Holy hell, I have just read the last 6 months of my life. I mean it is scary how close you are to me. (TRUST ME... THIS IS VERY CLOSE TO WHAT I HAD GOING.)
*She seemed to be the 'one'.
*Tried to hold it together. (Relationships are a two way street)
*We planned to get married.
*She was my first true love
*She was busy with her friends/and or parties at her college.
*I had toughts about getting out of the relationship.
*Had thoughts about her losing interest in me.
*Had thoughts about losing her.
*I'm an artist and she LOVES art, wana talk about connecting? We had no problem with that. Connection was the thing that really opened my eyes to this person.
*I was scared to be alone, I had a chance with another girl but I let her past cuz I was trying to make this relationship work.
*I felt odd/bad every time I seen her after a fight we had over the phone or something of that nature.
*We lived near each other colleges.
The problem is simple but hard to deal with:
Start focusing on yourself... If you feel you want to get out of this, do it. Don't wait to see your self to get stepped on anymore. There are other girls to find a connection with. Trust me, it's hard and I'm dealing with it right now.
I mean I TRIED hard as hell to make it all work out, and let me make it in short it didn't help, it knocked me further down. Just try and move on. I find my self today looking back thinking "what the hell was I doing?". Some things aren't meant to be, you have to some times do what you think might be right.
-Boblong.
