wow, you are only 20. i am kind of in a similar situation and but im 19. ive only had one 'more than friends' thing that lasted a few months but didnt really go anywhere but we remain friends. I am seeing a girl now, although timing is bad and i havent actually seen her in a few weeks. Once you get into a situation, its just natural from there. In high school i rarely talked to girls and didnt date any cuz it was not gonna last and would be pointless. I guess im an average guy, definatly not great looking or anything. I would never of though in a million years i could date the girl i am dating right now (beautiy-wise) but fortunatly for both of us looks are maybe 10%. Everyone that sees her pics is just like, whoa how did you manage that or whatnot. I dont condone it, but you can try finding someone online that way your intentions for a relationship/dating are out in the open, thats kind of what i did and it is such a relief to the whole situation. the girl i havent seen in almost 2 months (our first date) i am going to see tomorrow and its soo great