Eternity

i've heard of that also, and i only see dark red where my peripheal vision should be, as in, i have not peripheal vision at all, and my blood is quite healthy, maybe its a vein problem, but like i said, my didn't turn red, i just saw it

i researched this myself, mostly out of whim (which is what most of my life pursuits come from, lol) and the psychic i went to told me various things, she told me general things about my pass, and a few about the present, and a little about the future but before she told me any of this, i came in and questioned her about various things, and she told me that a psychic can only read possible futures, and simply taking a wrong turn could throw you off the told fate, i was also told to ask all the questions i need, and to stay very very skeptic when dealing with any "psychic" cause there are alot of liars out there, and novices that improvise now as for the reading itself, the past and the present was in the ballpark, and the future said i was going to find a woman out there someday and i did, and i went on a few dates with her, but went no further then that, lol take from that what you will, but if you do see a psychic then just remember to stay skeptic, and don't trust the mysterious psychic type, and talk with him or her before you get the reading, but do know in fact talk to a couple of them, and compare the information they give

now, i confess that i don't know alot about my own religion, but my parents are, and i asked them why i wasn't supposed to have sex till i was married, and they told me that sex is rather like a gift shared meaning that if there were 2 virgins that got together, then they can share that experience together, and having sex before your married takes some of the specialness out of that marriage now keep in mind that i was raised catholic, so it might vary from one christian religion to the next, and try to keep that cynical tone from people when talking about religion, cause it like any other religion has its pro's and con's, hell, even atheism has its pro's and con's

i don't know what to tell you, seeing as how i never really loved yet, its hard for me to give advice on a subject im so ignorant in, lol, but, i believe you should do exactly what you were thinkin, and simply not talk to him for as long as its neccesary, and if he contacts you, then you should simply tell him exactly what the situation is... that you distrust him because he has betrayed you, and that you just need to break contact from him for a while, and also tell him that maybe after all this, that being friends is possible whatever you do, just break contact, and be straightforward if he asks any questions, but ya should break contact, now, of course other people will have opinions, and maybe even better ones at that, but if those opinions don't work, try mine i guess, or invent a solution but do not wallow in despair hoping that he might come back some day, that is not right to yourself at all

I was simply curious about this one thing, i looked in most of the anger section already and haven't found a place for it; hence the new topic. one time when i was in a huge argument with my brother i got so angry that i saw red where my peripheal vision is supposed to be, and i could barely think coherently, i did get myself under control without doing anything completely unrational, (like throwing a punch, or major swearing) but it scared the hell out of me soon after, and also i felt my heartbeat, my veins and everyting now, this has only happened once in my life, (seeing red i mean, and feeling my veins, and so on), i have gotten into smaller fits of anger, but nothing that lasted longer then a nights rest, and im not talking about holding it in, i would simply forget about it. i have many thoughts still left unsaid about why and what may have caused this, but, i can't say everything just cause... but has anyone ever get so angry that experience some physical trait like that?

do you have a hobby? try falling into a habit of something, wether it be, trying to learn what the hell fashion is all about, maybe get a long bow and start shooting targets, (ya should probably stay away from guns) and if you do pick up a hobby, find something that takes a while to learn, because if its easy to learn, then ya might start to hate it, maybe start reading just find something to distract yourself from any dangerous thoughts or needs or whatever, and the sooner that you recuperate, the sooner you may join your love back in PA

thanks for advice, i might try that, and as for the question about me being unhappy about being single, well, only partly, cause, i imagine that the companionship might be nice, but, then again, there is no room in my fate for love really, so it would be best to go without it, but yeah, detachment does suck because it does feel like apart of myself is dying, but (laughs without mirth) it might be best for me to be detached (emphasis on might)

i'm sorry to put this under fear, but i couldn't find emotional detachment anywhere so here i go, im a bit new to this site, so give me some patience; for some reason, i can't find my emotion, i mean, im not geting mad, im not getting happy ever, but i am simply detached, this first started yesterday, along with a numbing headache, then today it was more of a dizzying headache, where i would occasionally get periods of spins, but it kinda has its perks, cause im doing things more out of habit and intuition, where before i would think about everything, but, im not sure if i like this lack of emotion, its like im floating away from it all, and its scary when i think about what this could mean if I kept such detachment now a little about me, im a 21 male, and i have good parents, and lots of brothers and sisters, and no girlfriend, and dream of becoming a scholar some day