How are YOU feeling right now?

[lovepugs86]

I feel alone and I'm so sick of this.

[Ne Moe]

He must have heard me as he texted me last night. Just about some stuff that is going on with him, asking how I was.

 

I replied but put an end to the conversation at the same time. I said I was fine, acknowledged his family issue and said I hoped it would improve and then I said "have a good week". No questions, no need for reply.

 

I suppose it has set me back. I had been doing well prior to yesterday and his sister calling and then him texting. So NC has helped. Yesterday was day 9.

Back to day 1 again.

[surfjon]

To all....

 

After 6 months, she asked back into my life Saturday. I'm very cautious and will be vigilant for red-flags.

Anyone who has read my posts know that she hurt me badly, but that I did love the girl dearly and missed her incredibly much.

 

She asked if we could start again, I said yes, but would not return to where we were and if she could't work on having a balanced and committed relationship, that no....I was not interested.

 

She agreed, we hugged....we kissed...we cried...we're back together.

 

Peace to all, I abandoned ALL hope and was NEVER going to contact her again, I accepted she was gone and was moving on very well, she reached out to me and I responded, and she came back.

 

It can happen if we do it for ourselves and do the brutal work on ourselves...for ourselves alone. They see this and realize what they lost, and sometimes want that back....

[hereigoagain1]

I feel sad and alone once again. How freaking long will it feel this way? I'm tired of it. Tired of being haunted by the old memories. I want to move on but I haven't yet.

[hereigoagain1]

I feel better today. I have deleted my Facebook account in order to focus on my own life. it seems to be helping but I do miss talking to people. I can't seem to get in touch with any of my family or friends back home

most of the time. it's lonely.

[chamachama]

Feel pretty darn good. I "think" that I found someone awesome. That is all.

[Looking up]

I woke up today and looked beside me to see if she was there. Just a empty space were she used to sleep beside me. I miss the morning snuggling and the morning kiss. I miss her. I want her back

[HoldOnToHope]

went out to get some stuff today, and i thought i was good until i saw the back view of a lady which resembles her and holding hands with a guy, my heart races again. Upon closer look, it isn't her. I think i still have a long way to go to get her out of my mind and focus on my stuff.

[kz91]

Like absolute crxp.

[jaderosehere]

Today has been terrible. I feel so lonely. I have one close friend where I live but she has a boyfriend now and we've drifted apart.

I've been fine for the past month but today I've just cried. I have so much to sort out as I lived with my ex, I'm meant to be moving this weekend but I have so much packing to do. I feel like noone is here for me when I need them, I don't feel like I can talk to anyone properly anymore.

[Looking up]

The sun is shinning and all I can think about is how much we had together on days like this. Going to the beach or boating. Man I miss those days. I can't do the things I used to enjoy so much. It doesn't. Feel right to me anymore. It brings to much pain

[hereigoagain1]

Today was better for me. I saw a counselor and it felt good to actually be able to talk to someone. I'm all alone in this town and it was much needed.

[Loz333]

I feel sick. I can't eat. I take all day to get dressed. I have let everything fall by the wayside.

I'm constantly talking to everyone I trust. To my psychologist as well. It's all I can do to stop the panic. To ease the pain. To stop feeling like I'll be sick or go out of control.

I am exhausted. I had a nap earlier but it didn't last long before I woke up in such panic and sheer grief. It's too much to bear.

[RougeQueen]

Woke up today feeling great! My first thought wasn't of him and I realized that feeling of wanting to talk to him again wasn't there either. Progress? I believe so!

[mbee]

I think I'm feeling a bit better actually. Who knew! It's been about a week since I talked to my ex. I stuck to NC starting last Sunday. My ex did contact me yesterday about stuff relating to my lease. It was professional and didn't mention the usual "I love/miss/thinking of you" things that almost all his messages included. I replied back and he did say "I'm thinking of you" at the end, but I'm realizing that I need to care more about his actions than words. Everyday I am starting to feel physically less nauseous and sick about what's happened. My future doesn't seem as scary and frightening as it did a few weeks ago. I just need to keep moving forward. I'm at the 2 month mark and I think that's progress.

[kz91]

Worst I've felt in about four months.

[Looking up]

Stuck in the same place with healing. Made some progress but move on any further. I'm still in love

[hereigoagain1]

I've been dating, but I still haven't moved on. it looks like it's going to take awhile. Right now, I'm guessing at least six more months.

[summerlovin]

3 months post breakup...these past few weeks have been good, but today was terrible. Broke down and cried. Probably because my ex graduated from high school tonight and I was supposed to be there with his family to see him graduate. I even planned a trip I took around his graduation so I could attend. I just imagined things so much differently, I was supposed to go to graduation and run up afterwards and give him a big hug and kiss and tell him I'm proud of him.

[nick66]

Divorce is final around July 8th, ready for it to all be over with. I'm ready to move on with my life. I love my kids and they're all that matters.

[Looking up]

Can't get over the fact it's done and over with. So much I want to be part of in the furture. I really hate this point in my life.

[fire2therain]

I feel some sadness today

[RougeQueen]

I feel horrible today. I'm back to day 1 of NC because I was weak and have been talking to my ex again and trying to "work things out". The reason I've decided to go back to NC is because I realized that I deserve to be treated better and with more respect than he was showing me. I was allowing him to go back to the pattern of behavior he had when he left me for someone else (though he still denies it).

 

I have to be strong. I have to fight the urge to contact him. I have to believe that there is someone great out there for me and that this loser wasn't the best I'll ever have. I have to realize that he doesn't love me and that all he wants from me is a booty call when he can't hook up with other women. I can do this.

[sharky988]

(((hugs to you!!)))

 

There IS a great guy out there right now who's perfect for you. No worries. When you're ready, he'll find you!

[RougeQueen]

(((hugs to you!!)))

 

There IS a great guy out there right now who's perfect for you. No worries. When you're ready, he'll find you!

 

Thank you so much sharky! I really needed to hear that right now I've felt so hopeless and depressed lately. Granted, it's my own fault but that just seems to make it worse lol. Another case of me thinking I have all the answers and then finding out the hard way that I'm not an exception to the rule *rolls eyes*. Silly silly, RQ.