Hmm... where do I begin! After 7 years apart, I met up with someone from high school. Someone that I always thought about over the years. When we broke up, we basically left things the way they were and I moved away. Since then, I have become a mother of two, and lived with my kids father(never married). When I saw my ex after all those years, my heart dropped, having these wonderful feeling inside. We talked, and exchanged emails. Over time, I left my kids father to be with him, and it's been almost 2 yrs. We have our ups and downs, but most of it consist of having kids that are not his, and having to have communication with my kids father. He hates him with a passion, that he has said things that hurt my feelings, like why don't I go back to him. I am so... confused. He won't open up with my kids. He tells me that everytime he wants to, all he see's is the kids father. I hurt everyday, that I think that, that is why I am depressed. When I ask him to do things with the boys, he says, thats ok. I don't want my kids to dislike him. So, now I am in the middle of my kids, their father, and my b-friend. When we bicker, it's cause of my past with my kids & father. I was never happy with my kids father because he abused me. My b-friend doesn't understand why I stayed with him all these years. He tells me thats why he hates him soo... much, is because of what he did to me. I don't know if I should take the initiative, and move on with my life. We talk about getting married after we both graduate from college. I'm confused! Can someone give me advise?