Mandala Posted September 13, 2017 Share Posted September 13, 2017 Today is particularly hard for me. I'm trying to stay strong, but I keep thinking that there is so much left unsaid. He keeps contacting me in small little ways, but he hasn't actually taken the step of calling to say something of more substance and I don't know anymore what to think. Of course I'm doing everything I can to focus on myself, but today is just crappy. This is my story since the break up: We were in a long distance relationship. I went to visit him in the Summer. We spent two wonderful weeks together and he said with emphasis that he had a fantastic time and that he would cut his right arm to re-lived those moments again. Forward a few weeks... he had been distant for a couple of weeks in which he started to call me less and less. I wanted to understand why, so I made attempts to talk to him and get some answers, but other than finding out he was worried because he wanted to get a car, but he was kind of broke, I didn't really get much. I've tried to explain to him that because we were in a long distance relationship it was particularly important for us to communicate since phone calls were pretty much all we had at the moment. He said he understood, but things haven't changed. So on August 28th I told him that the situation was causing me pain and that it was better if he would take some time to think about it and when and IF he was ready to be back in the relationship with commitment he would let me know, and if I was still there we could have talked about it. He didn't like that very much and said instead to both take some time to think about solutions to solve our issues and then talk again. We didn't give each other a due date though and to me it felt like a broke-up so on that same day I decided to go no contact. On Sep 3rd his best friend message me to know how the two of us were doing. It was weird to find out that he had no idea about what was going on, I told him that my "ex" has decided not to talk to me and although it hurt me I wished he was happy with his decision. I suspected 'my guy' was behind this to know what I was thinking. On Sep 4th he liked my pic on Facebook. Pretty unusual for him. On Sep 5th he sent me a WhatsApp message saying 'I miss you too much' to which I didn't answer. On Sep 6th I sent him a WA text saying to take care of himself (he was in a hurricane area) to which he responded 'thank you'. I then asked him if he was scared and he said 'not much', I said again 'take care', he said 'thank you'. On Sep 7th I've called him to know if he was ok (still for the hurricane) and even though the line was pretty bad, we have talked for a little while. He kept thanking me for being preoccupied about him. He also told me that he loves me, I said I do too and we both said that we miss each other. He also made me hear the sound of the rain and we have remembered an episode of us being under the rain covered by trash bags, we laughed about it and before the line went down (due to the weather they had no power, no internet and the phone lines were not working properly), he said he didn't know when he was going to have internet back, but I assumed he was going to tell me something about getting in touch later. On Set 8th he answered to a message I sent him the day before -before I was able to talk to him- in which I was asking him to let me know if he was fine. He said "Thank you for worrying so much about me. Thank you, really, thank you very much" I said of "Of course I worry for you. I hope your Family is ok and that there was no damage." On Sep 11th he sent me a message on Messenger saying "Hi". I waited a bit and then I said "Hey". He said "What's up my crazy (a funny nickname we gave to each other)?" I answered with "All good. And you?" He said "Good", I've read it and I went offline. On Sep 12th (yesterday) I went to check my Facebook and saw that he liked two of my pictures from days ago (he clearly went on my profile to see them as they don't show up on the news feed anymore...). That was at 7AM. Hours later around lunch he liked another one. Again this is pretty atypical for him. He only liked pics of me when we just became friends on Facebook, and the other few times it was only when I got a bit distant from him because we had a discussion or something. I wonder if that's his language to say "I'm here!" or what... I used to be the more 'dominant' in the relationship. He pursued me for months and one time he even told me that even if he's generally strong he's pretty weak in relationships because he's too good. I know this post is really long and peculiar, I'm sorry, but there was no other way to explain what I'm going through and I VERY MUCH need your insight. It's driving me crazy. I'd also love to hear from a guy prospective... Thank you so much in advance. Link to comment
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