Looking up

Well you have proven you are the most selfish going. I ran into one of your family members at the race and the little one He was so happy to see me. I ran right up to me a gave me a big hug. I spent a few hrs with him and I was told this was the happiest he has been since the BU. Come to find out the little one has been asking about me almost everyday. How can you be this selfish to do this. And you are doing nothing good for him. I hate you

It's so sad what you are doing to our son. Time to put him first. This is the first time you had to be a mother because I was always there to take care of him. You should be ashamed of yourself.

After all the you have put me through and hurt not once did I get mad at you. One if these days I will tell you off and knock you off your high horse You can't be going around acting the way you are since the break up. You are using and hurting a lot of people for your selfish ways You did a good job making people feel sorry for you. You are such a

Maybe you might be thinking about me on this day I know I am of you. I can remember you sitting accross from me on the deck on the water on our first little trip. That's where we both said I love you to each other. I new at that moment I found what I was looking for Happy anniversary where ever you may be I love you

Well I think you have put a stop to any last hope for you just to say hi. I really never thought it was going to be this way. I am truly am sorry for holding on for so long. That picture I attached is something you just can't forget so easy. The 2 must important people in my life smiling back at me. And yes this weekend has stirred up a lot of great times I had with you and also the little man last year. Yes it is a strange feeling to go from being so close to someone than being treated like a complete stranger. The 2 of you have given me so much. But at the same time I wish I never decided to go to New Brunswick that summer because I wouldn't have the girl I fell in love not being with me or moving on with someone else. Or the fact not seeing the little guy grow up and missing out on this. Anyways enough of this . I will keep it like you want complete strangers. I hope you find what you are looking for and when you do hold onto it. You don't want to end up like me. By Take care.

Babe I wonder if you ever think about me the way I think about you

I don't hate you I do hate you for messing with my life and causing so much pain. It's been a hard road and I'm not even close to the end. I really thought I new you. I guess I was wrong and that hurts the most.

Out of all days not to hear from you today was the worst. Sorry for emailing you and asking how the little guy was doing. You are such a hurtful selfish *****. You know he misses me and I miss him to. What wound it hurt to just say hi. I was off today and you are working. Who knows who is watching him today. You can't keep just shipping him off like you are. Give your head a shake. You know he would rather be with me. You controlling *****.

I miss you so much. In a few weeks we would be coming up on our anniversary and this year I will not be planning anything. I can't believe you still look the other way about us. Our family we once had. I love you so much still. I think I always will.

Why do I still love you and can't get you off my mind. Why do I still have hope you will can your mind. Why do I want my little boy back. I just do I can't think of anyone else I want to spend my life with. You were my babe. You with the part that was missing that I found in you. I'm sorry I feel this way about you but I do. I can't help it. I found my birthday card today just before the break up. "Together for ever" I went to the doctors again More test need to be done. Funny thing is I hope the test come back positive. I really do. I really don't want to live anymore if I have to deal with this anymore. I guess you will never know if I'm gone. s

I saw you today. You saw me. We could have talked but you did not reach out to me. I reached out to you for over to months no reply. So why would I think and different in person. I could see you looking at me. I was wondering what you were thinking. I saw the person I still love maybe you were thinking the same thing. I miss you babe

I don't hate you. I just hate that you left me with memories of you and family that now I have to deal with. And the fact I don't know where I went wrong. You were my fiance, you were going to be the mother of my child. We were one for 3 years and at the blink of a eye you called it quits. I was not a selfish guy. I always did what was best for the two of you. I took another mans child in and loved him as my own after he left him. I gave you guys a better happy life. I tried to reach out to you and you could even reply back. I tried to be there for the little guy that I treated as my son. And when you replied you told me there was some else. I was the dad for over 3 years. It's such a good feeling I was replaced so quick. I left my high paying job , sold the house pretty much lost everything at the time it didn't matter because It was the right thing to do for the family. But during this time you were cheating on me and planning on leaving me. Why did you make it seem like everything was perfect and let me do this. I lost so much all at once. A wife to be that I loved and cherished so much, a son that I miss so much. The child we were planning on having to complete the family. And everything I work so hard for. The future that we both planned that is not going to happen. All of this in a blink of a eye. So really this was a lot to take in such a short time. Not once did I get angry at you. All I wanted was to know why. You just left me standing there starring at the walls. You just got up and walked out. So here I am writing on a forum because yes I'm having a hard time with this. You have no clue how much pain this has caused me. I really started to second guess if the was a purpose for me being here about all this and how I felt.

Day I. Well it's been 2 weeks nc now. Just found this post. Bu 3 months ago. Tried to make contact over the months to win her back. No reply to anything. So I decide to do nc for myself to heal. So after 2 weeks feel a bit better. I had my ups and downs. Well more downs. I can think a bit better now. I can say it's getting better

This is very true. Nothing makes sense what happened to me. It's been months for me trying to figure out what happened. Months of beating myself up because the ex fience made it believe it was my fault. Even if it was only a few words she said before living it really makes you think.