you before. Why so good in bed! Your allure is my drug. it keeps pulling me back in. I hate you... I hate that I still love you and am addicted to you. There is no way for me to let you keep contacting me and hanging out if I want to heal. I have really no idea what I am writing right now. I just need to type. I dont even care if it makes sense. I am so sick of you telling me how much you miss me and love me. I;m tired of thinking of you and wishing we were back together. I really hate I ever met you.

I am so glad I have finally opened my eyes and see everything clearly. I guess I had to go through it to get to this point. Just can't believe how selfish you really are...I was blinded by my love for you. Well I guess finding out since we broke up in January that you have slept with 6 other guys and me helped. Not to mention you catching an std. It's time for you to leave me alone and stop calling, texting and trying to keep me in your life as a close friend. You really don't care how it affects me, you only care about getting your ego stroke. Sorry, can't help you with that anymore. Have a nice life.

I am so trying to let go of you. Why do you have to want me as your best friend? Why can't our breakup be like most peoples where after they end it they want nothing or very little to do with the dumpee. You have put me through the ringer this year. We are just too close. I can not transition from a relationship with you and trying to win you back, which I have given up on. To then FWB's for the past 11 months to now just friends. You just expect too much from me. You are now going on some dates and though it is not serious and you are not ready, someday you will be and I am not over you yet. You say that you want me in your life always. You call me everyday and text me everyday. You ask me to hang out at least once a week. I guess you think I can just turn off my feelings like you can do. I can't. I am trying to stay your friend but i need time and distance and it is clear you will not give it to me. Everyone tells me "and rightfully so" that I need to get away from you. I know they are right and I am trying. We have been through so much now and this year has had so many highs and lows. The lows have been really bad and I need to take everyone's advice and get away from you. I know you have slept with 7 different guys this year and now you have tested positive for clamidia. Thanks for that. I hope my test comes back negative. I have been a fool with you. You really don't deserve me. I really wish I could meet a nice girl. I am sure it would help me see how little you really mean to me. ugh go away!! lol I know you won't...the only way you will is if I dump you as a friend.

I hate that you keep texting me and telling me you miss my face! I know you only mean it as a friend and just want me around in that capacity. You just don't understand how that will not work. I am pulling away from you as much as I can i hope you end up happy without me in your life cuz I just can't stay around. It is too hard. You really need to stop partying so much. You are messed up and it is not good for you. But you will do what you want and no one can stop you. Wish you the best. I bet you get a DUI before the end of the year.

I know your not right for me but I still miss you. I hope this goes away soon. I am trying to move on and let go but it is hard. at least after 10 months of trying to get back together I now know it is over. Just trying now to accept it and rebuild my life. You brought me the greatest joy and the greatest pain. Not sure if I am happy or sad that I ever met you.

Why do you have to be so funny, witty and cool? What is it about you that keeps me hanging on even though it is over. Why do you want to be my best friend and still hang out all the time but not my lover anymore. Don't you know how hard this is. I look at you and feel like I am going to die inside because I can not have you. On the other hand you are not good for me. You party way too much. I can not believe you have been out the last 6 nights in a row drinkng and getting home at 4 am. How do you do it? you live on 4 hours sleep a night. I need to pull away from you. I need to cut all contact. uggh...I tried to be friends but it is not going to work for me. I am sorry I love you too much. I need some time to heal. When I think about how I felt last night while we were hanging out I noticed you really don't talk much to me, you talk mostly to Tina. You don't ask me any questons about myself but you never have really. So why should I stick around. You say you love me and care about me but what does that really mean to you. I dread that fact that you will continiue to call me and want to hang out. You call me everyday. You text me everyday. But when we are together I don't feel very special. I asked you to dance last night and you said no and said I was insecure. I don't get it. Then the group danced and you grabbed me to dance. This rollercoaster of emotions needs to end. I am dreading cutting you off. But being around you is not good for me. I must listen to how I feel when around you. Not good. You don't even make me feel very special when I am with you. I know it must be hard on you too. Thinking you have to look after my feelings trying not to hurt me. This is bad for both of us until I heal. God give me the strength to let go.