Internal Politics.

[Luke Skywalker]

Luke, that has nothing to do with a sexual experience. This was a business situation with a business associate that just happened to have a vagina.

 

Experience ratings are not confined to just sexual experience, it's more based on connection, and healthy rapport feelings, that could also take the forms of good pleutonic friendships - as long as there is no friction that arises in that arrangement. Positive scores are determined as a function of happiness, sexual experience may be a factor to happiness, but it's not the only factor. I feel happy in that set which is why I put that score there.

 

I also know her for about a year, and have driven in her car, ate out with her, hung out with her, and she's generally a nice person to have in my life and something to be thankful to God for, thus she's a ratable score.

 

Another girl in the office, who is also a business associate, but I felt she choose another guy over me as her boyfriend, she got a negative rating in a prior administration.

[cavie_man]

Luke, what I don't get is this.

 

You use your overall "experience rating" to decide if you will be able to view porn, masturbate, run a sex ad, or even get a hooker.

 

Yet to determine those ratings, you use things such as women smiling at you and a business associate, and other women who are completely nonsexual in their intentions. A business woman who is nice to you gets a plus rating yet a businesswoman who is nice to you yet gets a boyfriend gets a negative rating. There's an inherent assumption being made by you, that the businesswoman is going to make you her boyfriend, and that's just wrong because she's just doing her job.

 

None of it makes sense to me. Comparing business relationships to sexual ones is like saying if you eat 10 oranges, you can eat a banana.

[Luke Skywalker]

Yet to determine those ratings, you use things such as women smiling at you and a business associate, and other women who are completely nonsexual in their intentions.

 

They were both single and within my age range when I started seeing both of them last year. The other one was negative rated and written off last year.

This one here did not get a negative rating because there is still some sort of connection with her that's valued, it just means I'm seeing beyond the 'she choose another guy over me and I hate her' thinking and trying to appreciate some potential valuable jewels around.

 

For some reason I didn't hate this girl and accepted her as a friend.

 

There's an inherent assumption being made by you, that the businesswoman is going to make you her boyfriend, and that's just wrong because she's just doing her job.

 

If a single girl within my age range that is datable is within my office and agrees to go out with me, then there is an expectation that something could develop from that.

[cavie_man]

How about the phone number you call and there is a womans voice that tells you the time?

 

She sounds nice, sexy even, and you have HER number.

 

What's her rating?

[Luke Skywalker]

How about the phone number you call and there is a womans voice that tells you the time?

 

She sounds nice, sexy even, and you have HER number.

 

What's her rating?

 

Review my posts in this thread. Your lost. This is not an intelligent contribution to this thread.

[Luke Skywalker]

What are the reasons for you hating the others?

 

Well, I guess they just rubbed the wrong way with me. It was perceived like disprespect, I'm being used as a tool to validate their fragile egos but I'm not respected as a man, and it arouses all sorts of very bitter feelings - but I just put a negative score on paper instead and move on.

[Luke Skywalker]

Yes, but hatred. Such a strong, horrible word. Should be reserved for those who have caused you a great deal of pain and suffering in your life, caused you grief, heartache, financial loss, injury or sickness.

 

Not a woman who simply dissed you. Its all in the degree. Ya know?

 

I've edited the post. It's a possibility that some people put on a face on things and are used as a scapegoat. It could be the straw that breaks the camel's back out of a series of rejections, that girl that you really felt there was a real connection just to get a betrayal or heartbreak at the end of the day.

 

When I hate someone that just means I wont talk with them anymore and they cease to exist in my mind and they dissappear. I dont harbour any ill-feelings. Perhaps I used a harsh term. What other term should I use instead?

[Luke Skywalker]

What does editing posts and scapegoat people have to do with you wanting to kill a person who rubbed you the wrong way?

 

Where did I say I wanted to kill a person who rubbed the wrong way?

I just rate things in the system. A negative ten is the worst score. Whatever.

[Luke Skywalker]

Hatred=wanting to kill a person.

 

You said rubbed the wrong way. That means hatred. That can be murder sometimes if the conditions are appropriate in a dark way.

 

No, it means that you put a minus sign beside a ten on a piece of paper. It's simply an accounting method. Numbers, paper and pen. That's all. It's just one experience out of many, and many more to come.

 

In any event, revenge or hatred means you are going to seek casual sex, or going to a prostitute, or whatever as directed in that system not to kill anyone other than my virginity and innoscence.

[Luke Skywalker]

Pen and paper isn't going to get your penis sucked Lukie boy.

 

Get out of the house and get laid. That's all I gotta say.

 

I'm not frustrated enough to get laid. The score must be lower.

[AntiLove_SuperStar]

This thread is still going? I remember posting in...well, ages ago. I'm astonished!

 

I do recall marvelling at it. Numbers for attraction etc? I do want to ask, in all seriousness...do you or did you ever suspect you have/had Aspergers Syndrome? Intelligence, eccentricity and applying logical/mathematical procedures to the abstract and emotional...just a thought.

[Daddy Bear]

This thread is still going? I remember posting in...well, ages ago. I'm astonished!

 

I do recall marvelling at it.

 

Yeah, I haven't felt the need to post in this thread because I thought you nailed it in September of '06 (emphasis added):

 

Luke... I say this with good intentions and compassion.

 

The way you think concerns me - it is very intense and obsessive, are you currently seeing a professional counsellor?

 

The rather...unusual way you think/live will show, and that is why you are single.

 

Sorry

[Dako]

Anti has a keen sense of things.

[Luke Skywalker]

This thread is still going? I remember posting in...well, ages ago. I'm astonished!

 

It's the Never Ending Story.

 

 

I do recall marvelling at it. Numbers for attraction etc? I do want to ask, in all seriousness...do you or did you ever suspect you have/had Aspergers Syndrome? Intelligence, eccentricity and applying logical/mathematical procedures to the abstract and emotional...just a thought.

 

Well, I suppose everybody is crazy and you could apply some name and a syndrome to everything. I've just checked the defination on wikipedia and do not think I have this syndrome.

[Daddy Bear]

Well, I suppose everybody is crazy and you could apply some name and a syndrome to everything.

 

True that... but some of us cover it up better than others. I think Ant does have a point about your regimental rigidity being unattractive to the overwhelming majority of most women, and thereby self-defeating.

[Luke Skywalker]

True that... but some of us cover it up better than others. I think Ant does have a point about your regimental rigidity being unattractive to the overwhelming majority of most women, and thereby self-defeating.

 

I don't live my life based on whether something is attractive or unattractive to an abstract 'woman' as though appeasing some goddess, that's just a receipy to go insane. Unless you are famous, rich or a movie-star, or some sort of good player then you may be attractive to the overwhelming majority to most women, so this doesn't detract from my current status which is about nothing anyway.

 

Secondly, I do not NEED to have the overwhelming majority of women to be attracted to me, I just need ONE woman (that I have some attraction to of course) who can accept me for being me, and totally embracing me, rather than just merely tolerating or turning a blind eye because of some other redeeming factor (which I would think as phoney).

[Daddy Bear]

I don't live my life based on whether something is attractive or unattractive to an abstract 'woman' as though appeasing some goddess, that's just a receipy to go insane.

 

Is it really kowtowing to an abstraction to put edible bait on your hook before lowering it into the water?

[Luke Skywalker]

Is it really kowtowing to an abstraction to put edible bait on your hook before lowering it into the water?

 

That's not the right analogy. This thread-concept here is an entirely private and personal matter and it has nothing to do with any dating process. It may provide some limited motivation to go out and meet people, but that's about it, or to take a break here and there.

 

If you wish to really contribute advice towards success with women, then you the only way you can do so on this thread is to challenge the negative scores on this on the case by case presented here - otherwise, you realise you are not making any sense. You have to work within the system, not fight it.

[Dako]

Please realize that not everyone here is a force to be countered. If you want to post a blog detailing your inner thoughts regarding a conflicted view of sexual issues, don't overlook that some people may actually care.

[AntiLove_SuperStar]

I have missed the people here.

 

I apologise for repeating myself. My memeory fails as I get older!

[Luke Skywalker]

I have missed the people here.

 

I apologise for repeating myself. My memeory fails as I get older!

 

I'm glad to see my bloglike thread may have a sentimental value to you.

[Luke Skywalker]

March 3rd register of score avarage - it's a net positive score.

 

Actually, no real effort was actually made approaching anyone and I basically coasted for a couple of weeks.

 

Just last Saturday I had a date with a girl I wasn't really feeling for, but went ahead anyway, bought a bunch of roses, gave it to her, and had a dinner date with her. It ended with a nice kiss/french kiss when I took her back.

 

Yes, I remember a time, on the foundation of this whole thing that I was pissed with some girl for blowing me off on a move to kiss her, and so far, since that time, I've kissed four different girls with two different french kisses.

French kisses are generally a bit on the gross side, but are not repulsive, depends on how much chemistry you have with the person I guess and how they take you, although there could be a nice connection to it. For now, I'd rather do stuff with people I don't care about or I'm not too physically attracted to, even though the experience may be less rewarding.

 

That was highest rated score, with a few other lower positive scores, with only one negative -1 score somewhere that's not taken seriously.

 

Re-setting to the next date, Oct 26th. Nothing negative to talk about here.

[Luke Skywalker]

Since March 3/08, I've done a sketch of myself to see how I'm interacting with women and to see if I'm happy, content, or frustrated with the quality of those interactions. While intending to go until October 24, 2008 this year, I've pretty much believe I've got a snap-shot of myself for this quarter so far to draw a conclusion.

 

- It appears that I like having pleutonic relationships with women who are taken and seem to be successfully pursuing what I want. Hanging out, having coffee and lunch meeting or hanging around and talking to women who are married or who have boyfriends or who are single but just friends appear to be staple. It looks like I just enjoy being social with any woman who is nice to me and wants to be social with me, taken or not.

 

Since it appears that I'm content with whatever lifestyle I have inclined myself towards, between March 3 - current /08, I do not think it's necessary to pursue any scoring system any further to the end of this current cycle and am signing off right now. This thread/blog will be further updated again on October 24, 2008 to ratify again what I just said today.

 

I'm giving myself until September 25th, this year to find a girlfriend, where if I'm unable to find one by that time, I'll be looking into using the fleshlight again that's stored in the basement to correct my masturbation habits. It seems unlikely at this time that I'll find one by that date because I do not see any prospects out there and it doesn't seem like I'm really meeting anyone to fit that role that's acceptable to the standard of what I want, and do not think anything will change between now to that time.

[Luke Skywalker]

Dear Diary,

 

It is now November 23, 2008. Just yesterday, I took out that girl I meet on the internet 2 years ago that had a child. She's 20 years old now. We had a nice time together, and I always like going out with her as she makes me feel like a man and puts lots of trust in me. In fact, she invited me into her apartment and we chatted and had a nice long hug, where she let me fondle her bottom and had a really close hug. We watched a couple of movies up where I fronted the cost, but what I'm getting out of it is so astronomical that I don't care. We talked a bit sexual and before dropping her off home we had nice kiss and hugs, and I started slapping her bottom when she asked me if I liked grapping her butt.

 

All in all, this is an anomalous AMAZING experience I had with a girl that is so noteworthy that I'm not going to update this thread any longer on February 3rd. This was not updated on October 24, 2008, like I said I was going to do earlier because I felt I I've said enough on the previous post - and felt I was not interested in women in general and just stook with other priorities in life.

 

I feel so satisfied by all of this taking place and am feeling content with this level of much needed exposure that I'm going to sign off for now. Interesting, this girl's birthday is in the month of November.

[thejigsup]

I hope this turns into something wonderful for you both! I will be thinking good thoughts for you.