OverIntelligentPLUS

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Hey, well i got to talk to him one on one last night. I fe does he. I came out and asked him everything i wanted to know. He loves me just as much as i love him, the thought of being apart tears him up, so he tries to cover it up with another girl. We understandeachother very well. We can always talk. I love that about him. I SWEAR that we are soulmates though, its just not meant to be right now. I was talking and i said If you only knew what i knew, if you didn't alreay. He said, "well whats is it?" I told him that it was what he had yet to find out. Once he finds out then it will that meant time for us. I couldn't tell him that though. We made eachoter promise that we would never keep anything from eachother again. we are to tell anything and everything. Learn someting new from eachother everyday. he started with last night. He just told me something i would never how thought of him doing. I just say if he accomplishes it, hes more than my hero that he already is. He swears that he will get it. And swears he will be rich for it. He started talking about college. And some how like if we ever plan to go somewhere together or something like that, that we could share a holtel room. I dont know why but just the thought cracks me up because i mean hello, a male and a female sharing a hotel room when we get older....... I swear what will i do with him. hes more than great though! I love him with everything, and he told me that he loves me with everything. After a while into our conversations i was like we grow closer every minute. he said, " yeah, if we were any more alike, we would be like twins with the smae personanlity almost." --- in my mind at that point i was like there is another reason for soulmates. My point is yes i did tell him. Yes he does love me. Yes he did tell me he loves me as a sister. He and i agreed that loving eacother as brother and suld be best for us right now. Daryll is me hero, he save me more that just once. I can wait for that time, ever if it is years down the road.

See i dont understand, how im i show so much intrest. WHY CANT I LET HIM BE! HE HIS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING TO ME! i mean even if we are just commiting as brother and sister, and i know he feels the same. Im afraid to let go, b/c if i do, he might like yeah i don't know. I just worry about him a lot. Someone told me this: hey, It sounds like Daryll still likes you alot! I dunno why being apart by 20 minutes is a problem. Unless he has a problem getting to you or he's worried about you traveling alone? My first thoughts when I read the other post was that maybe you are soulmates. You have more than one soulmate and maybe you have a soulmate bond. He might be scared of falling too much in love at a young age and might want to party more first. I think he likes you though. I think theres another reason to you breaking up other than the 20 mins distance. Maybe you're ment to be together in this life, but not yet. If you're ment to be together again it'll happen. I hope this helps. I think that same thing. I mean our buses Parked right beside eacother like they where told to so that we could see one another or something like that. He paid more attention to me then than i did him. Then when our bus started to leave a yelled out the bus window, "I love you." I think it is really true too, b/c i mean his mother seen me about 4 times and she loves me to death. Treatig me like her daughter she never had. I think that my mom even realizes it too, and i never say anything about it to her, i just talk about him a lot. So i guess it is the future, im just afraid to let him go, b/c he might go free and i may not a able to find him again. I know its not true though b/c we are so close to eachother. We love eachother, we can not grow apart. Till then i shall wait .... One question though, my friend wants me to tell him how i feel, and she wants me to ask him how he feels, and what i should do. Daryll is making me feel like he still wants me, and if i go to be with someone else or like someone else like high school crushes or something, he might think i am betraying him. Should i talk to him to clear things up. So i know what he wants, and how our relationship should be like for now????

Im not sure ifi understand what ur trying to say.... can u explain im nor detail??? Thanks

someone told me this: Well you know, having read that thrilling, and breathtaking exchange, I can only say that I have been in error; you are not just a desperate little teeny-bopper. You are obviously a mature woman, and only a blind fool could not see that this love between you two is deep and everlasting. ****Follow your heart, hun! I responed: Do you really think so??? I know that, he knows that, but he can't see that b/c its hard for him to do long distance. We are only 29 minutes away. Sometimes it can be less. B/c of this though he likes lexi. Its killing me that he does too, i am just trying to hid that part from him. I love him I think my own mother even knows this. Yesterday at the band thing they were making announcements to ppl. My mom told some friends of mine to right me and daryll one. It said: Daryll and Stevi forever. We love you. I see you. Well i dont see how the could have seen us. B/c i didn't even see him until i was on the bus, but they made it sound like they caught us making-out. LOL I love him a lot.

OMG CAN SOME PLEASE HELP ME I AM SOOOOOOOOOO DYING! ITS KILLIMG ME! I SWEAR!!!! I WANT TO LIKE OTHER GUYS BUT I CANT!!!! I LOVE DARYLL WAY TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!! I LOVE HIM!!! A LOT! I NEED HELP AND ADVCIE!!! I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO!!! I FEEL LIKE A LOSER AND I FEEL LIKE I DONT BELONG ON THIS EARTH!!!! PLEASE pleASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!

Well nothing... nobody cares i guess. i guess i will just talk to myself, like a journal. Ok my band had a competion tonight. Daryll's band was also there. I didn't get to see him until i was on the bus though. I didn't get to get a hug from him, just endless waves and i love you hand signs. When my bus started to leave he shouted out of the window, " i love you!!!!!" i know he loves me. I know he loves me a lot too. but then why does he like lexi???? i dont know. I guess i am jelous. My friends got to see daryll. They were like, "damn hes fine! how did you manage to get a guy like him?" i said, "band camp" Hehe. I was like yeah but i guess we are like brother and sister. Then she was like, "oh then........ "No you can not!!!!!" I cried. HAHA it was funny and loud. Daryll heard it on his bus. I take this pillow he gave me for my birthday everywhere. So i showed him the pillow. He had a big smile! Welll i guess what i am trying to say is that i love him a lot. I was he was mine still.

I want a boyfriend. I was so happy when i had one, but now we are like brother and sister to eachother. I want to be hapy like that again. The thing is theres not many guys who i like and who like me. I have only had one b/f. I am 15 too..... sooo yeah... Im just really tired of being alone. I never got to holds hands with a guy sooo never kissed one either. I so wish this would happen though. How can i get guys to like me, i mean i want someone to hug me every morning and stuff like that.... im alone. Help, andyone have any good advice anything at all??? Thanks....

i was talking to him again last night..... LAUGHS LOUD: i miss ur hugs GTCountryBoy1: i miss u period xXLAUGHS LOUDXx: i hope we will always be this close to eachother... GTCountryBoy1001: me 2 LAUGHS LOUD: well im gonna leave you alone now... GTCountryBoy1: no! LAUGHS LOUD: ? GTCountryBoy1: dont leave LAUGHS LOUD: i feel like i am annoying you though GTCountryBoy1: ur not LAUGHS LOUD: i dont like to talk bout me... GTCountryBoy1: y not GTCountryBoy1: i love u LAUGHS LOUD: b/c i want to hear about you LAUGHS LOUD: b/c i love you GTCountryBoy1: luv ya babe LAUGHS LOUD: love ya too Al do i asked him if he wanted to see my crapppy school picture. He was like off course i want to see ur uncrappy school picture. I sent to him and he said that i was too pretty after i think i am clearly ugly. then he says that he wants me to sent him one. Tomorrow is my birthday. All i can wish for is one thing. The best gift is a simple little gift. I just want him to love me more than a sister.....

Yeah it was hard to tell the teacher. When i did i was kinda freaking out an cry. i never been close or involved with anyone that even wanted to try doing drugs...

yeah well i hope so... i mean they had to call the damn paramedics

I heard about kids over dosing on DXM lately, i just didn't think it would be my friends...

Today i was int the lunch room in the morning like i usually am. The group of friends i was with these 2 guys had something. it was in one of their hododies, and then it spilled out... and they treid to get everything up. He was like we need to get all of it or we are all going to be suspened. that led me to think it was a drug so in 1st period i told the teacher about it. I was freaking out. I mean the drug was spilled under me. Well he took me to the school police. I told him, then i was taken to other police. It was about 2 hours. I was really scared and i was crying. Then later this other friend that had nothing to do with it was like what they had was something called skittles. She made me swear not to tell anyone, but i already did. They paramedics had to come later ... not much later. It was probably b/c of the skittles. Now they probably know who it was.... who told.... well i want to knokw exactly was "skittles" are. How harmful are they? i saved to guys' lifes today.

Yeah i sometimes do that too. He tends to play games and doesn't respond sometimes.... so yeah. It was probably 5 -7 minutes. then he went away and the came back and signed off.

please read this post so you know what i am talking about.... link removed i was talking to him... this was our convo... xXLAUGHS LOUD: can i ask you something... xXLAUGHS LOUD: ? GTCountryBoy: sure xXLAUGHS LOUD: remember when we were "going out" GTCountryBoy1: ya xXLAUGHS LOUD: i asked you why you liked me.... u started to say then u had to go.... why was it? GTCountryBoy1: cuz ur awesome GTCountryBoy1: io mean u r pretty, fun, nice, (play trumpet) artistic, etc. xXLAUGHS LOUD: what makes me awesome though.... im obviously not that awesome if 12 guys turn me down just as friends.... and ppl inore me... GTCountryBoy1: ya i wish we didnt live away tho xXLAUGHS LOUD: ur really not that far, i know pll over 3 hours away from eachother... GTCountryBoy: o GTCountryBoy1: ya well GTCountryBoy1: its just GTCountryBoy1: thats hard for me GTCountryBoy1: idk y xXLAUGHS LOUD: i know... xXLAUGHS LOUD: umm xXLAUGHS LOUD: crap i forgot... GTCountryBoy1: i h8 when that happens xXLAUGHS LOUD: yeah well aj interrupeted me xXLAUGHS LOUD: and he has no idea what is wednesday neither does mel xXLAUGHS LOUD: u know what wednesday is right? GTCountryBoy1: ur bday! GTCountryBoy1: woot! xXLAUGHS LOUD: yeah xXLAUGHS LOUD: ur like the only one xXLAUGHS LOUD: who remembers xXLAUGHS LOUD: oh well xXLAUGHS LOUD: im gonna go...no one needs me here GTCountryBoy1: im sry! GTCountryBoy1: i love u! xXLAUGHS LOUD: dont be sry xXLAUGHS LOUD: it hurts when u say i love u xXLAUGHS LOUD: b/c i know u only mean it as a brother... i love you.... then there was no response.... What does it mean?

he told me.... But all of a sudden he stpped and he cant stop talk to his friends about me, like he did when he asked me out b4. Hes only shy to some exstint..... yeah well idk what else to say....

this is strange..... ever since daryll wsa over staurday he hasn't said one thing about lexi. yesterday he said that i was so sexy, and had a pillow. "inside joke with the pillow" he never told me that though. he even said it in front of his friends too. And the know he likes lexi. my friend who know him thinks that he still llikes me. The way he talk to me and stuff and not talking about lexi anymore.... He thinks daryll is going to ask me out again. See when you are like brother and sister, and you get told that you are very sexy, when that person says they like someone else.... its just strange..... I asked him if he wanted to come to my homecoming with me. He said he couldn't b/c of this band thing he has to do that day. He was like i will send you one of those flower thingies( i forgot what they are called at the moment) just to that you wont be without one. He also sent me a letter that started out. "Hey Babe!" --- Im i really a sister, ot does he still like me????

not that i know of, but he may towards girls...

i dont know why they didn't work. im not sure if i was a reason or not. I just dont know! i mean after he laft the party saturday... i held this pillow that i love thet he gave me. He knows me too well. I was hugging the pillow and wouldn't let go. My friend was with me. She say that i was crying. I couldn't help but cry b/c i loved daryll so much and the pillow just reminded me of him so much and makes me miss him even more. everytime i hold it i cry. i will never get rid of it! never! Darylls not a big phone talker. He will talk on the internet though. and through letter. We do talk on the phone sometimes though. Since our sceduels are so busy we dont get to see eacother much, but a few times for marching band too. so yeah. He sent me an e-mail.... hes said i love you sooo much and i never never stop loving you. It just hurts me that i dont get to she you as offten as i would like. I wish i could see ur face and hold ur hand, but it doesn't happen often. I didn't want you to be hurt either. i just see you more of a sister than a girlfriend. i dont want that label since we live at a distance. Please dont get upset about this b/c i love you and always will. sooo yeah.... idk...... heres just something that clicks when we are together. He knows it and i know it. His mother treat me as if i were he daughter. she is super nice too. when daryll was over i must have hugged him 100 times. I couldn't do anything else though. i wish i could have got a kiss out of him, but i knew it would be wrong so i said no to myself. I LOVE HIM AND THIS OTHER GIRL IS TAKING HIM FROM ME! I CANT HADLE THIS! I LOVE HIM TOO MUCH, BUT I WANT HIM TO BE HAPPY TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i dont know what it is about me that scare guys off.... the only guy who loved me and the lonly guy i loved was my ex.... we are like bro and sis toeachother now. i wish it were more. hes the only guy that treats me like he does. i feel like i'll never find a guy like him again. ever since he broke it off with us hes been in 2 or 3 relationships... they didn't work.... I haven't been interrested in anyother guys but him. All my friends say i need to get over him. I'm not sure that i can. i asked him if he would go to homecoming with me b/c i had no one to go with and i didn't want to feel stupid and alone. He said that he wanted to but he has something to do that day with the marching band. He wouldn't be able to make it. So then he was like, "i'll senf out one of those flower wrist things i 4got what they were called... any was he said thet he would send me one so that i wouldn't be without one.hes too sweet. The reason it didn't work was b/c we live 29 minutes away from eachother. the other day he got here in 20 ( he came to my party). well he said he couldn't go long without seeing me and our schdeuls would never work out. He said it hurt him too much.i dont know, it would be the same for me, but it would be worth it.... i could wait a millions years if i had to. I love him so much. When he was at my party he was all over me. Im not sure if it was the brother type other over, or the i like you still kind of all over. I mean this other guy who came that was a friend of mine i went to hug him and he had his arm around me..... And then we went downsatirs. The daryll(ex) took me and put his arms around me as we went down the stairs as if he were jelous. I play trumpet. so day daryll. Eddie does too (the gut thet i hugged). All trumpet player are good at saying and competing against eachother to proove it. Well that what they were doing but with me.... and the game of pool and they challenged eachother on my trumpet as well. Basically my point is .... it sounds like and looks like he still likes me, but he tells himself that he cant... and its hurting me. I would die for daryll i love him too much. i sound stupid, but i know things and yeah.. eveytime i say this sometimes i prove myself that i am wrong but i can feel it. Daryll is the one. If you knew how we met and how it led to a relationship and everything else i mean its amazing and its like it was on purpose. I mean theres a reason i play trumpet, that i am a female, that i am short , that i am a really good trumpet player, why we got in the same band, why i got his sn, why his ex broke up with him, why hes a trumpet player, why we live in the same district.... think about it.... it all comes together. Then if i know he is the one, then when will he realize it.... I am so lost and confused and i feel so unloved b/c no lother guys like me like daryll did and does.... i got recjected 3 times today.... Still .... yeah...

yeah, u should, it will giveu good skin in the future as well...

he said no

well yeah. i hope he will tell me soon. i mean I think he likes me, at least a little bit. aajust the way hes been nicer to be lately. Hes always coming to see me with james .... He, james, and may dad like to challenge eachother on a halo. My mom says that they have no going home sense. They will come over in the afternoon and wont leave ntil its dark or almost dark. i had a party saturday, and b4 the party it was all hunter could talk about. everyday in class he was like i cant wait till ur party its gonna be awesome. Hes still like what do you want for ur b-day. I keep telling him nothing, but hes not going to listen to me. he was just like i dont care, im gonna get you something. Well yeah....